I'M JEALOUS!!

ya.. wtf, I'm jealous!!

Ok, I'm crazy to be jealous over such a small and trivial matter.

OK HELL!!

whatever....

and 9 more days to go..

eeekk!!

The torture of missing your loved ones..

Come back faster can??

Tsk, tsk

I hate that thing you have to do..

And its Saturday!!

i guess when you are working, you don't feel that time passes by you.

i guess all that teaching, not children, but monkeys from the zoo has taken up a whole lot of my energy!! Huahua..

And I'm not used to students greeting me "Good Morning, Miss Suhaila/Teacher" along the corridors. I'm not used to raising my voice at the children, especially a P1 kid, when they pisses me off. And I'm not able to speak English with the students. (I have students from China, from Malaysia, even from Nepal and one from the Bangladesh!! eeekk!!) And I'm not getting their names right. Hmm...

But, but one thing I can say is, they are very, very, very cute!! *senior teacher rolls eyes*

And the staff are very2 nice and warm! And my mentor is actually my Primary School teacher, Mrs Marican. And yes, she was pleased to see me and even more pleased to help and guide me throughout the days here.

Ok, my blog entry is becoming more of a composition right??
Teeheehee!!

And yesterday,

My dearest one had reported for his National Services. So I guess, I will be alone for the next two weeks then. No company!! *sings* "I'm a lone ranger.. in lone, lone country road.."

But he called last night and he sounded quite happy and satisfied but grumbles at the thought of sleeping in a mosquito net. The possibility of... DENGUE!!

And yes, i am going shopping today, alone!! I repeat, ALONE.

Sheesh!!

Well, I better get back to my work now, if i want to be able to go home at 1pm.

(Ah yes, I am in school now, preparing for next week.. Haiz)

I'm starting werk in 7 hours time and I'm not yet asleep...

Eeeekkk!!

*serious butterflies in the stomach*

It seems like woziji.blogspot and gorblok.blogspot and wohuihaohaoguo.blogspot is dead at the moment. Hmm..

And Elektra!! i think I know why "boyfriend" hasn't replied us yet. The reason being: You are not allowed to bring chargers to camp!!

And Iceboy!! You are just simply cute ok?? And all the best with that gerl of yours.. Teehee!! And you are starting Uni term next week. All the best too!! And jiayou!! You know, i know ah huh.. And better make that lunch quick?? Look who's planning man!

I know, I'm having loads of negative thoughts about loads of stuff in my life. Let me tell, there is no other way of thinking positive when you have had so much failure. All the bad experiences somehow just get to you.

And boy, you know I don't wish to lose you again. But let's just take it slow. It may work out as we want to.

To my one and only Din, Fadilah and Saihah, I know I was being very irresponsible today. But I had such a lousy and hectic day that I just couldn't make it. I promise I will make it up to you alright?? Next week lunch, I pay!!

Din!! I love you to death!! No words can describe what you did. *hugs* I promise you will get your treat. I will personally come down to NYP and treat you like a prince for the day!

Huda!! Alamak beb!! Mana kamu si?? Tak balas msg2 saya?? Beep me tmr and meet up on Monday aite??

Ok, toodles!!

I admit, I'm so freakishly self conscious nowadays!!

I was wearing an okay-outfit, I had my natural make up on with flip flops and someone had to bring me to the airport.. Just for Popeyes!!

I kept nagging and bugging him, blaming him for bringing me to the airport in that kind of outfit!! Well, its still further from my home, so I was very uncomfy in it ok??

At least I enjoyed the food!! Teehee.

Induction meeting was today!!

And it was a pleasant experience. The people was nice, the vice-principal was very soft spoken, the staff was nice too but.. It was the children that matters. Well, they were nice and pleasant and I hope my class of pupils will be a little bit better, i hopefully pray.

And the good thing, I can wear anything I like!!! As long as no jeans and low neck blouses!! The Principal is a guy, so I guess, he is afraid nafsu die di-challenged kot!! muahaha!!

And, guess what??? The school has a lift!! Repeat: LIFT!! So i can save all that energy for teaching instead of climbing the stairs to the 4th floor everyday.

Pendek confirm-ly knows my hates of staircases!! Kan, kan?? *winks*

And a total request from him, here is the story for the day..

I was told to take 155 to reach Paya Lebar MRT and me being the most blurrest, dumbass and potek girl, didn't realise that she took the wrong plate coloured bus and landed her all the way to Toa Payoh instead of Paya Lebar!! *smacks forehead*

I wonder, why I didn't ask myself why I was at Braddell Rd instead of Upper Paya Lebar Rd. Duush!!

And I'm Harry Potter-ing on Monday!! Jadi, jgn tak jd sudah eh!! *tenung hard at that someone*

About that previous post, its was meant for someone.. And I know that someone knows it, or else she wouldn't have asked me what my post meant.

Please eh, even if I keep singing that Toni Braxton song, it doesn't mean I'm thinking or feeling heartbroken or whichever. Me singing that song simply means, I just loved it!! OK?!?! So you don't have to go, "Go and call him if you miss him.." or "See la, heartbroken rite?? Feeling sad again??" again and again.

And you for once, don't take my heartbroken-ness for granted!! Oh goodness!! I broke up, so??? That does not mean, you can keep making me harp on it ok!! I hate it!!

Weelll, whatever gerl.. I'm too frustrated for that now.

Un-break my heart
Say you'll love me again
Un-do this hurt you caused
When you walked out the door
And walked outta my life
Un-cry these tears
I cried so many nights
Un-break my heart, my heart

If you think that's how I feel, NAH!! Forget bout it k!!

As for now, I'm feeling it and this!!

And yes!! He came over!! (Ok, no surprise. He's been coming over almost every week for free lunch aniway, kan??heehee) Finally, our plans were activated!! So movies-watching baby!!

And "Jangan pandang belakang" was very ermm... Lame and kelakar but there were scary moments. I know I was laughing hard!! At the part, "Bapak kau!!". Kwakwa!!

Rambutans, Air wap, Cakar Ayam, Kuih Bakar and Chocolate Ice cream and, and.. His free lunch, Mama's speciality, Asam Pedas Ikan Pari, dipped that Tauhu in kicap pedas, Wow!! Sungguh sedap hingga menjilat jari!!

"Ghost Rider" was half way through because someone has to werk!!

Moments are gerek with him around and disturbing my computer non-stop for his "Need for Speed Underground". OMG!! I swear when he comes, I'll just shut down that comp plus lock my room too!!

And those who are thinking ways over their heads about us, please eh!! Nothing of that sort!!! We are still friends, from dulu2 sampai lah sekarang!! hurhurhur

And honey, did we just did what we did earlier?? Oh goodness!! "It's so unbelievable!!" *sings to craig david*

Happy Birthday (19th!!) to Miss Angela Yang Hui Hui aka our Xiao mei aka SuperGer!! I wish you all the best to you, for school for your active activities and for everything good in your life!! You know, I love you much and I can't wait to see you at the end of the month k!! Muacks!! *hugs and kisses*

Happy Birthday to that long distance friend of mine too, Zhafir!! I hope you are reading this, but if you are not, I gave that friendster comment too!! Hope you are doing fine over the other side of the globe. I didn't remember your birthday actually, but I remembered your tattoo!!!

Weekends have been loads of lovessss and joysss!!!

I met up with the dearest of mine on thursday!! And I'm sorry for not Harry Potter-ing with you!! But thanks for the trip and the time together..

And ain't I sweet to have visit you at your werkplace. And let me tell, Mal is very good in her customer service!! lembut nye suare dier... weeheehee...

Orchard-ing with Mr Azri!! And yesh, I was wearing so pretty-ly and too lady-like for a simple day like that.

And and... I fell in love with that vintage dress!!!! That dress was calling out to me and yes, it was calling me!! OMG!! I just fell in love at first sight. But, but.. no, no.. Azri won't let me buy it. Reason being: It costs $109!! Grr.. but it was so pretty la!! And the vintage skirts, and the vintage bag and belt!! Just everything vintage ok!!

Cahaya Restaurant for Dinner. And damn la!! The Hokkin Mee is so sedaps and so basah!! Sampai menjilat sudu garfu mee dier!!

To Borders for books! And silly us bought this book, Brainteasers and we spent hours at the McCafe, just laughing at ourselves silly!! haha!!

Here are a few:

If there are 3 apples, and you take away 2, how many do you have??

Ans: 2 apples, cos you just take away 2!

What do you put in a toaster??

Ans: Bread. If you say toast, shame on you!

Take 30 divide by 1/2, add 10. What do you get??

Ans: 70. If you say 25, shame on you too!!

Thanks for the day!!

Oohh.. And I got my posting!! And the upside is, the further the better. The downside, it's morning session and I got posted at Aljunied!! Aaahhh!! Can I just knock heads of the Placement Unit??

I'm the type who don't wake up early and always late for almost everything early!! I can even see it in my head, my students are waiting for me and the teacher is still sleeping like a pig ok!!

Luckily, its only for a year!! But on second thoughts!! Its 12 months!! Sheesh!!

To Miss Nurda darling, Next week we go school together k.. Lunch together, chill together, sume nye together2!! Kwakwa..

To my Miss Jay-Alexander wannabe (Fuddin, I mean!), Please eh!! Do go to school!! You just have 1 and 1/2 more years to go!! And after that, you are done. But whatever it is, I support you all the way!!

To my 3rd boyfriend, *sobs, sobs*

You going NS lerr... Haiz..

One down, 2 more to go... And my Superheroes will be spread to other parts of the world, i mean, Singapore and I will miss them..

But, but.. on the bright side..

By spreading to other parts, means our powers wil be used for the good of others often.

Ok, fine, whatever, I'm CRAPPING!!!

So Superman, you take care, go serve the country, always think of me, oh, me ONLY, and go get more hunky k... I see you at the month, when you book out ok!!

And, and.. Kwakwa!! don't drop your soap often k?? hehe

Bye, bye!!

I love you so much!! And don't worry ah, when u POP, I will be there.. so will the others..

And thanks for all the support, the shoulders, the memories and the years together.

And I will always remember that time, you held my hand tightly, when I was frightened during our adventure at OCH. Hahaha!!

Take care!!

Can I say I adore this guy much???

Because for now, he's the man!!

Thanks for that support dearie!!

And I do wonder how he can be so positive and optimistic and so cheerio, after all that has happened, between us, between him and her, and our individualistic lives.

But, but...

In any way, saya sayang awak!! (even though I did bitched about you back then. I know, Z and Fid knew that!! Keke)

Azri: One Ice Lemon Tea, pls.

Auntie: Home made one, can??

Azri: Oh, I don't want.. *looks at tin cans* Err, Whatever ah, auntie..

Auntie: Whatever ah?? *????*

Azri: Ah, whatever.

Auntie: OooHH!!! Whatever ah!!

HAHAHA!!! Ok, do you guys kind of get it??

There's this new drinks distributed by Yeo's, right?? The flavours are, Whatever and Anything..

Just imagine saying to the auntie, "Auntie, Anything ah..". Muahahah!! I know I was laughing back then. It sounded rude, but blame Yeo's. keke

Another incident was,

Every toilet should have a baldi kan?? (And yes, ainie.. I'm kind of getting my temporary loss of dictionary!! Errmm, what is baldi in eng ah??)

So most of the time, after my fourth sister bathes, that baldi will always be turned upside down. I always wondered why but, I never asked.

So...

Mama: Ayu, when u bathe, u like to sit at the baldi ah??

Ayu: No.

Mama: Why is the baldi always terbalik??

Ayu: *dgn muka selamba* Denggi.

Muahaha!! I think, that sis of mine have too much of Health Education. Kwakwa!!

Ohh, my 3rd boyfriend is NS-ing on Fri. So sad!!! *sobs*

I will miss him much de. Cfm when he gets back, he won't be that cute and fair and hunky 3rd boyfriend of mine de. I bet ah, abit aneh-ish can?? Hehe..

Superman, you take care hor. I lup you much and beep2 and think of your other superheroes k!! *winks*

Life is just one, big daze right now.

Saddening, the main feeling for the week.

I had meet up with that friend of mine. And tks for the necklace. I know, you know, I loved it!

But I'm still wondering, Why did you even bother after all what has happened??

And the funny thing, why did I even bother??

I know, I was saddened by that look into that hp of yours. But I think I took it my stride. But seriously, after all this, why bother??? Haiz...

I've met with that other friend of mine. And I know, he feels it. And I'm glad he realise it, because sooner or later, I may just be out of his life.

Maybe somehow, I feel I could just run away from my troubles and others. Just like a buddy of mine, "air kotak". He's just gone, just like that... Hmm....

I spent quality time with the one close to me nowadays, my Belo. He's just here to listen to me and spent time with me to throw my troubles away. And I seriously thank him for that, even after all that i did and what we went through. *hugs*

And for the record, its been 2 weeks and 2 days exactly, since I talked. And whatever it is, I'm not talking to him, sooner or later.

I saw that best friend of mine the other day and i just wanted not go to werk and accompanied her to orchard and cry on her shoulders all the way. I wanted to... Because I just had too much in my head and so many burdens to throw. *sobs*

But, but.. as least life is a little bit better, in a way or another.

I bought too many, many tops!!! I need to search for skirts!!

But wherever i go, my eyes will be on tops and not bottoms. And Belobacinboncit will be like, "Sue!! skirts, please!!"

Sheesh!!

Since I havent been blogging much about my doings and recent playthings, Here is some of it!!!

I had such a wonderful time watching... Transformers, robots in disguise!!!

Actually, when he asked me out for a movie, I was, "errr...". But I'm not regretting it!! I enjoyed it and it was worth my money and my Nachos!! muahaha.. Tell me, which cartoon movie had this kind of emotional thing, great graphics and nice robots?? This one did!!

And I have been getting rashes lately. That's why I keep turning people down for dates. And I am so sorry!! But it was very red!! And not a lovely sight..

I had my health check yesterday and tell you, it was not a very good experience. It was an embarassing one where u let doctors touch the sensitive parts of you. Seriously, very embarassing and uncomfy!!

But hey, at least I get to see the inside of me, and it was very delicate. Keke..

How I wish I could just pull off all my hair, then cut my scalp, then the skull and take out the brain and put it in a chest and bury it. Then I will be dead and all my troubles will go away ok!!

Grrr!!

Let's see..

I'm pissed, i'm frustrated, i'm depressed, i'm distressed and I'm having such a big, hug, gigantic headache!! Can???

I'm not in the mood for serious talks about commitments, relationships and fcking patch-ups!! Chill ok?? I'm not soooo into that right now!! You said, we were friends and that's that!! Ta da!! Bye-bye, helo!!

And please eh!!! You are just a friend whom I know a few months ago, and I'm not yet that close to you. I contact you for the sake of friendship, and now, you are telling me, please be your teman hidup?? Nak masuk minang and all that!! Just freaking go to hell can?? Asal bbual world je, macam paham je!! And oh ya!! I know you are readng this, so just freaking terase ok!! I will be so glad!!

Sheesh and Geez!! What is this world of mine coming too?? Its terbalik-balik!!

And one more thing, it was ups and downs and upsss again den it was down at its lowest, like low gile, now here's the question.. Should I bring up its upssssss and moments of glory again??

I think I should, shouldn't I??

God is just making me keep my first promise, that is, forever sampai ke tua sampai ke mati, bawak ke kubur.

Lets talk about Saturday ok??

I wanted to talk so much about Saturday event.. (I've been waiting for 2 days ok!!) But the pictures, Sheesh!! lembabs!! *stares at Azri, with a piercing look*

It was a date for us!! (i mean, a friend-to-friend date laaa..)

Cable car was first!! Ok, chill! It was my first and it was the most frightening moment ok!! I was just scared that the wire would get loose and I would die and be part of the sea. I was that paranoid! And Bacin was so irritated and annoyed that I just shut up.. *zips*

And the incident with 'Tuna'.. (not sardine k..) Sheesh!! Nasib baik he looks pathetic, so I would just swing my arms at him!!

And Bacin!! Shut up about that incident in the cable car ok??? *rolls eyes* I know I freaked out but hey, the cabel car was really senget and I didnt want to die!!

Underwater world was next!! And again, I know I'm very kentalic-scared to go in the tunnel because I was scared the glass might break/crack then I will be eaten by sharks!! haha!! kental I know!!

He said that too.. Hmmph!!

And we were the most Jakuns of all jakuns!! Really, really jakuns!! My first at Underwater world!! And the turtles don't look like the typical turtle I see at ponds, the crabs aren't the typical crabs I eat and even the ariwana fish I keep at home isn't the one I see there!! The ariwana is as tall as me, VERTICALLY!! whosh!! I'm not joking!! And My first seeing jellyfishes, which looked to me in my secondary school biology diagrams, Cell Membranes!! Muahaha!!

And ikan pari-pari (I don't know what is called in English!!) which was living in self-denial. It actually thought it is a dolphin and keep flapping its flabby face there!!

The sharks were great!! And big and huge and, and... JUST GEREK OK!! because it was so big and it was swimming and I can see the teeth or gums or whatever it is called!! It was pretty sharp!! *ouch!*

Vivo was next for shopping!! And, and..

A BIG SHOUT OUT TO AZRI BELOBACINBONCITS!!!
"THANK YOU!!" *gigantic, extravagant hugs*

I received 3 dresses from him!! And yes, yes.. It was very pretty!! Very, very pretty-tak-blh-angkats nye!!

Earl Swensens for Dinner!! And dinner was very besar and the Baked Rice was even Besar!! It was so embarassing to ask for take-outs ok!! Sheesh!! We had Smoked Chicken which was very sedaps!! And salad was yummy yum yum!! And, not forgetting my fave, the fries la!! Next time, we take the Ice Cream Fondue k??

VInco Donuts, which queue was inevitably long!! And very long!!! Mom and sisters were waiting like hours for us to come down!! Sheesh!! But the donuts, was very worth it!! Kan, kan??

After the long day, Azri send the girls home. (My mom is still young ok?? Young at heart..)

And it was home sweet home!!

And to Belobacinboncits, Thanks for the morning, afternoon, evening and night!! Which basically makes up the whole day.. And you are one of the very few who never fails to make my day!! And someone dah pandai cam-whore lah!! hehe.. I adore you laaa!! From dulu, dulu sampai lah sekarang!! *hugs and lots of pan-kisses*

And enjoy the pics!! How I wish I could post all 167 pictures, but, due to limited spaces and the stupid slow loading and Azri who haven't even reached yet to install my programs, for now, these will do!!

Nice and Preetti in our clothes for the day!!

Me scared before the cable car ride.. Errrr!!Bacin all cool for the ride!!
In the cable car.. The Jakuns!!
That's Vivo, FYI!!
Fossil-ised Amazed. AAAAHH!!! JAWS!!

Wat I call, a butt crab!! muahaha.

That's a shark face!!Our Earl Swensens Meal for 2..

Thank you