i dont know why im so short-tempered nowadays..

But now, IM SERIOUSLY BINGIT LAH!!!
eeee!!! geram nye..
duush, duush!!

Excuse me, if you have any things that upsets you, can you please tell me?? i don like guessing games and please dont give me that attitude-ish voice.. Very puzzling and mengeramkan lah!!

EEEE!!!! I WANT TO SHOUT MY LUNGS OUT!!!! dah lah sakit2 gini, makin menyirap darah aku.. Bertambah sakit tau.. DEESHH!!!!

yok, yok!! lets talk abt the days i spent with frens and families..

Friday!!! and the weekends here!! hehe.. Mr Friday came and so did our meeting.. Berdebar jantungku.. hehek.. Last minute preparation.. We came at 11 but in the end started our rehearsal at 3.. Those hours spent on FYP-ing or Youtube-ing..

Meeting was heart-pumping. But we, the SHF-ians plus Hafizah minus Iceboy and minus Supergirl, made it thru!! We manage an interactive meeting with an addition of gay relationships discussion.. Duush, duush!! so Unexpected.. But we had a fast thinker, a dashing man and ermm, a happy chairman.. so all goes well end well..

After which headed to town, went Art Friend.. Duush, duush the place!! i didnt get my wooden frame and my paints.. God willing, will head to Bras Basah next week.. Kwakwa!!

Saturday!! Spent the first Saturday at home!! Guest visiting, malay hongbao-giving and ended up bankrupting!! hehek.. not me lah, my mom!! Nite, went house visiting to my Mak Ngah hse sebelah my dad.. Watch this hindi talentime.. The songs all power2 lah.. Bangra!! hehek.. And my aunt said something which i didnt quite like.. she said, "of all my siblings, i have the most indian like face!!".. WAH!!! sungguh tak suke!!

Sunday!! Long2 day.. House visiting!!! again.. altogether 8 houses.. At every single hse, i ate my food!! I was so damn full i couldnt zip up my skirt. I gave up at the 5th hse and let it loose.. haha.. AND I WAS SO FED UP WITH MY PARENTS!!! duush, duush!! well, i cant help it that my baju is nice and ppl compliment it.. *ehem,ehem*. But my mom, esp!! said it was expensive lah, short lah, not nice lah.. Oik! ketuk kepale!! jeles eh org pakai lawa2.. And, and.. i paid for the whole suit!! All of it with my pay check.. hmmph!!

okay ppl!! feast your eyes on the photos aite???

bye2
MUACKS!! *loves*

mEn oF thE hSe

mKn mEE bAndONG!!

IbU yG tERsYG!!

bApaK dAn mY lOve.. hehe

hEr fACe iS lIke tAt cOS i Kiss HEr cHeeKS.. sPontAneoUs lOOK!!

OrG bOyaN kATe, "kEneK-kEneK oDeNG!!"

i can still remember not too far back, it was just a torture to watch DEALOVA, an indonesian show. But due to dee's pleas, i watch the whole show with her. It was very2 long and very unconcentratable, becos of the accent and the bahase indon they use.

But, but today.. i manage, without torture, an Indonesian show, HEART. Wah!! *applause*

Watch it 2 times and the 2 times, i cried!! Its sad to the max. At first it was hard as the bahase2 they use was so hard to decipher. I dont even know what they were talking abt. Im of Indian heritage and i love hindi & tamil movies and i just love the language they use. And im also of indon heritage but i just don loike the bahase they use. Alienated lah!!

Btw, i just love it and the song... I memorise it!! hehek.. SEDAPSSSS LAH!!

To yuz, tks for the disc and will return it soons!! hehe

ok, bye2..
MUACKS!! *loves*

NOW, I WISH TO GO TO THE BEACH AND SHOUT MY HEART OUT!!!

Bingit and irritated giler!!

Yes, yes.. Im stupid!! No need to say it so many times. Kalau aku nie bodoh sgt, angkat kaki jln.. Kalau u rase i nie mempermainkan u, u can also angkat kaki, jln..

Ubah perangai ah.. bingit ah.. Everytime tau.. SERIOUSLY BINGIT!!!
Ok fine.. You don have to ubah perangai.. Just stop being sensitive..
I lie to you, you don believe me.. Im being truthful, also you don believe me..

I cant take it. I don want to fight with you everyday. Irritating ah. menyakit kan hati je.

If you say i don cherish you at all or whatsoever, tak sanggup seh i turun beach rd just to have lunch with you. tak sanggup ah main hujan.. Tak sanggup ah jmp you lepas werk and klua. Kalau you cherish me sgt, ape nie sume.. No trust, doubts alot ah..

And if you say you cherish me alot.. U wld have brought me home. You would have allowed me to see your granmother. You would act as per normal when we were walking around your neightbourhood. You wouldnt have scolded me and perspiring like crap. If you cherish me alot, you would have just shut up your mouth and accept whatever words i say that comes out of my mouth and trust me. If you cherish me alot, you would have like my friends, no matter who.. If you trust me alot, you wouldnt have ungkit blek perkare2 bodoh tu sume.

YES!! a mistake i did once. Tak blh terima, blh angkat kaki, jln.. If you feel so conscious that im gonna do it again, you can walk out of my life. I sanggup.. I already said, takde matair tak mati lah. Plus i already said, i feel im not that worthy of you.. after all that has happen.. I have my friends to hang on to. My close ones..

MENYAKIT KAN HATI AH!! BINGIT!!!!!!!

ps: sori if im harsh.. to the person concerned, im seriously bingit to the max.. im just typing watever i wish to type out

WEEE!!!

SELAMAT HARI RAYA!!!

i suke lah RAYE!! hehe
Bertogether-together, bersame-same, Ziarah-menziarahi.
Sheesh..
Ok, i dah gile..
hehe

Mari2, kite crite psl raye kite..
Saye suka sekali!!!

Malam Raye:

First time dlm seumur hidup saye tgl bersame my parents, mlm raye, rumah dah siap.. spick and span.. WOW!! amazing kan?? And first time semenjak saye masuk ke alam ke-teenage-an saye, i go geylang in the wee hours. Ajak nye pasal, Ok lah, i ikut.. hehe.. Tapi gi geylang bkn tgk barang, at last tgk org!! Haiz, kalau nak tangkap hensem and jambu tu, pegi lah lorong2 ke orchard ke.. Gi geylang buat ape? Buat menyemak ade ah.. haha

Hari Raye:

Hari raye, bgun mcm star karat seh.. eh, i blek kul 3 plus pagi seh.. tdo kul 4.. so saye jd star lah bngun lbt.. Bngun, gosok gigi, tgk tv.. Tak mandi pun.. Lapar lah.. keke.. Den after tat, we siap2, pakai lawa2, gi kunjung-mengunjung.. Gi umah nenek, umah nenek sedare, umah pakcik and umah Moyang i.. suka lah i.. Jmp cuzzin whom i only see like once a year which means only during Raye.. So tak family oriented.. hmmph.. Overall, saye suke raye lah!! hehe.. Next round, raye ngan frens.. tak sabars to the max!! next week, next week!! haha

Okay, gambar2 yg telah dipetik sewaktu Raye..
Cuci2 mata lah nye..

bye2..

the gerlS..

jUadah yg disediakan

My parents..

The Purple-s

The Pink-ies!!

The GreeN kaTaks!!

tHE sisteRs...

Itu NeneK saYa!! n mY Mak!! the One iN bLue

n tAts The LoVe Of My LifE!!

I was cleaning up my room for a little while today.
And i was cleaning up my "Memory Box".
And i came across this card given to me by a silly person.
And it brought tears to my eyes.
For no reason why.

I didnt realise it last time.
But behind the card, there was enclosed a poem.
As i read it for the first time,

"Im sorry for making you mad
Really sorry for making you sad
I feel worthless for not making you glad
Even though you're important to me than my dad

Im sorry for making you sigh
Really sorry for causing you to cry
When i see tears in your eyes
My heart can simply just die

Im sorry for being such a fool
When i treat you so badly at school
But do give me one more try, or one more shot
Coz i'll treat u better now, i kid you not"

This brought tears to my eyes.
Even though it happened a long time ago and we are not so close anymore,
But it lift me up when im at my lowest.
Especially these few days.
No worries, i will make the right decision.
I promise myself and my closests that.

Haluuu!!!!

Rite now, im stoning in the library!!!! very, very diaoz..
haha..

Let me bloggy2..

My grandmama is in the hospital. 2nd time inside within 3 weeks.. She is fine, the same old ailments. Hari raya coming soons, pray she will be back and ready to party by then. keke

I want to say something. Haha.. Let my brother be ku-ku-malu abit. Hahak.. he just became a man instead of a boy!!! woooowwww!! big news huh? haha. Have been teasing him non-stop about it and he would just pinch me. Not a boy-boy pinch but pinch die yg pedas sekali. And i would go,

"Chey, cubit lelaki nie.. Bkn bdk kecik..".

And if you ppl know me well, you guys will know im abit (abit only ar..) dirty-minded. Then i would go off saying,

"buat ape tu huh??"

when he closes his door or watching any vcd/dvd.. hahak.. All the excitement at home!! kwakwa..

And yesterday, we were waiting for azan and suddenly, my 2nd sis came up with the idea.. Nxt yr, hari raya colour will be "Rainbow" since there is exactly 7 of us. Haha.. therefore, following ROY G BIV.. My father will wearing red, Mom will be orange, Me will be yellow, Adik will be Green, Bro will be blue, Ayu will be indigo and Aida will be violet!! WaaHH!! CFM chun and berseri-seri di hari raye nanti.. (Allah, berangan nye, hari tahun nie blum sampai nak pk psl nxt yr!! kwakwa)

haha.. k lah.. I need to ciao now..
Go makan di Beach RD!! hah
tak sabars!! keke

MUACKS!!!
bye2

There's so many kind of people in this world!!
btul, mcm2 org kat dunia nie..
My experience with people..

I'll tell u why..

There is this guy, who is my senior in primary school.. i recognise him lah. And he added me through friendster and msn. Then he talked about his work, his skool and his whatsoever lah.. Then suddenly, he asked about my boyfriend. Briefly lah, i don't remember his exact words.

Guy: So u and guy u berape lame?
Me: 4 years.
Guy: Kalau misalnye, i ask u out, bf you kasi tak?
Me: *tinking wat kind of question is that? like duh!!* err.. what do u tink?
Guy: Oh, i mcm nak ajak you klua sometimes.. Umah dekat pe..
Me: Oh, ok.. tgk lah keadaan die camne.. Nanti i ask my bf.. i pun nak klua ngan my frens..
Guy: *His sudden reply in exact werds* U jahat seh mcm mane setia.. jgn jadi mcm i.. now i lost everything and its so hard to restart my life again..
Me: *tinking that die yg start dulu, aku yg kena marah.. tak btuls!!*

See? Its like dah bagus, i accepted him as a fren. Now he is trying to lecture me to be faithful to my bf.. Like duh!! If i tell him that the jerk is his fren, terperanjat kau nanti!! Sheesh..

Another one is this.. And this time i did it with shah.. hahak

Biatch no1: u sch of bus ah?
Me/shah: no lah.. i take train.. so i sch of mrt.. hehe
Biatch no1: haha..
Me/shah: What do u think of urself? Cute or not?
Biatch no.1: Aku sachok!!
Me/shah: Aku sachek!! *laughing out loud*
Biatch no.1: Nak no. blh?
Me/shah: *ngan semangat surf net, kasi no. IMH* 63872222.. call me at nite ya?
Biatch no1: OK!!

haha.. perasan nye.. sachok abis.. muke kering kontang, Sachok ke hape!! Gatal nak mamps.. haha

i took the train jus now.. from dover to hm.. then dere was this auntie in front.. Suddenly, the auntie turned and said in mandarin,"train go to tampines rite??".. Im like, "ya.." At the platform, she keep asking ard 3 more ppl whether the train goes to tampines or not.. I mean, how many assurance do you need?? Yes, the train goes to tamp.. If it doesnt reach, jus get out of the train and take the opposite side lah.. Rite??? *rolls eyes*

Then early in the morning.. You know there will be tis news stand where they give out the newspaper, TODAY? well, its free rite? Then just now, there was this commotion between this auntie and the newspaper-giver uncle.. The auntie was mad as the uncle wouldn't give her the paper even though she was in front of him, instead he gave to the other rows.. Aiyo, auntie.. there was like 3 rows queueing as there was 1 uncle.. Its like obvious he may miss out someone rite? And PLZZZZZZ!!! the paper's free!! You will get it eventually if you asked nicely instead of shouting at the uncle for not giving you the paper.. so kiasu!!

i have lots more to say abt my encounters with people.. Sheesh.. but lazy to write more.. keke

Bye!!

CYA!!

MUACKS!!

the third consecutive time im saying it in 3 weeks...

I LOVE MONDAYS!!!!!!
hehek
seriously..

ytd was the best, best, best and best days of the week!!
With the budak2 407..
hehek..
dah 3 tahun abis sec skool pun, masih panggil bdk2 407 eh?

We went buka puasa together2. So fun lah.. From argueing over what to order for iftar at Pizza Hut.. Mind you, it took us almost 20 mins just to order.. And Mr Irritating-yet-Annoying, trying to find every fault of mine.. and Azri's.. Sungguh and really sungguh irritatings!!! To Man overly-ordered terbanyak makanan.. Maklum lah nari dah masuk camp.. like he said, "nari puasa, besok puaka!!".. His orders just kept coming even though he didn't order it. And Amalina's so-tak-meriah birthday song.. sheesh.. So funny lah!!

Den off to Mc Cafe, den to MacDonalds.. with Man and Amalina running off to go shopping.. And while waiting, gossip, gossip and more gossip!! maklum lah dah buke puase.. And updates on our lives.. And others too!! With the games, chop-chilli-chop.. hahak.. dig-nose-and-licking-it action.. Ewww!! Fighting and more fighting and more kacau-ing among us.. Once in awhile, we meet and its all fun and joy!! hehek..

I LOVE U PPL!!! that outing made my day, even though i was tired.. One whole day tau..
Niways, can't wait for Friday.. we go geylang-ing together-gether!! hehek *winks*

fid-do!!

mAn n aMalIna.. happY bErjuAng N hAppY b'daE!!

tIssU n AzRie

FrIendS!!!

Budak-budak 407!!!

U don’t have the right to judge me on my life. I've done what I did and there is no turning back. You can't accept it, that is fine with me. You can leave me like how I left u.

If you think you know so much or all about me, you are totally wrong. Out of a 100%, you have only achieved 20%. You know only that small bit about me. If you are wondering why, ask yourself why.

I couldn't tell you everything that I want to tell you. Why? Because you didn’t like my lifestyle. You didn’t like my friends. You didn’t like how I spent my days. You didn’t like me going out late at night. You didn’t like me to go out everyday. And every single thing you are not happy with, you just tend to bring the past up. Like just now, you can simply said, "I thought you like to go out at night and are used to sitting under blocks?" That was so damn sarcastic okay?

You want me to go back to my old lifestyle; I’ll go back to it. Then you will see the me that is so unconcerned about other people's feelings and is in her own world. The person whom is most detested by her parents. The person in which caused the most turmoil in the family. Do you want me to be that way? The same old person who is so damn depressed that she cried every night for something that she knows it’s impossible?

I just need some assurance for you. I just need trust in a relationship. There is more in a relationship than just physical contact and physical concern. Must everything I do show that I love you? There’s more to a relationship than all this. A relationship is something shared between 2 people. Bonded together are love, care, concern and most importantly, trust. If you feel like you are being forced to trust me, then don’t trust me. At least I know I have a clear conscience and am not lying to you.

If you found it hard to accept me again in the beginning, then why did you even bother? I won't die by your unacceptance. I feel lucky enough to have your friendship. And yes, I put friendship first instead of relationship. Because no matter what happens, friends were always there. When I’m having problems with you, who do I go to? My friends. And remember, if I did not prioritise friendship, I would not have been with you.

I just don't know what you want or expect from me. I did what I thought was essential. I did what I could. I tried but there's always something lacking.

All I wanted from it was happiness which used to be mine. But in this case, mostly what I have gotten is uncertainty and animosity.

This will be the last time I’m asking for it; I jus wish our lives were the same as it used to be, without the negativity.

wah!! sO lazy tO upDate.. Forcing myself to keep tis blog going!

Thursday

hmm... i don noe wat i did on thurs.. Oh, practical!! yup2.. and the crazy day for JB and me!! we have been teasing our da jie (Xt).. "Lon, im so scared!! aahh!!".. hehek.. evil us!! with the re-enactment and all tat.. lOts of pics!!! haa.. will put it up laters..

After skool, tis is wat we did.. ehem2.. *clears throat*

singing the tune to a national day song..

"We had took a little trip around Singapore Town

in Jonathan's daddy's car

to see collyer Quay and Raffles Place

the esplanade and all of us..

Becos in Singapore

Singapore..

the hearts are big and wide u find..

Bcos in Singapore, Singapore,

U'll find happiness..

For everyone!!"

haha.. actually we were lost in town.. Wasted.. ermm.. let me see.. $3 for ERP.. i wanted to go to Bugis but end up.. ermm.. somewhere in the CBD.. sampai Little India lagi ade.. marina South.. Map reading.. traffic laws broken.. Seriously, jon tinks Sg is Malaysia.. u can just turn anywhere u like.. There are rules!! sheesh.. Making u-turns on free lanes.. Wahh!! In the end, i was late by half an hour to meet Azri.. haha.. Still, tks for the ride!!

Friday

FYP in the morning!! very leceh!! Casein making again.. Borax ordering!! shuush!! Alah, basically, i didnt do much Ytd!! Except at nite.. where sum stuff happens which is so reminded of the past..

Chatting with an acquaintance of mine, reminds me of myself. And i didnt like that me and i don want to think of that me.. i want to forget that person, whom i didnt know.. Sheesh!!

And Azri.. dont keep hard feelings towards that someone too long.. Learn to let it go.. I know, it was tough times but i've learn to accept it.. And like u said, im back to my self.. I've changed.. Masih giler2.. tak btul.. haha.. so? u shud too lah!! "forgive and try to forget."

ok..
Im done today..
going out soons!!
BYE2

MUACKS!!

I have too many feelings and emotions inside me that it can explode anytime soon..

It is like a volcano that can just erupt anytime.

Too many emotions inside. My imagination is running wild, with sorts of scenario that could happen.

Im pissed, irritated, insecure, sick, tired, devastated, stupid, confused and lost. My hypothalamus can break down soon due to all these feelings and thoughts. Sheesh!

HELP!!!

The reason why i love mondays alot!!!

The day started off with me being late for school. Thinking that i was late, i thought "lets be a little later!!". So i met Azri up to give him support for his first day of work. In the end, i was almost 45 mins late and to find out lecture has not even started yet!! there was a blackout and the whole theatre was pitch-dark. Oooo... If i had known, i wouldnt have rushed!! Hmmph..

Followed by a clean room practical where we were covered up from head to toe. Its such a pity i did not snap any for that exercise. Will do it next time!!

Lunch at fc5.. which was KFC!! Just stared at those hungry wolves eating up their fried prey!! hmmph.. Dosa tau makan depan org berpuasa!!

Den to the library for class bonding with the jokes and riddles.. So racist, u noe!! Sheesh..

Followed by another practical which was just long and tedious. And i burnt my hand!! Serve me rite for touching the mould when i know its 200 deg.. Its red lah now!! Sheesh..

After which all the fuuunnsss started!! plus a bit of irritated-ness.. Can all of you please be kind with your punctuality?? Sheesh.. We waited like an hour for u all!! lame tau!!

Then, the bonding started.. Haha.. Ice lemon tea, Coke and other soft drinks.. Sheesha session with lemon mint at Al-Tazzaq.. I think.. Started with 6 but ended up 8 with Fik and Rohana!! Charades, the superhero-alike game, stupid lame jokes and riddles.. With ppl not laughing at my jokes.. Sedih lah.. *sobs*

And the Hady Mirza thing.. Yes, yes.. Hady Mirza was there.. He is so putih lah.. But like Tash said, the owner mcm heboh2 kan gi2.. Like eh!!! haha..

Den off we went.. Hm.. MRT was jam packed. Mlm2 buta pun ramai.. Nak ddk pun tak dpts.. SEDIH!!

to end it off, I JUST LOVE MONDAYS!!!

hehe

BYE2!!
MUACKS!!!

In pitch dark!!

fOr practical!!

the hungry wolves!!

Some wishes for a someone..

to the person concerned above,

Its not your first time working.
I know its a bit different as all you do for these 3 mths is taken into account and recorded.
But, nevertheless, do your best, aite??
Anything, im here for support. *hugs*
ALL THE BEST!!!