All I wanted upon seeing you was,
A warm hug and a peck on the cheek,
Not a final goodbye.

Tomorrow is my first paper and it’s a morning paper.
Its 7 plus now and I’m left with,
Structural Adhesive and Pressure Sensitive Adhesive
Those two giants to kick over,
And off I am to bed!!
Jiayou, Sue!!

Tell me, why I have been hearing this similar phrase from so many different people for the past few days or a week? And coincidentally, I’m in love with the song of this phrase too. The phrase is this,

“What goes around comes around…”

Like wada?!?! Whenever I’m discussing something with someone, this phrase will definitely come up. Like Grrr… Sick of the words so suddenly.

And yes, yes… Maybe you are right. I’m paranoid, definitely paranoid. It’s like reflex action perhaps I’m used to it. Takes a little bit of time to overcome that habit and I will get over it. *hurhurhur*

And sadly, I won’t be getting my durians tonight. My “driver” is busy tonight. Sheesh! As for now, I’m so in the mood for Mcdonalds, notes and books aside, I’m off to Tampines for those fries now!! Tata..

*Loves and kisses and hugs*

Oh… Freaking Kents!! I’m not preggers!!*stared face* Sheesh. I have these few little and huge craves for food. My brain sensed it and my stomach wants it so I’m gonna eat it!! Muahahahaha.

Today is just one headache-eeyyy day!!

I have problems with my studies. My notes/materials/information is overloaded. Cannot concentrate… AAAHHH!! And I just found out that my first paper is a morning paper. AAAAHHH!!! Panic attack!! Means, I won’t be sleeping for 2 nights… Need to really, really, really, really chiong my revision!! Oh and those going to ton at Moberly, I WANT TO JOIN TOO!! Hopefully if I’m not sleepy. My mom was freaking surprised/reluctant when I said I’m gonna study for a whole night and day. She is scared I’m gonna faint from overstress. HAHA!!

Let’s talk about today…

I woke up freaking late, even though I had an early morning wakey. But seriously, I can’t wake up. My morning revision was gone… And I waited for Azri to come along, which took a long time… He bought OCK’s sotong ball and nuggets which was totally my favourites, so I was basically munching while studying. And seriously I didn’t know my mom was fasting, but the Curry O was saved up… Well Azri, it’s the thought that counts ya… *winks*

For 2 whole hours, he was in the room, hogging the computer and I was so freaking fed up with him. I was like talking to the wall, so I got back to my books. He was so khusyuk, into the computer. My mom was walking up and down the room and he doesn’t even realise it. Bomb meletup pun die tak sadar agaknye!! The only thing that could distract him was his tummy!! He was basically hungry and he went up and down the kitchen at times to grab some food. Buka Periuk sane sini, buka fridge and menyekik!! Sheesh!! Macam rumah sendiri pulak!! Tak tau malu langsung!!

And, and I got my pics downloaded!!! Finally!!! WEEE!!

Then, we headed for school, in the evening to return my DVD. A one hour trip just to save up 2 bucks fine. Grr!! Waste of time…

To waste some more time, we went to the arcade!! It’s been a long time since I step into the arcade!! And boy, I didn’t lose in the race ok?? The steering just got stuck. Hmmph!! Then there was this many buttons thing, where you just smack it hard. Best, best!! I was so into it. Smacking those buttons.

And, and… I watched Ghost Tunnel!! Freaking scary show!! Naik bulu roma la!! The sound effects, the ghost, the atmosphere. It just fits!! Its very menyeramkan la. thumbs up!

Got my Teh Peng from Ah Mei. I swear, the teh Peng there is so nice!! My favourite. And tomorrow, hopefully, I will have my personal driver to accompany me to Katong to get my durians!! I never like durians that much but those durians, I miss suddenly… I have a sudden huge crave!!! *drools*

And, and… I’M GONNA HANG OUT WITH THE GIRLS ON VDAY!! WEE!!! Insyaallah. Because it’s always last minute cancelled. That I hate!! But we will plan and make it work! And I just realised Vdays are on the 14th. Haiz…

So thats my day today!! Its weird, isn't it??? I have 4 papers these 2 weeks and instead of kuai-kuai sit at home study, I can still go out, have fun and even watch a movie... Typical Sue style!!

One more thing before I end, I know you will be reading it and I beg you, Please stop sending me the messages. Just don’t make me feel inferior and have too many thoughts for now. Can you?

Been binge-ing again! Oh goodness gracious!! Hopefully I can still fit in my jeans weeks later. *prays hard*

And, and I’m going to Causeway Point tomorrow!! FOR DINNER!!! I miss my roti john there. Or should I just go to Simpang and eat the Roti John there? Hmm… Let’s see how my makan kaki decides. But whatever it is, I’m eating Roti John tomorrow!!

OH!! I have this special wish, I know some people know but I’m still gonna ask for it openly!! Can I pweettipwettipwetti pleeeeaaseee… Have a hamster as a gift on friendship day?? *flutter eyes*

I remember telling one of the friends what I wanted on Valentines-cum-Friendship day and he/she said it was a dumb gift. It’s not. It’s something unusual/special/extraordinary. You are giving a life to me. I wish I could just have a pretty little hamster, in that small little cage in pink. *dreaming*

And my TWeety!! Something happened to it!! I was holding on to it while eating curry and plop!! It fell right of the head.. Sheesh! Now there is an ugly patch there. But I wiped it off, so it’s a little bit better…

Okay, I’m way lazy on my notes/revision. I’m just lazy!! Can’t face it!! So now, I’m off to bed…

Bye2… love you.. MUAX!!

Life has been hectic, hasn't it??

But comparing my situation with a friend, I'm more fortunate. And Rin, Take care of yourself. Life's too much precious to waste away like that. And I'm sorry that I didn't got to know about it earlier. *tight hugs*

And to those who have took the time off to actually press and send supportive messages toward me, Thanks and thanks, thanks, thanks alot!! *lots and lots of hugs n Loves*

And no, no.. Its not gonna affect my studies. I'm not that stupid for that. My last semester and I'm gonna do it well. Insyaallah.

And the moron who tagged me, I KNOW WHO YOU ARE!!! you are just one unsupportive freak who likes to dwell on my life, when it is none of your concern anymore. And stop it eh!! Jgn nak kol and step salah send message la. Malas aku nak layan!!

Oh, I watched the SIN vs MAS match yesterday. Syiokkies!!! Especially the penalty!! Woohoo!! And there was the Malaysian and the Singaporean at home. Abang Syamsul was so keen on watching and finishing the match with Dad before he headed home. When the penalty didn't hit, he went, "Ciss!!". HAHA!! KECOHS! Somemore with the dad as company.

And comments from the mother: "You have to stop eating!! Too much for the past days.."
And from the dad, "Ppl who eats alot are usually stressed..."

Ya, ya.. I'm stressed!! I have exams for the next 2 weeks, 4 papers!! And I'm up to my neck with revision. So scared de!!

And I realised that I have to stop my binge on food. Imagine, I'm studying and there are always food on the desk. While memorising, I'm munching... HAHA!! And, tak pernah2 aku makan pudding, I ATE 4 bowls of puddings yesterday night!! WAH!! Sheesh! I had chocolates, I had biscuits, Bread, Spaghetti.. ALL ON THE TABLE!! I think the food takes up much of the table than the books itself. KWAKWA!!

But, but... I guess never mind!! I can lose all that weight during the hols which is in... 2 WEEKSS!!! WEEEEEEE!!! *hurhurhur*

OK, back to my notes now!! *Mr blur jonny is gg back to his notes, so i'm gg too..*

Bye!! lOVEs, hUGs ANd KISSes!!

MUAX!!!

No one/no matter has ever made me cry this way.

Because never in my life, I have ever been insulted/accused/blamed like that.

Sekarang terang2 aku kate kat dalam blog aku, walaupun matair kau best friend aku sendiri (sorry bestfriend! But he is too much!! And bestfriend, Kalau kau nk marah kat aku, marah ah.. aku terima tp matair kau melampau. ), aku bencikan SEKEPING dengan seteruk2 nye yang aku takkan maafkan die seumur hidup aku. Okay, boldly, SEUMUR HIDUP AKU!!

You have insulted me enough. You lied and u made my loved one detest me a lot. And I’m sure you had your ways. Tak tau la kau pakai ilmu ape kan. Read, I LOVE MUHD FAIROZ BIN ABDULLAH and we were on the road of recovery in our relationship. But thanks to you and congratulations, you have made him hate me in just a few hours. Bagus, good job indeed.

Sekarang, aku tak nak pun tengok muke kau. Jangan ckp muka, name kau pun tak nak aku dengar.

Confession!! Yes, I do contact other guys beside my boyfriend, when I was in a relationship with D. Two of them and they are my friends. And I gladly and proudly say, One is my new found best friend who have put in a lot and gave me strength and advices in situations of my life and the other, is the one who was just there. Yes, he carries a torch for me but he knows it’s fairly impossible but due to the groups of friends we hang with, we meet each other a lot. And for good or bad, we have agreed to go our own ways in life, just today. So, why must you make it sound like as if I was a timer? I didn’t. And I didn’t flirt around. I know I didn’t. And yes, l don’t know why the word is there, “suke melayan”. Ya, memang aku suke melayan org, tapi it never went too far. We joked, we laughed, we have fun, we confide, we tell stories about each other’s life, our experiences and there was all to it. If you look around, there are many other interesting people, unlike you, where your life is freaking boring.

And I don’t accept it that you called me a perempuan gatal and flirt and maki2 aku nie semua. Let me tell you this, even if this was true, at least aku ade harga diri and maruah aku sendiri. Aku tak sesuka hati and dengan senang-wenang nye macam kau. And what right do you have to comment on my life?! Like I said before, you don’t have that. AND READ THIS (I wrote it in bold pasal kau tu buta sikit. Potek semacam!!), WE NEVER PATCHED UP. So kau tak payah nak compare2 aku nie semua. And it’s still my problem that I still contact him, okai?? You don’t let go of the ones you LOVE and so I didn’t let go.

And memang tak selamat la hidup kau, buat keje-keje macam gini. That’s why your life is surrounded by problems and troubles. That is called “dolat”. Padan muka!! Or can I say this in English, “Serve you right!!”.

Now to my 2 other loved ones,

To D, yes, he is your best friend. And I don’t blame you if you believe that good-for-nothing. And I know you basically hate me now. So, whatever, I don’t think I ever want to contact you again or even see you. Enough is enough. The two of you has made me miserable enough for now. And you are one freaking contradict-or of your life!!! Dulu, when my best friend bad-mouthed you, ape you kate, “Ape sia you. I matair u and you back up die, let her talk about me instead of supporting me”. Well, that isn’t what I heard just now, I believe. Instead I heard, “U… Orang luar dah kate you macam gini.. U takde adat, budi bahase org melayu.. Kawan baik I and u sendiri dah kate..” Can I say something??? F*** YOU!! You talk about adat with me?? Please, freaking reflect on your life before you talk about adat/budi bahasa with me. I have far better adat/budi bahase than you.

To my bestfriend, You want to be mad/angry/pissed or whatever, go ahead. Well, he is your boyfriend right? But I don’t think because of this, you will stop talking to me. Because I love you too much for that. But I’m not gonna be mad at you for saying the stuff that you did, behind me. That, you know me too well. And I’m not sorry for all this. And, you want to be with him, I don’t have problems. As long as I don’t have to see him and I don’t even want to hear his name.

I don’t know what the hell is wrong with you. I mean, WHAT THE HELL IS WRONG WITH YOU?!?!?

When last time it happened, “never mind”, I said to myself. Perhaps you were concerned about your girlfriend; you wanted her to change perhaps so you used my name and his. Never mind, I just forgive and forget. I also wanted the best for the two of you. So I relented. I acted everything was normal. I said nothing when you caused a rift between my closed ones. I simply take it as something unfortunate bound to happen, someplace, somehow.

But when it happened again this time, I can’t let it go. What is this game you are playing? Why are you lying and calling me a liar?? What is this?!?!?! YOU ARE THE BIG FAT LIAR HERE!! Oops, wrong…You will be the first, labelled: THE BIG SKINNY LIAR. This time round, we are not taking the blame, instead going to find the blame.

And yes, yes… We did go out together. Remember?? Perhaps you have too-short Short-Term Memory!! Maybe next time, you will even forget that you even had a girlfriend. Or maybe is it me? Did I dream about us going out together and took it for reality?? Did I imagine you sitting down and talking to me? Did I imagine all that?? NA DA!! It did happen!! I can even replay/recall what I/we did on that day.

I’m so FREAKING PISSED with you. I don’t know seriously, is it fun to lie, especially to someone who regards you as his good friend? And after that, putting the blame on me and calling me a liar (READ THIS, he called me penipu haram la!!)?? And one more thing, so what if I did something? Is it my life or your life? I have every right in my life to make any decisions and you only have the right to look and see. And whatever steps me and my other one take, you don’t have to bother. Its OUR life.

As for now, you don’t have to feel sorry/mad or whatsoever towards me or your good friend. Just feel sorry for yourself. You have so much trouble in your life, just bother about it. Go and wash up your dirty laundry before you volunteer to wash mine. Tak payah nak jage tepi kain aku. And please, have the every need in your life to balas baik with baik. Not balas baik dgn penipuan!!!

And, and patut pun kau mengaku diri kau bodoh, PASAL SEMEMANG KAU BODOH!! I may be stupid in certain matters but you are the ultimate, man!!

And one more thing, just get the hell out of my sight for now, till my anger towards you subside. As for now, you are at the top of my black list.

Taking a break from my notes to blog… Nowadays, I just can’t seem to go a day without blogging.

I should have listen to you but your words always fall on deaf ears.

Your words, “You will come to regret it soon.. You are just troubling yourself.”

This is the part where I go, “Dammit! I hate to admit it but I think you are right.” Sheesh..

Sue… A girl who thinks she is always right and won’t listen to others. A stubborn little girl who don’t know herself, inside. So keras kepala, as you always call me…

Now a decision has been made and I have to accept it. Regrets or no regrets, I have to keep it. Old habits die hard but I can do it!! Done it once, so I’m sure I can do it again. Right? Right! *being outrageously optimistic even though she knows the chances of it*

You keep saying I can’t control myself. Now I will show you SELF-CONTROL!! And I will show that, my leopard spots are sprayed-on spots.

Go, Sue!!! *showing confidence of herself*

To a loved one, I’m sorry for showing you that face/expression I haven’t shown since months ago. I know I seem to be in a daze for a whole day. And you know me the best among others and you have shown me support through all that. But no worries, I’m taking everything in my stride. *winks*

To the person I’m mad since afternoon, STRIKE ONE!!! Sheesh. Just because I cancelled our outings like twice, I did make up for it OKAI!! Nak kena kan orang blek pandai seh. Trying to make me feel how you felt those times. But never mind, Whatever.. Read this carefully.. "You are paying the next trip", so no hard feelings!! HAHA!!

Now, back to C&AT notes… bye!

MUAX!!

Ok… I’m sorry for stealing your lines but it’s kinda true for the both of us. We may look happy and hurray2 but are we really happy in our lives?? *wondering*

Think and reflect, so I speak....

Somebody please!!! Knock my head for once!!

Ok, my exams are exactly in A WEEK and guess what?!?! I haven’t started my revision and it’s like the last semester!! AAAHHH!! I don’t want to repeat my modules.. Like duh!! And tell me, how I have the time to study when I have plans for the rest of the week… Its like, so normal routine la for the past weeks/months.. I wake up at noon, shower, call a friend and go out till basically, night time. When I get home, I on the computer and will be online till wee hours. So… AAAAHHH!!! I’m panicking and very worried now.

Maybe, serve me right! I didn’t do any time management for my studies and fun.

Ohh… Pweeti please, I need to borrow C&AT notes from someone. *fluttering eyes*

My second set of notes, half is totally blank. Looking back, I missed like ermm, 4 or 5 of her lectures. I thought I’m supposed to get a warning letter for that.*Wondering* But the school has been kind to me, so NA DAH!!

So people!!! Wish me luck for exams.. I think I need all the luck from each and everyone.

And I’m looking forward for my movie date this weekend!! Weeeee!! And I promise I will TRY MY BEST to make it. Haha… Insyaallah

And excuse me Mister, isn’t it like so obvious I’m gonna reject your future/attempted lunch dates?? You have asked me like umpteen times, so like duh!! I’m never gonna go out with you. For once, please remind yourself, I’M ATTACHED!! Or even if I’m not, I still wouldn’t even have lunch for you. It is just total awkwardness. And I just know you will be reading this. So please.. Sheesh

Ok, girls and guys… I’m off now… To my notes, HOPEFULLY..

Tata… Love you!! MUAX!! *hugs*

First things first, MY CAMERA IS BACK ONLINE!!! So be prepared for the pics coming up to liven up this dead, boring blog!! *jumping for joy*

Met dearest DEE!!! Tadi… but I didn’t want to see her *sarcastically*. I wanted to see my dearest MAL!! Hehe..*start lah tu merajuk dee.. hehe*

Sit, sit, talk, talk.. BK burger with the kecohs for Chicken Whopper Jr and BBQ sauces. Did you guys know that there is no more Chicken Whopper Jr, instead its changed to Grilled Chicken? And I didn’t even know, till today!! Its been eons since I went to BK, seriously!! Munch, munch all the food, food.. Yumyum!!

Slacking at Open Plaza, with the melodious but soft music. Dee la, It just wasn’t loud enough and she is so takut others will scold her if we on the volume too loud. Sheesh!!

Waited for her darling who is just always there… HAHA!! The next haslin, maybe?? hehe..*no offence to both girls*

Met up with Azri who was just lucky to be there and its not, not gd to be lazy. He is so freaking choosy with the cards and I gave him ideas but NAH DA!! Sape la I kan?? Hmmph!!

We walked around, bought chocolates. Which turned out to be nice but I seriously don’t like strawberries-flavoured stuff!!

Parted with the couple because Little Miss Busy had a project meeting. And off we went home!! And I missed my Teh-Peng today la!! Haiz…

And Bangs, I will remember that bet we made. When the time comes, jgn nk step lupe eh!! HAHA!!

So now, the pics-ies!! The two camwhores were back today at their ultimate best!!

tHE bEsties!!

Our TrademarKs..

LooK hOw Our LiTTle mISS bUsY cHanGed TheSe fEw daYs...

ScruFFy, cRuMpy gIrLs

tHe gIRL wITh sNake tOnGue N gOldFisH eYes...

Ok.. you people have to stop calling me man!! My phone has been ringing non-stop!! I’m ok!! I just need my own space. If you people just keep calling me up and asking me, ‘What’s wrong?’.. I can’t answer and I won’t say. How can I answer when I Haven’t cleared my thoughts yet and I will say my problems if need be but for now, bugged off!! Sheesh.. And for the people whom I have shouted at or pissed at, I’m sorry. Sincerely sorry but It’s a rough time for me and I need to set my mind at ease. And I need my PEACE!! Oh, please... I begged you people. *on both knees, pleading* Let me off for these few days..

On the bright side, A few of 3B/01 went for the 3B/02 chalet yesterday at Aloha. One, first time we got the furthest bungalow from the main road. That is so seramsthemamps, especially at night. I had goosebumps when I went out there alone. And there was no reception!! So stressed de!!

Met Jing bin at Pasir ris MRT, bought the 2 birthday cakes for the birthday boys. Waited for bf and da jie (oh, my hands are used to typing da jie instead of xt… ever since donnoe when!) Off we went to Aloha with a “personal driver” on call. HAHA!!

Watch Chinese TV serials while eating. Even though the food was simple barbeques food but it was fantastic, guys!! Yumyum… Had a full stomach de!!! Chicken wings, sausages, crabsticks, Nuggets, smiley fries and my favourite of all, the wedges!!! That was the ultimate yummyneess!! And yes, yes… sorry for not helping out with the cooking… BUT WE ARE THE GUESTS!! Haha

And first time in all chalets, there were games by the gamemasters of CLS club!! I think they are… Animal games and candle 5… Syiok!! But had to leave halfway due to the presence of my personal driver!! HAHA!! Hope you guys had the midnight funss of the day!! Haha!!

So as for now!!!

HAPPY 20th BIRTHDAY TO THESE 3 people!!!

For Satiysh, I felt so bad yesterday!! Serious.. Like the look on your face and your body language. Like so… aaww… But blame it on your mates alright?? But Happy birthday aniways!! All the good wishes for you and mind, yes.. Your leg is freaking hairy!! HAHA!!

For Da Ren (Big Person), HAPPY BIRTHDAY!! I wonder why you spend your birthday, whole day at the chalet.. Its your birthday but you spend it like, any normal day. Should ask one of your girls out. Wouldn’t it be better!! Hehe.. HAPPY BIRTHDAY!! And gd luck for the ezamzzz!!!

For Ariff, hmm… HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!! Haha… *dumbfounded*

I'm Grieving now!!! And I'm crying!!

My little Favourite guppy is DEAD!!!
*Crys like nobody's business*

I had 11 little guppies as gift and 9 was dead within 3 days.

Only 2 survive.. Now after 6 weeks, My favourite guppy is dead!! It was so tiny and cute, like as if it had malnutrition. But now, its DEAD!!! *sobs, sobs*

Now I only have 1 little guppy which is so common. Its orange in colour and I don't like it. It is active and likes to chase after my favourite guppy. And it eats up all the food first when it is being fed. No wonder my favourite guppy looks like it has malnutrition..

May God bless my favourite guppy... *sobs*

Events that happened within the week that is worth saying/telling:

One,

Our conversation on Monday Morning at 5.55am:
Mat: *sleepy voice on* oik.. ah, eh, ah…
Sue: ah, eh, oh, ah.. K (puts down phone and went back to sleep..)

So, anyone understands what we were talking about?? Haha!!

Niways, Mamat, thanks for the wake up call… Sumpah i tak tau ape I was bbual-ing td pagi. Baby language, agaknye… Terpengaruh kuat la, baby language kite… HAHA!!

Two,


On Tuesday, I slept like a log at 4 for half an hour b4 I got disturbed by my handphone. The trouble of ring tones and phones!! Picked up the phone, the guys waiting downstairs, I mumbled something and went back to sleep! HAHA!! 20 minutes later, woke up. And with that barubanguntidur look and slacked- home clothes with the utterly bad barubanguntidur breath and a grandmama’s hair bun, I turun bawah block!! First time la ok?? Tak self-conscious langsung pasal image. HahaK!

Three,

I had my POPRI test. Finished it in 5 -10 minutes and you all ah… Including me la.. All cheat codes!! Hahak. When the lecture is just beside us!! A good forsaken memory for our last test in Polytechnic Life!!

Four,

On Wednesday, we went to have our early dinner at Al-Azhar. Yumyum!! Ok, it was yumyum but presentation was ermm… not yumyum. I ordered this Fried Chicken rice sambal and what arrived in front of me was very scary and so red!! It was red fried rice like Indian fried Rice, flooding in sambal gravy and a huge chicken there. I have the picture but I bet he deleted it!! Sheesh!

And on ermm, Friday, I went to Simpang for Supper and I ordered the same thing. At least presentation was not that bad and I loved it!! It was just plain Nasi Goreng with chicken. It was quite a lot for $4 plate. Yummy Yum!! Too bad I didn’t take a photo. Blame it all on Azri!! HmmpH!!

Niways, thanks for the company!! Needed it!! And we should go on more Makan Places!!

Five,

Had our PTN gathering at SAKURA INTERNATIONAL BUFFET!! I think mcm gitu la name die kan. Was lucky enough to meet those guys on the train.. A total of 15 came. A good turnout, better than the last, at the very least.

Food was average. Lots of Japanese food and yes, it was such major coincidences. Jay (yes, your name is mentioned again…) and I was like talking about food like Sashimi, Escargots, Steak and all that stuff, I believe the day before or the day before, before and I ate it today! Wow!! Had a piece of sashimi and it was hmm.. RAW!! Yucks!! Had ice cream, lots of food and being such a foodie, I had lots till I could vomit!!

And when I reach Simei MRT, Tak tau ape hall ah eh. Bought Ice cream and duduk pat depan 7-11 sorang2, malam2 buta. Tell me, what is wrong with me nowadays??

Six,

I didn’t know how I could have so much patience, waiting for someone!

I finish school at 4 plus but I was able to wait for Azri till 8pm!! Amazing kan? 4 hours!! And break record, I didn’t eat anything till erm, 7 plus, I believe. Tu pun setakat Pao je.

Ask me what I was doing for 4 hours. TIDO!!!!!! Haha.. Just can’t resist the comfyness of the sofa. *Stretches*

Seven,

I was in fc5 waiting for Azri. He was in 7-11. And I see this dark-skinned man waving at me about 5 metres away. And I thought he was waving at someone else, perhaps behind me. But he was waving again and again. That’s it, I had to find out who he is. So I took out my specs and guess who I saw?? Fathul rupanye, that doggy-bone-the-head!! With Diana.. I wonder how she can be so putih la!! Tau la die cina tapi Im so jealous of her complexion. But, but, but… I’m still happy with myself. *Hugs herself tight*

He had such a fun laugh I guess!! Hmmph!!

Come on, it was 8 in the night and I sometimes have poor night vision. Like duh, I can’t see you guys!!

Eight,

I’m a bit racist!! I think I am. I made up some jokes making about race and religion. Must and MUST stop doing that!! That Siras influence me one!!

Nine,

OH ok, This I have to say. And I know Bob would just go, “Damnit!” if he sees this. HAHA!!!

The story is like this.

I was changing and changing my display picture and he was so tired of it. So I said, ‘Ok pe, muke aku lawa so aku advertise la..’ den he wrote this!! Hahak!!

the future is unseen and uncertain - شمر says:
lawa tapi irrtating buat pe

Alahai!! Buat susah je!! *Suesue is getting big headed*

Oh, and yes, yes… Thanks for all your help!! Buat susah je kan. Tapi psl suhaila, sume sanggup!! Ape kate kau, Members punye pasal eh?? Haha.. Sayang kau la!! Platonic je k and you know, Im not interested.

Ten,

I was looking forward for my Hindi movies Marathon yesterday from 12.30pm to 7 pm. BUT!!!!! It didn’t work out!! Stupid channels and stupid tv!!

But I make up for it by seeing this DVD today titled “Kabhi Alvida Nah Kehna”. If you translate it, Ermm.. Kabhi is sometimes, Alvida is goodbye and I tink Nah Kehna is Don’t or Never. So I guess the translation will be… hmm.. “Sometimes you should never say goodbye”. Ok, Hindi aku bagus jgk eh.. Kate ade darah Bengali!! Haha

And like always, Karan Johar’s production/direction is the BEST. All the hit shows like ermm.. Kabhi Kushi Kabhi Gham and I think, that movie in 1999. I forgot the title, “Kuch Kuch something something”

Tapi that movie is syiok!! Go, go watch it. Highly recommended for those having extra marital affairs. Learn the consequences of cheating on your spouses, but the ending was sweet la! Not realistic but still, ermm… Touches your heart!

So that is the end of it all. If you had thought this entry is stupid and not worth my spending typing on, Just Back off!! Not welcome!! *this is directed to a specific someone, FYI*

Hugs and kisses everyone!! MUAX, MUAX!!

I’m the one who made the decision, so why am I the one crying now? Regrets?? Perhaps…

But I have been acting strange ever since I got home. Why? I don’t know. Usual routine, Masuk pintu tukar baju and makan. But instead, masuk pintu, tukar baju and I took my Tweety and hugged it tight. And I was like a crazy girl talking to it. Ok, that is crazy!! Like as if it knows what I’m feeling and like as if it can talk.. Goodness! What the hell am I doing? I shouldn’t be doing that, should I? And I did something too which I shouldn’t do. Tell me why I am doing it at such at an inappropriate time and situation. I should stop doing it right? Should I? Ok, I’m crapping!!! NVM!!

Okay, now what I need to do, stay cool, focus and finish school!! Sheesh.. No more side tracking! All the problems can wait.. yes, that is what I’m gonna do!

Hmm… I have something to say to someone. Last words perhaps.

I’m sorry for all the things I did. And yes, I did lie abit about the situation just now. And your last words before you walked off hurts me a lot. Yes, It did. Maybe the sincerity just wasnt up there yet.

Maybe my presence is disturbing your life but I just hope for the best. I mean for you in your life. I want you to be happy and cheerful always. My best wishes are for you always and my thoughts for you may never leave. All I ask is for you to take care of yourself and don’t do anything stupid with your life. Finish school promptly and… basically just take care, will you? I love you. Bye

You didn’t even turn around and that didn’t make my day at all. I was just hoping you would turn once. But no, you didn’t and that made me sad.

I don’t mind if you do not want to have to talk to me but at least, leave me something to remember you by. I’m sorry for all the things I did that made you sad. And yes, I feel guilty. Anyhow and anyway, I will miss you and hope to meet you again, hopefully, one day and soons.

And Mamat kents!! Thanks for all the useless wake-up calls you give me and the listening ear too. Jangan mengambang just because I chose you ok? Yelah, rindu la, rindu la. Tapi platonic okies?? The pep-talk was great but menggeramkan, seriously. Just don’t keep asking me to have a nice and good talk when I can’t and won’t. Sheesh. Just trying to get on my nerves sometimes do you?? Hmmph!!

I also wish to thank Banu. (Yes, yes. Finally we met!!) I just want to say thanks for the listening ear and advice you give or ask me to think through. And yes, will do, will think it through. And Hopefully, I will make that wise decision you hope and will be proud of. *winks* you could be my personal counsellor. You are just too matured, girl!! LOVE YOU!!

And thanks for the day and gdness sake, I don’t think you have to be shy/embarrassed because of an outsider’s presence. HAHA!! So cute la you. But as soon that person was gone, you were just the stupid freaking crazy Banu, I know. *hugs and kisses*

And those moments where we just attract the attention of the people in the cabin that is what we should reduce. And I’m so honoured that you actually believed whatever I said, even when its so obvious that I was pulling your leg. But anyhow, it was funness!! We should do stupid stuff more often and the lesbian-things, less. And the camping trip, will organise it soon okies?? And Oii as well. WEE!!

And lastly, that meeting just now was to show you that I was not that bad in my friends company, was I? I don’t hang out with the taksenonohs. See the difference in my character when I’m with my friends and in your company. That difference. I was happy, cheerful and talkative and sothebecoksnakmamps. And my friends are all so innocent and kentals and I’m proud to have them as friends. As you like to say, “You muka penipu…” TA DA!! Glad dearie Banu backed me up on this one! Hehe. Well, no matter what, huggies!!

"If malice or envy were tangible and had a shape, it would be the shape of a boomerang.... "
~Charley Reese

sO jUS dOn mAke Me uSe tAt bOomErAng aNd HiT HEr... hMMph!!!

I have one thing to say today:

This goes out to guys out there who are freakishly jealous/sensitive/protective of their special ones..

"When a girl loves a boy, he is in her mind every minute of her day, even when she is flirting with other guys..."

History is repeating itself, but I won’t let myself suffer ever again. I’m not gonna succumb to those times and feelings ever again. What comes will just go away someday. It’s a fact to be accepted.

I guess getting hurt is just a phase I’m so used to that it’s just something to get through by.

And I know, he was gonna make me cry someday, the signs were there but I just neglected it.

Love in life is like this, but sweetest moments are never forgotten.
Thanks for all those.

Sue

Getting shouted at wasn’t at all fun.
Getting reprimanded and lectured wasn’t that fun either.
But when you know you are in the wrong,
Just keep quiet and shut up.
Open up the ears and just listen.
But take in the words on the left and just blow it off to the right.

Last but not least,

I’M SORRY!!! *showing off my apologetic, sympathetic look*

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When you have a conflict and want to settle things, should you just use muscles??
I mean, why must you use your brawns instead of your brains?? Wouldn’t it be much better if you could talk it out instead of brawling over it?

Yes, I’m the cause of it all but so do u. I mean, if you had known how to take my heart away and take care of it, wouldn’t I not be like this? If you had treated me like a girl and not some other guy friend of yours, wouldn’t I be so sweet and touching to you? If you had made me feel good about myself and stop it with your nasty comments, would I have gone to someone else who made me feel good about myself? I have feelings too and I would not have like it if I have someone trying to bring me down, almost everytime?! Wah!! So frustrating la!!

And I hate it that you are fighting over this. Like its so childish and dumb la!!

I have lots and lots to say today!!

Funny thing, I was chatting with Jay yesterday and we were talking all about how we seldom meet each other in school, like per semester its just 3-4 times. And guess who was the person I saw, first thing in the morning??? JAY, YES!! But it was just a hi and a bye. And goodness Jay, I’m not shy. I was late for my test, for heaven’s sake!! You just forget sometimes, do you?? And me shy?? Ermm, just wait for a decade or two or maybe just, never.. hahak!!

Test was great!! Even though I studied on the train, otw to school. But it was great!! Loved it!! MUAX! *to the paper and the lecturer(eww!!)*

And I reached home for the first time in a long time, and it was damn bright and early. At 12.30pm. WOW!! *in awe*

Watched Superman Returns DVD. Ok, he is so cute!! As Clark Kent but not as Superman. And I just hated the ending. So tak fun la!!

And to Mamu Kevin, Tat was just not funny ok?!?! There is no such date as 30 Feb and I can’t believe I believe your stories about the arranged marriage and whatever stories you made up!! I’m so frustrated about the farce you made up!! HMMPH!!

And thanks to Azri. For the last minute company. LJS-ing was fun but cheese dip was not enough. And my cake, thank God tak rosak!! Kalau tak, DUUSH!! And I still haven’t told you the answer to the riddle yet!! I forgot!! Sheesh..

Now for the Special Posts!!

1sT,

These goes to 2 lovely girls of mine,
MISS OII AND MRS RICHARD!!!

I miss you Girls la!! I miss the stupid outings we had. The photography lessons. Remember the long walks we had, from Botanical Gardens to Orchard to Somerset to Plaza Sing den to Suntec And finally, Esplanade. It was morning till evenings. The makan places we always go to eat, new dishes everytime and we would critic the food, esp Oii when its not up to her standards. The visits to my house and I would be peeling prawns for you girls.. Those memories.. *nite-dreaming*

Banu, you are just a freaking girl with so many freaking plans and so many freaking lessons and so many freaking activities/excuses!! Basically, you are one freaking girl. *sweet revenge for calling me idiot every time*

Oii, I MISS, MISS, MISS, MISS, MISS YOU the most!! HAHAK!! Even though I see you yesterday but it was stiiillll……. A hi and a bye!!! Sheesh!! And stop it with your Kaagra-whatever-the-hell-that-is (its anime rite?? *wonderin*). And I realised I only had this photo of you in my comp!! The rest are all in hard copy and I’m just so lazy to scan those. Next time, aite??

Girls, we shud meet up soons!! *loves, hugs and many kisses to Banu and many, many, many, many kisses to Oii*. Oii just hate kisses from me.. hehe!!

2nd,

To my Lovely Mother,

HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!

(I’m sorry but I forgot your age.. But whatever it is, she is the age as Singapore independence Day. So Ta da!! Guess How old??)

Harap dipanjangkan umur, murah rezeki dan bahagia di samping keluarga, especially di sisi Long. And I’m sorry kalau “anak2 zoo” nie sume menyakitkan hati and menyusahkan Mama, esp the nights and days where we disturbed your sleep. *loves and hugs and tons of kisses*

3rd,

MaL!!! Mane kau??!? Don’t you miss me?? *sad face*

I miss u!! MUAX *wet kisses*

P.S: Dee, jgn jealous k.. Aku baru jmp kau last Mon so miss takde la.. hehek

Meeting my Dearie Tmr.. Look out for it tmr okies?? And dearie, buy me lunch!! I came from SP to SP okai?? Basically from Simei to RP and Back to SP!! Tell me how far that is and just to have lunch with you!! Sheesh

10 things….

One,

I realised that I love food and associate food with places/buildings/area.
For example, I was chatting with Jay and he was asking me about the NTUC tower in Tampines. And I didn’t know where the hell it was. Then he was like “the building next to interchange”. And I went “OOHH!! The one where they sell the nice nasi lemak rite??” Cute eh??

Two,

I have no offence on saying this but.. Is it alright for a Muslim girl who wears a head dress to smoke and drink? Smoke, it’s okay but hmm… Drink?? I mean, I know some people will argue, “Just because they wear the head dress they can’t do all those stuff. They are human too.” But key word, DRINK.

Three,

This is a question I want opinions on. Ehem ehem *clears throat*

“Should you be friends with your Ex and your guy’s Ex??”. Answers anyone??

Four,

I’m so amazed with myself nowadays. I didn’t know I had such a big mouth. I’ve been getting so many people saying this to me.

“Yes, mom!!”
“You jgn jadi mak nenek blh tak?”
“Bising la.. Macam mak I!!”
“Please talk with a full stop. Train station closes at 11.30, you know”
“Zip it!!”
“I should have my hard tape somewhere. *searches bag*”

So just bear with me!! I’m born this way.

Five,

I am blunt with my words. I just say what I like and I don’t think much. What comes around, I just fart it out!! So ppl, if you hear something from me, don’t take it too hard. Just be glad I help you realise it. Dah bagus tu aku tegur!!

Six,

I miss Ice cream from Gelare and Ben&Jerry la!! My waffles and cones!! Sheesh.

Seven,

Yes, yes.. Trust issues. What if I’m telling the truth and the other party thinks it’s a fake, and when it’s a fake, he thinks I’m telling the truth. I mean, I buat crite, the other party believes but when I’m saying its real, they think its fake.. What has the world come to?? Tell me how to make the other party believes the truth and not the fake!! Gdness!!

Eight,

To my long, long, long time hated friend, I’m glad to have a conversation, like FINALLY!! I was like so comfortable for the first time since eons ago. Nice chatting with you!! And, and, I did laughed okai?? Things just change, and time passes fast la.. All the best with you two.. And yes, trueself is beautiful. Haha *winks*

Nine,

Im kaypoh, SO?????? I was not poking my nose okies?? My brain was werking in an investigating manner. Come on, tell me.. Like duh, you did not go out with him. And no, he does not need to spend time with his girlfriend but THINK!! Its just impossible you went out with him due to the situation. If you went out with a girl, just say!! Im not gonna do anything. Mad, yes. But I go out with my ex too!! So fair deal, rite??

Ten,

OMG!! It’s such a long way to reach 10. Last but not least, friendship matters. What is the most precious thing you can give to your friends when you are parting soon? A parting gift or just having sweet memories within these few days you are together??

THAT'S IT!!

This is the the last straw!!
Now, you can just do whatever you like.
You don't have to tell me anything.
About your life, your day out, your problems, whatsoever.

I'm tired of looking for you, searching for you, high and low.
Just do whatever you like okai??
Whatever..

You do your thing and I do my thing.
And vice versa, just don't bother about my life.
I'll just do as I wish as of now on.
Don't even bother to ask.

Today was filled with funnessss, miss-ness, playfulness, openness and bluntnessss from the two pwetti girls. *grins, appreciating herself*

My miss-ness for my Dear has finally ended for 3 years. I tremendously missed her and all that was gone after a hug I gave.. ehem, ehem.. stolen away in the kitchen. Keke… Love her loads!!

We basically talked and talked and talked and talked and 5.5 hours was gone, just like that. Time just passes by so fast!! And my Dear, I’m still affected about the topic we discussed. I’m just so freaked out about it! But let’s just say, we have to go through it one day and all we can do is wait. The scary parts, I can’t say much but.. I’m terrified la.. And you made me feel this way!!

I seriously had fun today.. Even though you are such a noob head! So forgetful la!! Sheesh!! LOVE YOU, DEAR… N enjoy the chocolates aite?? But mind the pimples.. hehe

This is my Dear!!! Really, my Dear Rohila… Sweet, ain’t she?? Btw, she was in her grannies clothing so we tried our best, just to take the face only. I must say, she is skinnier than back in secondary school. We had the same body, figure, blah, blah.. LAST TIME!! but after 3 years, she is scrawny and me, flabby.. Hehe

This is us!! Even though I look horrible and basically, ugly, the face, I know.. *cringe* But I wanted to show the crazy side of her… One, she may looks innocent and quiet and all, but if you know her better, she is so… ermm, ok, imagine me, as in the personality, but in her body!! Double headache, double trouble!!!

P.S: she can just go off non-stop, the mouth machine. HAH!

When we have nothing to do.. Mirror images are the best thing to kill time!!

This is her, in London, with… OMG!! Can you believe it?? Prince William!! What an honour… I wish I was there too..

I’m the spokeswoman for her bangles. Just posing it off… That is all her bangles!! To match her cupboard full of Punjabi suits which I so adore!! I love the ones with the tight fitting leggings… Mine are all the puffy and baggy ones!! So the old la… Reminder, I need to go buy nicer Punjabi suits!!

Note, to my very, very, very loved one, Thanks for the ride and the stops. *loves, many, many hugs and many, many kisses*

I’m so unhappy and pissed about something. I thought my hatred for you was gone, and it wasn’t there for a very long time. But the sights and thoughts of you and your freaking actions and your dumb, dumb request make my blood boil la!!!

If you have broken up, then, JUST BREAK UP!! No need freaking bitter sweet separation la, this la, that la.. Stupid!! And what extend2 date, think like report dateline is it?? And no need act depressed la, need people around you la.. WTF?!?!

Wah, I don’t know why I so mad!! One, it doesn’t concern me and I don’t know you. I think it’s a personal grudge I had against you, I guess.

And the bastard comment, the person is so damn petty. My “bf” is just putting his feelings forth. And his parents gave birth to him, legally and you have no right to call him one. And you made him so affected by it!! Plus it’s his feelings, his blog, his problem. No need to kaypoh ard!! Freaks!! FYI, he is such a nice person, with a big heart and sincere to one. It’s just that she does not know how to appreciate it. Instead, she breaks it bit by bit. And when the heart is almost one, it’s broken again. Stop playing with his feelings!! Damn it, I HATE HER!! I seriously don’t know why!!

I feel so sad and pity him sometimes. It’s been almost a year (I guess..) and I know deep inside maybe he is suffering. And I think he spends time doing this and that, just to forget his sorrows and his unhappiness cast away. And I love him too much to see him that way. I want him to move on, appreciate life and make friends and find someone he really loves. And I remember saying in my previous post, “I hope you won’t be with him ever again.”. And I still have that one wish for him.

To my loved one, Im sorry for this post, if you are offended. But I wish the best for you. And like I said, “It’s your decision. Make your decision wisely.” And think about yourself, not others. Make sure you yourself won’t regret it.

So to the loved one, *loves, hugs and kisses*

To Hakeem Boy, My only brother whom I detest a lot, sumtimes.. Because you are the most irritating, annoying person in the house!!

Happy 13 th Birthday and happy first day of school on secondary level!!

Time passes by so fast! 13 yrs passed by ever since you were born. And Your birthday and you are going off to camp!! Sheesh!! What a day!!

To keep it short, Best wishes from me to you and may all your wishes come true!! *loves n hugs n kisses*

Btw, have fun at Camp!!

Let’s just call today…

“Me, myself and I-Sue Day”

One and foremost, this is the first time where I did all the stuff, do my roaming, myself.

Wake up around 10 plus. To those people who took time and waste their handphone bill money to wake me up, I’m sorry and thank you for the wake up calls. But I think it's no use. I can’t wake up. Imagine, today, I had to reset my alarm 5 times before I could wake up totally, since 7.3o am. Like duh!! I can’t wake up since I sleep like 5.30pm. My siblings were even up for their morning prayers and I was not asleep!!

I went to school alone. I did try to do my report but I just can’t!! No concentration!!

Went around Arab Street, roaming here and there.. I realised there are shops whose business is sotaklaku.. So why bother?? Close down la!! And some shops where the baju-baju is so nice la!! And I almost got lost through the alleys but luckily, the “Gotham City” was there. My sense of direction-cum-compass..

Then, I went to the national library at Bugis. There were so many books/novels and so many, many, many authors!! I was cross-eyed basically!! But I settled for Sidney Sheldon’s The Naked Face. It was the best!! Lots of stuff happening and I just could not put it down!! Believe it or not, it was my first time that I sat in the library from ermm.. 3.30 pm to 6 plus pm reading and finishing one whole novel!! The weird thing was tat, I was so engrossed in the novel that I didn’t realised it was almost 6!! Haha!! Finished up the book and went to grab another Sheldon’s novel for a stay-home weekend read.

After which, I hanged around at Kinokuniya and grab myself a Nisha Minhas novel. Was reading it roughly, and I WANT IT!! Someone, who has it, lend me please!! The title is “The marriage market”. Sheesh!!

Walk around Bugis Junction, one shop to another… Let me emphasise, ALONE… Imagine that!! Bras basah for Art Friend, Top Shop, Victory for Briyani…

And headed home.. Saw Mal on the way back lepakings with her mates. Say hi-bye and off I went!!

And one more thing, I miss you… I realised that. For a whole day.

Goodness!! I feel like I’m so out and lost touch with my school work. I know I have 2 tests next week but I DON’T KNOW WHEN AND WHAT IS COMING OUT!! I need serious HELP!! To my fellow classmates, why won’t you people reply to my sms-es?? Sheesh!!!

Now, tell me... all that I need and want to know..

When is EBM test and what chapters are coming out??

When is WSP test?? I know the test is based on the whole book. (I need serious revision for this!!)

And is MD & MAT lab test this Monday or next Monday?? *scratches head in doubt*

I need copies of WSP and EBM formal reports!! Badly!! The results section, discussion and conclusion, Na da!! I’m awfully stuck up to my neck and dead!! That’s the problem when you did your experiment like eons ago and start doing your reports eons later. You totally forget everything!! Ohh, ohh... I need pics from WSP experiment. Who has it, please pass it to me. Thanks!!

I have EBM presentation next week and I totally forgot about it until just now morning at 5 am!! Yes, I slept like 6 am just now. Insomnia fever these days… So, to my fellow groupies, passing2 my info by Friday, aite?? And PB/JB, I know you have the DCP guys chalet, if it’s still on, if I’m not wrong too, this week, SO SEND ME ASAP BY WEEKENDS!! Thanks darlinks!!

And I need someone to teach me how to apply for my advanced dip course!!! There is like 7 forms to fill, and I’m awfully stuck after the 4th or 5th form.. HELP!!

I don’t need fireman, policeman or a doctor coming to my rescue. I Just Need a Kind Soul!!

Oh, btw... Exams schedule are out and I’m so pissed that C&AT is first!! That is like the easiest of the 4 mods. “Open the book, memo everything and within 3 days, that is done!!” I wanted my engineering module to be first because that is the most tedious but Na da!! It’s the 3rd one. But at least I have 4 days for the paper to prepare. So thank God for that!!

Oh one more thing, sorry for the late entry but…

HAPPY 20th to GD!!

Ok, I feel so young that you are 20 now, because I’m still 19!! Keke…

It’s been great knowing you through these semesters. I will never forget the days of sufferings we had during our ITP but, but... We know that we tried and had funnessss during those weeks. Best wishes to you and all the best in your future endeavours. Never lost touch, okies pokies??? *Loves*

A new year, a new start and it should be a good one.

But as the clock struck 12 midnite,
Tears just welled in my eyes.
And I don't know why.

Why does the one I'm waiting for never comes.
But the one I least expected comes
Just to lift me up when I was down.
Wishes me Happy New Year at 12 exactly.
Its just the sweetest thing.
But....
Just not the one I was waiting for.

May the new year give me a fresh start.
Something new to hold on to.

Jus put me in a deep sleep, to forget my troubles away.