today is the most touching/happiest/sweetest day of the month.

There are just sweet moments to live me up.. hehe
And i wont tell it in here..
Just memories for myself alone.. keke
*grins*

Wen to skool for prac test.. die de-di-de-nah!!! Ish..
And went fc 4 for lunch..
And FYI, i didnt eat a proper meal for the whole day..

No rice, no mee, nothing..

No carbs.
Serious..
No bon appetit.

And otw to class, we saw tis bike.. its damn cute/funny/attention-grabber.. Will post the pic soon..


Had Prac for WSP.. the last prac of my poly life.. And it was so.. ermm.. i don noe wats the werd..
Reach home and finally, HE'S BACK!!! haha

Met up with the two "brownies".. And kite naik bas la!!! kena pakse but still, i had to pay the bus fare.. Sheesh!! And of course lah kene dgr ckp mak.. die dah kasi kite nasihat/larangan sume.. tak kan nak tolak je.. sekali sekala takpe lah. kene lah jage hati mama sikit.. Hidup tak selamat kalau takde mother's blessings.. Understand?!?!

Simpang Bedok-ing!! And, and.. I ATE MY ROTI JOHN LAH!!! haha.. ade2 je si sue nie..

And sumting just had to happen.. All three of us made a fool of ourselves one by one.. haha.. so memalukan, that we just went off early..

Firstly, kite ngah borak2 den skali i just ter-hentak kepala with the org belakang.. Sakit lah!!! Den si angin yg melambai tu buat ice lemon tea Mad spill on his baju2.. Tu agi satu hal.. Leceh abis laki tu.. tak henti2 nak blek tukar baju.. den i spill air teh on the table.. Its like as if i was trying to cari gaduh with the 2 guys lah.. becos the air teh just mcm terhempas on the table tau.. sheesh.. And si yuz bacin tu drop his chair on the floor accidentally, tp its like mcm die tak hapi lah.. Too many embarassing moments, so we just cabut lah.. Terbahak2 kite ketawa.. Lain kali jgn taruk air on the table and bela pelan2.. haha.. Malu lah k..

Pondok sitting with so many2 mosquitoes, baby cockroach and the so many2 cicaks.. and the budak2-kecik-yg-sungguh-tak-matang-main-buai2/swing.. Momentum abis!! haha
And giving guys free lesson on girls.. Guys are jus plain idiots in this kind of stuff!! i just realise it.. When i say something, jus accept it.. Nvr question it.. OK?!?!?

And, and.. why cant ppl just rmbr their appts with others?? Ade plans, tapi kate takde.. haiz.. Must buy an organiser lah..

Today is just a plentiful day of nervousness/bumbumboom-ness/stressness.

The last hurdle to overcome before the end of my poly life.

AND ITS OVER!!!

had my FYP presentation. And it was a formal one. So i was like a kakak-kakak today. So lawa lah.. Perfectly black!! hehe

It was a vavavoom presentation and lots of snappies to show!

The end of it all, Pek Choo said, "gd report, gd presentation but scientifically unsatisfactory."

WTH!! i shud have just used all the chim terminologies found in the theory. Then perhaps, it would be SCIENTIFICALLY satisfactory. Dumb!!

And to the 3 J-s... Cfm an A lah!!! The project was a total success, no matter how boring/draggy/dead the presentation were. Im so...... HMMPH!!

And, and.. Im so mad la at someone!! one, you cld have called me.. Not just to msg sekeping and say "kirim salam kat su..". Like you always say, "kalau matair, sume kene sanggup bt pape." so jus to spend a few cents/bucks to kol me.. susah ke?!?!?!? Geram tau!! dulu, no matter wat, u like to say "ade matair mcm takde matair".. Now its my turn.. HMMPH!

Enuff of geramness...

Feasting time!!!

Nette and me!! Perfect in black..

the Smarties!
My Mates..
Me and "Lee Wah Ling".. kwakwa

Kawan baik ku whose budi yg tak dpt dibalas.The guy and The gay..
me, AJ and Nette..

tHe whole lot...

Im not trying to be the bug/fly or watsoever, who goes around poking into other ppl's business.

Ok fine!! i know im abit kepo.

But still,
Why do you have to keep/hide it away from me??

Is it so shameful/confidential that you have to be so secretive about it that you have to lie to me??

You are my gd/best buddy, and i tell you almost everything but how about you??

I don noe why but i feel somehow disappointed..
And i feel so upset when ppl comment/criticise our friendship, when they don noe anything.
And now, u have to make things worse.

Even mild things like this can hurt our friendship, FYI.

The season of break-ups.

The love-hater bug is in the air.

I was stumped and shock when a good friend of mine told me she had broken up with her boyfriend. Almost 3 long years. Such a waste!

And my heart truly breaks when i saw her cry, reliving her memories. I know how it feels and its very heart-rending.

All these bring back memories of mine.

Seems to me that my past is bent on coming back to me. And my wounds are almost opening up. Im no longer that strong these few days. If only i could totally let go but i cant.

Seeing and hearing all about it again, after a long time, hurts alot. Im just trying to stay strong but i know im at my most vulnerable anytime soon..

Just want my loved ones by my side at these moments of my life.
And that suffices it all.

hai!!

Siang kan i blek narie??? *grins*

Forced to.. no one to pei me go out!! all wan to study.. Tmr have POPRI test.. kwakwa!!

Niways, rmbr the last post i was craving for takoyaki balls??? Today, I saw it lah, at fc 2!! The bazaar!! Love SP!! haha.. Will buy it tmr..

And brownies.. My dear Mally going to acc me to Secret Recipe. And the OCK balls and nuggets.. Its in my stomach now, digesting.. Yum yum!!

Now for the last crave, who is so kind to acc me to Simpang Bedok???? Nak mkn roti john lah... haha

And i have something to say lah!!
Why am i being stereotyped?!?!??!
Tak suka la..
*Majuks gile*

One, i knew him when he didnt have a bike.
Two, so far, i took his bike like a few times.
Three, I don love his bike, i go for the guy.
Four, im not the minah2 tepi jalan tu lah yg pentingkan bende2 harta, its jus sincerity.
Five, I ade a bit of a phobia with bikes.. Like you don noe like tat..

So what kalau die ade motor?? Easy transport nenek di-de-nah!! Ade transport pun i still take public transport ok.. No difference.. Takde "dulu lain, skrg lain".. Its still "Dulu same, skrg pun same"

Geram nye!!! So... Pendek!! Lain kali jgn buat crite and stereotype me la!!!

A noisyandcrappyandjoyous Sunday!!!

Early in the morning at 8 am, I was woken up by the sounds of Bhangra/Hindustani/Bengali.
Don ask me who open it up, im sure you can guess who..

Was so annoyed but my shoulders actually moved to the beat.. Wakaka.. Mmg dasar anak mamak..

Went for class ugama.. Last lesson after 4 yrs. Finally!! Time passes so fast la.. Reach home like 11.15 am. I got to see Zatch Bell. Woohoo!!

Slept like a log till 3 plus. Catch the tv shows/dvds/doing ppt and many,many more.. Painting my fyp potrait and blah, blah, blah.. Went for a run, a quick one and blah, blah, blah..

One thing, i didnt go out lah today. Sheesh!!

And i was embarassed. Imagine sharing your personal health problems with your dad.. Wooaah!! Sunnguh memalukan la.. And btw, no worries.. will go to the polyclinic as soon as possible.. I still want my tits.. kwakwa..

With my father and brother challenging on tekken.. The bet was the school of choice for my brother. He wanted Loyang, Dad wants East View. The win was my brother's, after almost an hour on the PS.

And my brother is going Perak for hols with the Angkats family. So menyampah!! manjakan sangat mak angkat nye tu!! N i'm like given the task to persuade Sigelap. Pandai sgt..bende2 gini cari aku.. Kalau tak, cari gaduh pandai lah.. And my 3 sis is going Escape. And i just gave her a lie for my youngest sis so she wont be able to follow my 3rd sis. Jahat kan ajar adik2 tipu..

And me, im sick la!! tak abis2 tau.. Blocked nose and a cough. sheesh!! Cough has been there almost 2 mths.

And im having cravings!!!

I want:

• Brownies (so suddenly!!)
• OCK sotong balls and nuggets.
• Roti John Mushroom Cheese
• Takoyaki Balls

haha.. Tak senonoh kan.. Ade2 je nak mkn.. No wonder getting bigger and bigger.. hehe

I feel like knocking my head against the wall!!!!!!!!!
*sobs, sobs*

I thought you were gone. I thought you had went away. And i thought you werent here anymore. I didnt know.

I tried calling you a few times but i couldnt reach you. So i thought u went away. And i was so devastated/sad/disappointed that i thought you went away without saying goodbye.

But i was wrong!!! you actually wanted to say goodbye but i wasnt home..

I want to cekik2 myself so much right now!!!

Anyways, whatever promises i made to you yesterday, i will keep it.. No worries..

I promise:
- not to fool around
- to be home early
- not to go out with people unnecessarily, yg tak penting sume tak payah lah
- jaga diri baik2
- to think of mak bapak/you, bile nak buat bende tak senonoh/which dont like
- n ade bnyk2 bende lah that you sumpah sane sini cmlm.
*winks*

Now, i just want you to keep your promise to me, Which is to be home safe and sound in a week.. tats all..

btw, will update this blog so you can noe wat is happening while you were gone.. like you ask me to.. sheesh!!

IM SO SAD/MAD/BINGIT NOW!!!!!

who do you think i am?!?!?!
Some cheap girl?!?!

I FEEL SO INSULTED!!!
*crys loudly*

D.. where r u?? *sobs*

Went outz wit the besties today..
Even though te celebration didnt werk out..

BUT IT WAS LOVES AND JOYS JUST TO C THEM!!!

Met up wit Mal at 3 plus.. Both were late and amazingly, our dear Dee was EARLY!! its so unbelievable la!!

Went to Starbucks but had a change of mind cos Mal wanted something syrupy instead of ice blendy or mocha-ish..

Chatted up for awhile. Not much gossips but more of playing a fool.. hehe.. as per normal lah.. me wit my so-gatal hands.. hehe

Went hm by bus and sumting happen..

Tks eh Dee for the call.. My heart skipped a beat and trust me, i was shivering like crazy!! Menggigil!!

Maybe it was over but sometimes, the heart wants to know. And when it knows, the old wounds would open up and it will hurt again.

Pics For the day

mY saYaNg2..

Why are you so nice to me??

U told me i betrayed you twice.

And i told you, I cant accept things that has happen so easily.

I cant.

So dont try to change things as they are now.

I feel so touched but guilty.

There i was hooray2-ing outside.

And i wasnt thinking abt you.

But you thought of me.

A big surprise was awaiting for me at home.

Sumting sweet you had done that made me teared.

Yes, i cried.

I just cant believe it that you spared a thought for me,

When i didnt..

All i can say for now, is Thanks and Im sorry..

we were talking abt licenses. i mean, bike and car, that kind of license...

dad: Knp tak amik license?
Mom: Die.. die cume nak jadi ma'am Besar je.. Ddk and lepak.. Agipun, die ade phobia psl vehicles.. (dlm hati, tak sia2 jd mak aku.. Sume nye tau.. kwakwa)
Me: Mama!!! malu seh.. Shuush!! Kalau amik pun, Duit????
Dad: Gi amik lah.. Nanti Bak sponsorkan.. You check out the package first, take the theory, check out how much and then u get back to me..
Me: *eyes wide open and cant believe what i was hearing* bedek ah??

So... to hell with all my phobias!!! Im taking my driving license!!! kwakwa..
Insyaallah.. For the new year..

Today is just a turmoil of feelings for me..

Once i felt so damne moody that when ppl msg me, i feel sothemalasnaklayan. So to Yuz, Giant, Mai and Fid cuz, sori lah.. If all the msgs were left unsend.. hehe

Reach hm was so damn bingit.. Tell me, i reach hm, i was forced to go out to tamp just to buy my dad's bdae cake. Could they have called like early so i can go straight to tamp?? buang tambang seh.. Reach tamp, met D and acc to buy the cake. Send me to the train station.. Otw hm, sum1 made me more bingit!! I didnt bring my wallet, don say xtra $$$$$$$$$.. ask me buy this buy tat.. Sheesh

Btw, was cooled down and walk to Eastpoint with my 2 little sisters. Bought fish and chips and chicken rice.. Cut the cake and ate!!

After eating, my mood was at least up!!! Instead of the usual gang for cycling, i had my 2 little sisters for company. We went cycling the whole neighbourhood for an hour and play ctaching under the block for half an hr. My youngest sis is so cute!! She is 6 and she can ride the bcycle!! not the tricycle!!! and she can make some bicycle tricks!! so cute lah!! (look at the big sis la!! kwakwa)

ok now, im so tired.. nite2 c u!! MUACKS!!

A short note: have you ever felt lonely even though you have sum1 u love by your side???

I've nvr done this b4.. For all the yrs i've blogged..

BUT............... now im doing it...

TO MY SIGELAP....

IRRITATING.... ANNOYING....

UNACCEPTING AND KPO BAK,

HAPPY 41st BDAE!!

Now you are a 4 and a 1.. so accept life like a 40 year old man!! no more childish acts, no more dancing to tamil/hindustan songs, no more dirty jokes and no more embarassing me.. hehe

I pray2 alot for ur safety, health and happiness. I also pray you wont be so big headed and hot headed.. Always keeping your calm. I also pray you will come home late everyday so when i reach home late, I don have to listen to your nags!! kwakwa!! (basket nye sue.. hehe)

Niways.. have a nice day and may more nice years to come for you!!

Though i nvr say/show/act it, but..

*LOVES*

Do i have to stand this feeling everyday?? Is this what i have to go through everyday.. Feeling of uncertainty and doubt..

Its not that i dont trust you but sometimes its hard. My heart jus shatters off everyday. The feeling of jealousy and envy.

Im just trying my every strength to not feel sensitive about it. I try my best to actually fight back all the tears with all my strength and faith.

I try the best to smile and act all is fine. But i noe its not.. Its just not.. Like you always say, Never judge a book by its cover.

Maybe this is just part of life that you have to go through in the bundles of ties and bonds.

*tearing off away*

Thursday

Went to skool for FYP.. alone!! GRRR... cut the canvas.. make the borders.. and i was like a stupid technician for the day.. I was sawing the wood.. Up and down the table.. Luckily, Mr tan is here to help.. Owe you one!! Kopi on Monday ya.. haha

After that, met up with Azri.. To Vivo.. While waiting for azri at Outram, there was this boy.. He came up to me and said, "Can you help me??".. Then he said he didnt have $$$ to eat and go home.. Then i think he is a bit mental lah.. Den i feel so kesian, i gave him 2 bucks.. Den suddenly he tok abt he wants to change into a girl.. he ask me whether can or not.. And he ask me to go to his auntie house. And see him wear girls clothes.. whether nice or not.. i was so frwaked out but layan kan je lah.. I was with him like 15 mins.. I was so scared i kol Azri and ask him to lincah cum.. Luckily he came early enuff and pulled me away..

Went to Vivo.. acc azri dere.. As he did nt have time to go and i jus asked him along.. Slow talk and there were tears.. Sad moments.. wont elaborate more..

Friday

Supposed to meet up at 9 but at 9, i was still waiting for those two star-karats at Simei.. nette was waiting at the lab alr de nah.. haha..

Reach lab, made the paints and draw the potrait.. Lawa lah.. i can be an artist.. haha.. I painted and sum1 slept.. Hmmph!! keke

Spent 7 hrs in the lab.. Reach hm at 6.. Tired and went to bed!! E learning still haven touch yet.. Kwakwa

k la.. tats all.. nak tdo lah.. NITES!!

MUACKS!!!

MONDAY

early in the morning.. FYP.. everytime i type/hear/say this werd, i'll be like, "Haiz..". serious, no kidding!! its boring ok?? n stressful.. datelines nxt week and report is only halfway done.. Sheesh.. Den followed by a trip to Vivo City.. For Shah's bdae celebration!! Went to get the tix for "the Covenant". We got like the first row seats.. And my neck was so freaking cramped, i jus sat on the floor.. At least my neck wasnt being overly stretched. Covenant has lots of cute guys.. *ehem2* like Caleb.. hes so cute lah!!! Story line was slow but graphics/effects.. Great!!

After a movie, we went play with water where almost all of us is wet like crazy!! esp the bdae boy.. being pushed into the fountain display and the shallow pool.. And i see some kind of a longkang dere for a while.. haha!! oops!! Den i had to go off a little bit earlier like 10.. Train was damn packed!!! Sheesh.. met up wit Mr Gelap at Eastpoint. Well, seen anyone who brings a helmet but takes a bus?? i know sum1 who did tat.. haha

TUESDAY

FYP.. again.. c y im tired of the werd?? duh!! Den off to Shah's house for hari raya visiting!! from 2 to like 9pm.. Don ask me wat i did there for the whole long hours.. Cos i seriously dont know what i did that time passes so fast.. His mom cooked up lots of dishes.. Ade rendang, lemak, lontong, udang and PIZZA!! hehek.. Den dinner ade rojak mama agi..

His sister is so cute!! In pri 3 and mcm so geram lah pipi die.. She loves to draw and shes fair.. So sweet lah!! Reach home like 10.30.. and chiong my CAT report.. its like 1 wk late de ah.. haha.. FYP report.. don say lah eh.. Tat one only 50% done..

WEDNESDAY

thot of going to skool.. Hand in report.. tp mcm mls plk.. so stayed at home.. And i 4got i promised sum1 i will go today.. so off i went to Vivo again!! Boring ok.. asyik Vivo je.. like haiz.. haha.. My tips: Nvr go out with guys to go shopping!!! leceh lah.. try sane, try sini.. masuk kedai sane, masuk kedai sini.. Wahh!! tak blh tahan lah.. kaki ku sakit!! And imagine lah.. so uncomfy okay when they all cuci mate and crack stupid jokes abt girls... Duush!! pk aku nie tunggul ke??

Dinner was at Harbourfront foodcourt where the atmosphere was very mendaks.. And went hm took bus 10.. so lame ok the journey.. jage "octopus"(haha.. itchy hands to the max!!), jokes, main stupid, childish games.. and sum1 almost merajuk.. fine lah, nxt time tak comment psl ur girl k.. The long walk from CGH to home.. and reached.. Straight away MSN... ade appt lah..

K lah.. tats all..

BYE2
MUACKS!!

Hari raye-ing with the sec skool mates can never be more fun and crazy like yesterday.

Starting off, it was very awkward and mendaks. Well, we have not seen each other like weeks, months and years. So yes, very awkward indeed. And it was like the first time ever, where there were 407, 408 and 408 people joined up for hari raye, due all the sec skool conflicts we had.

But on and all, we get along fine. Except some very frank comments which made certain times awkward. hehe

And geram moments when dee didnt wear our clothes. haha. You should have seen Mal's face.

Charades, jokes, lift challenge, complaints of long walks from tash, mengumpat-ing, teasings and bingitss. Kucings (realli cute ones!!!), West Ham and Arsenal match.. Realli damn kecohs!! haha

tashsuefikazritsafidmildee.. Guess what it means??

Order of houses we went to..

alah, tak tau ape lagi nak crite lah. Bye2.
Pics Feasting alrite??
Ciaoz..

MUACKS!!

Girls wiLL always bE gIrls

The gUys..

gRp pIcs

rEaLLi, reAlli cUte kUcINgs... JunIor..

bAtmAN!!
*sEc sKooL lOves*

A good way to end the weekdays and start the weekends!!

Spent the evening with my GERLFRENS!!! syg korangs!! hehe

VivoCity-ing, LJS-ing, Dee-waiting (mcm tak biase je..), a Romantic Picnic by the artificial pool, a walk by and in the pool with my "lesbian-4-the-day" partner.. Lots of teasings, window-shopping, Eye-washing, and loads and loads of things!!!

But the joke of the day was when.... SOMEONE FELL FLAT ON HER BUTT!! hehe.. kekek giler lah!! well, nxt time bile nak sandar on the platform, testing dulu nye.. mane lah tau.. hehek

Ok.. i don noe wat to tok abt!! Jus feast on the pics aite??

CIAOZ!!!

MUACKS!!!

im Jus In LOVE wiT thEsE gErLS!!!

*HUGS AND KISSES*