" Because you are the smile and joy in my life, and I love you. "

Happy 23rd Birthday, Gemuk!

Wishing you all the best in everything and success in your journey of lives.

I hope you had a blast at the party, which I know you did.

And for me all that was not a waste of money.

Ikhlas, just to let you have a fantastic birthday this year.

And I am not asking for much on my birthday either,

just you and my family for a simple celebration.

I love you much and looking forward to creating fantastic moments together.

I have never jejak Indonesia before.

And i thought I could.

Well, I wanted too!!

Now,thanks to all the makciks-makciks and my dad (thaks a lot eh!) I am paranoid like crazy after hearing the stories. Rapes, bombs and others, saying the place is not safe.

Sungguh aku paranoid.

And when Sha messaged me she couldnt book the tickets, I went, "okay, this is like a sign to ask me to consider." And after one last hit, from Cik Timah, thats it. I am not going, jut because I am scared.

Pathetic kan aku!! Nak gi holiday tapi takut.

And my boyfriend can even add,

"That place is an easy target."

Thanks a lot, knowing I am easily convinced.

Now, I am thinking, did I do the right thing or not??

And I was already planning to do shopping there.

I had a tired 2 days, and I think It was all worth it.

Just for him.

Seeing him smile and have a fabulous time with famil-ies and friends.

It was very tiring and there were so many people, food catering to 60 people.

And with us being busy, ensuring that everybody had eaten their full.

And food was GREAT!!

It was worth all the money!!

HIGHLIGHT of the day:

Both our dads hugged each other so tightly and just simply happy to see each other, which we thought was their first meeting from both families.

Little did we know, they were old friends separated for almost 10 yrs.

Wokay, it was a totally weird moment.

I was expecting something like, "Hi, I am Suhaila's dad" or "Hi, I am ajir's dad".

But NO!!

They went straight for each other and hugged.

That was weird.

And everyone went, "ohhhh!!!"

Now, expressing thanks.

Thank you to Abg Adi and Haron's Satay for the fabulous food!(read: East Coast food Centre)

Sumpah the the satay, the BBQ ayam, the ikan pari and sotong was menjilat jari.

Thank you to Cik Timah (read: Fid's Mother) for the Fried Rice and for your info, it was nice and all of the rice was finished. Except for the last half a pot which was basi in the morning. Sedih sey! I thought of having it for breakfast. And also the kuih2 which she gave to us.

Thank you to Cik Ati (read: Mun's mom) for the Mee Goreng.

Thank you to Kak Urin for sponsoring the cake and help out, being the first to reach and the last to go home.

Thank you to Fid and Hussain and Cik Timah for coming down. I am sorry if you all feel tak terlayan. And Fid, this was one of the times where I wish that you could already walk because we would have hung out till the next day.

Thank you to Siti and Mari for making the trip down.

Thank you also to Arab and friends for making it down at the wee hours even though you were tired from work. And I am sorry I slept in first, I was very tired ok!

Thank you to the two brothers of his for helping out at the pit and housekeeping

Thank you for everyone else who came for the event.

Last but not least, Thank you to my one and only family for coming down to support me. Thank you lots!!

I saw a man lying on the road, surrounded by blood.

And he had a seriously swollen forehead, the size of an apple.

Now, I can't get the image out of my head.

That is what happen when you jaywalk.

And as for me, this is what happen when you gatal turn your head to see what's going on.

And now,

we have 2 friends consoling each other,

telling funny events just to keep us from crying.

Maybe I have been quiet and holding it in too long, that I cried a pail tonight.

I typed out a whole long essay email.

but instead of clicking SENT, i click DELETE.

Seriously, why even bother sending it out only after months later?

Its just redundant.

I think I still prefer keeping it to myself.



Well, what can I say?? My first time being a fool in love.


and yes!! I am going Bali with the NIE mates, just because they want to.

And my KL trip again!!

but this time, with the family.

Now, he won't talk to me.

Just because I told him I am leaving him for 4 days.

It has been 1 hr and 42 minutes since he said a thing to me.

Life is crazeee!!

And loads of things to blog about!!

The trip to Sungei Buloh, Siti's birthday surprise, the sleepover at my Aunt's place, and Fid's bday, which was really happening!!

Plus my boyfriend's birthday chalet which I have been planning for months!! WOAH!!

Evrything is going fine and smooth!

And this is the first time my boyfriend is excited and counting down his birthday!!

Excited or what!!

And what better place to celebrate our 10 months (yes, yes, yes!)!!!

At Fid's party with our photoshoot!

All that by end of the week!! *big smiles*

And ZIRCA for Craig David next month!! Phweewit!!

(Even though my boyfriend is blabbering about the club thing because die very pantang, but... I don't care I still want my Craig David fun!!)

I get all too extreme sensitive when someone touches my past.

Because I don't want to be reminded of it anymore but it is still haunting me.

Because past, that black hole, is a part of me.

Don't ask me why and what and who or whatever thing.

Because I can't answer and I have my reasons.

Coping with a lifetime of guilt and shame are serious issues.

I LOVE YOU, SYG!

I MISS YOU, SYG!

*Mmmuacks!*

I'm Really Sorry...

I just love how things are going now, and how the situation is like.

All so lovey-dovey and pleasant yet simple.

If I know the sparks might just be gone, like what you answered,

Then I don't want to be married or tied down.

I prefer things the way they are now.

and I want this feeling to stay forever.

I was thinking and dreaming to myself yesterday.

During DCS presentation.

And yes, it was that boring but at least Science is better than Mathematics,

where you can see the Mathematics students just stressing themselves over the Mathematical Theories and such.

hehe.

Aniway, back to the topic.


I was thinking, I may not have the most exciting life ever,

with lots of friends, going out to lots of places every single time, having one hell of nights and such, with travelling and sorts of other things,

But I feel happy and thankful that at the very least, I have my loved ones close to me and close friends being there sharing my life with me.

Really.

HAFIDZAH BTE ITHNIN!!

Buruk sak perangai kite dlm video itu.

Horrible.

Btw, NEXT WEEK OR WHAT!!!

I miss my Sexy.

haha.

And yes, I accomplished my goal for the day.

I can't believe I threw my Science Lit. Review away for this.

Sci. Lit Review

Sci. Lesson Plan

Sungei Buloh Report

LEA lesson plan plus puppets

I think that is all kn?

Urrgh!!!

I can't wait for mid-April!

And then comes from 3 -4 months holiday of makan gaji buta!

Weewit!

KL, Cameron Highlands (insyaallah.)

Here I come!

Wooooooo!!

I am having one whirlwind of a mind.

As I have always been a kan-chiong girl all my life, i feel like everything is totally disorganised.

I don't know what I have ordered and what there is still be added to the list.

plus the present which I have to run around about.

2 presents I may add.

I'm going nuts!

I just miss my boyfriend.

Enough said.

Weekends was filled with FOOD!!!!

Saturday Night, it was supposed to be our night together for supper.

But, he called me up,

Him: "Syg, are you ready?"

Her: "Yes."

Him: "Ok. By the way we are having a double date."

*Me having a dumb, blur moment*

Him: "We have an old couple joining us plus a kid."

*another dumb moment*

Him: "My parents are joining us la, plus Apa."

Her: "OHHH!!! ok. GREAT!"

He knows how I get very excited with his parents. I envy his parents actually. Its very hard to find a couple in their late 50s and early 60s to be very mesra with each other. The affection is till seen and their arguments ar more like, gaduh gaduh sayang than gaduh gaduh nak menang.

I told boyfriend that I want to be like his parents when we grow old together. Insyaallah.

So off we went to Jalan Kayu for a really good seafood, amidst the heavy rain with lightning and thunder.

The seafood was veryveryvery tantalising!

(I wonder if there is such a word and if I had spelt it correctly.)

A touch of lemon chicken, kangkong, tom yam soup and that hotplte beancurd, who can resists!

After which the night ended late, with sending the family home and waiting for him to express his bowels while awaiting an early morning we had the day after.

(Now you may have realised that I am using flowery language. I need to practise for my test.)

Sunday morning, as expected BOTH of us woke up late.

Cik Timah and Fid was already waiting. Kesian mereka.

We were on a journey to Vivo City to shop our way through.

That is basically me with my lappie. I had a serious deadline on Monday and I have not started on it yet at that point of time. So I had to drag my lappie along for the journey.

And that is her, Anak Cik Timah. Posing her way all the way from Tampines to Vivo City. You see the purple tudung there? That is Cik Timah.

And this is Cik Timah. Up close and personal.. plus my boyfriend's huge arm. haha!

THis lovely guy is my boyfriend, as you might have known. He looks veryveryveryvery happy just to be pushing Anak Cik Timah around Vivo CIty.

And this is US! The sweet ones. Looking so excited and anxious waiting for our food at Secret Recipe.

I told him that I hated taking photos with him. Because every single shot of his photos was a clean, decent shot.

Here I am showing off my food! That hand you see, is Cik Timah's. She just can't get enough of her fish and chips that she had to snitch mine.

Anak Cik Timah and Cik Timah. Like mother, like daughter Who sign??????????? That is his name. Serious.
Aaaahhhh!! a TRIP to Toys' R Us made us feel kiddy. As you can see, she has a lot to handle. That price tag, $15.95, was the hantaran settled between them. I know, Unbelievable! At this age.

After the end of the shoping journey,she was dumped at the Trolley Bay where she truly belonged. She blend in well, didn't she??

The day with them ended in the evening when it was raining cats and dogs!

YOU KNOW!! I hated the rain. I was seriously scrutinising the rain that much.

Rain means no food, and no food means no mood!

The young and old couples plus the kid was planning to head down to East Coast. And you know how East Coast has this open concept and once it rains, Byebye.

I was really praying that much for the rain to stop (which it did! Thank you.) so that I could eat. I know, I am such a selfish girl when it comes to food.

He headed down to East Coast from his home and hahahaha!! The food didn't disappoint me at all. In fact, it was better that I, actually we expected. Sedap gile, hingga menjilatjari!

The sambal sotong was... *MMMHHMMM* wet and spicy and soft and chewy and just delicious! I was like one satisfied girl who got her favourite ice cream.

And many, many other things that we just grab and ate.

We ended the wet night with a filled stomach and nice long sleep for the day after.