my makciks and pakciKs camE over today!!
not 4GettiNg mY cUzziNs n anak2 sedare..
sume nye cute2 giler!!!

all the bIsiNg2..
whiCh meAns weLL i dId not stUdy 4 mY cpstec tmr..
hehe

sum of the pics i took today..
bye2

Muacks..

my cUte sMall cuZzins

mY faVoUriTe lIttLe onE..

mY aNAk sEdaRez.. kin2 and aYuL

mY bUtcH cUzzIn.. ekseN maLu!!

cUte kan??

oH tats me.. trYing To sTudy..

went out for a late lunch @ banquet..
my fried fish noodle wit soup..
yum2..

off we were to pasir ris beach..
tangkap angin like i said b4..

im sori..
i hate it wen u cry infront of me..
yes, i noe i hurt ur feelings..
pls..
no more of tears..
im trying to let go..
like i told u..
yes, i noe it hurts u to noe u r not the only one in my heart..
i noe, im a stupid girl..
trying to catch cloud in a bag..
wen all u get is water in the end..
wen it is impossible..

but i cant control it..
the emotions are part of me..
i cant make it go away..
*sobs*

jus give me more time..
i noe u don like to see or hear me to b sad..
cry everynite for no reasonable reason..
so tats y wen i cry or am sad, i don show it out..
i jus keep it to myself..
cos i don wan u to wori abt me..
its better if i cry by myself den 2 c u worried abt me..

niways, i do love u..
like i always said..
aite?
jus not u alone..
its divided..
i nd sum love for my family and friends kan?
hehe

pics of the day..

bubble chEEKs!!

will this lasts?? jus havin hopes of it..

my fLyIng pEnguIN!!

waduh!!!!

so B-O-R-E-D!!

seriously.. it almost noon..
n dere's only two online..
the 2 biatches..
wat a coincidence
out of almost 100 contacts on my list..
summore that girl, ask me to online at 11.15..
till now, not even in..
Sheesh..

Today, hmm..
wsa tinking of studying..
but jus not in the mood..

so, going out later..
maybe, tangkap angin..
haha

i don noe whether to feel sad or happy for u..
maybe both ways..

im sad for u..
in a way u don believe in love anymore..
the only way to fall in love is to kill urself n u would rather die than fall in love..
u may be tired of it..
but sumhow, its not worth freezing ur feelings jus bcos u were disappointed a few times..
come on, its jus.. hmm, plus tis, it shud be 7 times..
haha..
u've been thru it a lot..
y must tis b an exception?
rite?

im happy in a sense that u deserve it..
i noe, aku nie dengki sikit..
but to noe u r sad..
it makes me satisfied..
makes u learn a lesson on the way to treat girls..
n rship as how they shud be treated..
plus, im sure u will find sum1 soon..
u always do..
jus treat them seriously this time..
aite?
*winks*

i have 3 tests to go b4 exams..
Stress gileeeerrr!!!

at least im okai..
my bf?
haiz..
he's so damn bz he don have time for me..
like i said, jus his codings and HTML 24/7
sheesh..

mayb going out tmr
to Sentosa..
with Fid and gang..
Insyaallah..

If not, klua tangkap angin,pun cantik..
haha

k lah.. bye..

MUACKS!!

3 makan places in a day.. from 12 to 9.. how many is tat?

met dee ard 12.30 @ orchard.. seriously that was the earliest i've ever been to orchard.. so early lah.. haha.. while waiting for mal, we went to ljs far east.. after which we sat there for 1 hr.. we were very hungary.. ate.. the atmosphere seriously was very cold.. wit sum1's moodiness and sleepiness.. till i got shouted at.. then situation got irritating.. one, it was vey mendak.. two, we don noe where to go.. so walked ard.. was realli bored, so called Elektra to ask wat we can do.. Luckily he gave a suggestion.. take neos!! hehe

Plus to create the atmosphere, i was the only one who was making stupid jokes n laughing at my own jokes.. very funny okay.. i feel like a clown..

After the neos, sum1 was craving 4 teh-peng.. so went to 7-11.. where we sat dere like 2 hrs.. waiting for shaf to arrive.. so lambat okai? are all tp students like tis? so star-karat!!

shaf was realli cute.. hah.. he was like a small kid getting lost in the middle of town.. haha.. kept callin to ask where to walk and the directions.. haha

den we sat at MacD, acc shaf to eat.. den we crapped there for like 2.5 hrs... Nuggets, sundaes, fries.. oh, oh.. mengutuk-ing the delifrance boy.. plus teasing dee.. a debate on which is high, busines or IT..

btw dee, WE WON.. business is a secondary process.. IT, design and science is a primary process.. BWEK!!!

den we walked to PS where we kutuk more ppl.. dere was tis girl, who look like a bitch/slut.. she walk like as if she... hmm, nvr mind.. i don wan my blog to b disgusting.. haha

den visited the toilet.. and took the train. n bye2 n niteZ!

I HEARTZ THEM!!!!
------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------

im sori..
4 being rude..
i dint like the way u said abt me..
so i raise my voice a bit..
a bit je kan..
not that high..
Sori..
promise won b rude to u?
Muacks!!

okay..

cant tat irritating biatch go away?
VERY IRRITATING, U NOE!!!!

*My nick: suesue - i don noe whether i shud smile or cry*

biatch no 1: tissues
biatch no 1: sori
bIatch no 1: u shud smile.. smile nd less energy.. plus no nd to buy tissue.. save money
me: i can use shirt.. *sarcastically*
biatch no 1: still nd to wash, waste water.. still waste money..
biatch no 1: tissues..
biatch no 1: tissues..

wat the hell!!! wat tissues?? wen i don like sumone, i jus don like.. i don noe whether u r crazy or not.. but jus go away.. frm me.. AAAH!!! im very irritated.. dere he goes again.. Grr..

i was waiting at the entrance of the lib, waiting for gems mates to cum.. n biatch no 1 was sitting there wit frens.. frens went away and he walk wit them.. then he turn back, U-turn.. tok to me.. tok to me non-stop.. i was like, "aah-aah".. nod dere, nod here.. very annoying.. plus i don wan to hear abt ur past.. childhood.. ur malay frens or watsoever.. jus irritating!!

Sheesh..

okay, now im in the mood to curse..

not a person...
but my pumps!!!!!!!

i have blisters all over my feet..
back from the presentation..
i have so many bubbles to burst..
its painful..
cant walk..
tmr u will c me in a wheelchair or crutches..
which one is more glam??
*wondering*

okay, im being cheeky..
haha

plus im no more financially haus!!
my mother is sponsoring me!!
haha
so SWEET!!!

to Azri,
yes i noe im gd at asking for things..
cant help it..
im too SWEET for ppl to resist my requests..
ape i nak dorang kasi..
hmmph..
kalau nak sarcastic pun, straight to the point..
"IM GD AT TAKING ADVANTAGE!!"
kan, kan??
BWEK!!

tmr, im going to go out with my gerlfrens..
YAY!!

plus2, can i say sumting?

DEE IS SO SWEET!!
for now..
after tmr, no more..
haha

shud i go for X-ray?
im scared of the results..
wat if i have to go for surgery..
wat if after that i cant walk..
haiz..

but my shoulder and backbone has been hurting..
n it worries me..
i've been slouching past few yrs..
n its affecting my posture, shoulder and backbone..
i tink..
Seram-ism!!!

i tink i'll tell my mom abt it..

P.S: im listening to u okay? don say i only listen to my frens.. BWEK!! u noe who u r..

bye2..
MUACKS!!

fine... i wan to say sumting!!

IRRITATING BIATCHES!!

im not pissed now..
haha
but ytd.. yes!!

okay, my nite ytd was filled wit 2 irritating biatches..
Luckily i was in a gd mood ytd..
or else, i'll b cursing both of u rite now..

Biatch no 1: u nd help in wat?
me: ooo, nottin.. i jus have sum financial stuff to tc of..
Biatch no 1: oh, abt wat? FYP, is it?
me: Yes. i nd to buy chemical. will cost ard 200..
Biatch no 1: oh, ask ur fyp mates to pay ah.. they ard 4 wat?
me: yes, i noe.
Biatch no 1: Den y u ask me for help?

i was like, WTH!!!!
i did not even ask u for ur help.. it was jus a nick, for goodness sake..
plus u were not even the only person online..
feel like slapping ur face..
wen i saw u jus now..

me: u shud go to the doc de.. Aite? tc ya.
Biatch no 2: i noe n u too..
me: Den? sakit rindu ke? *teasing by looking at the nick*
Biatch no 2: Shut up lah
me:*pissed*plus love is not a tragedy.. its a beautiful thing if u treasure it*commentin frm nick*
Biatch no 2: u r not getting it.. face it.. cos i am
me:*blur*huh? i don understand.. sori.. plus no pun intended... no sarcastic-ity..
me: b4 i say more, bye.
biatch no 2: bye

EIC skills came on great.. AVOID IN A CONFLICT.. better stop before it starts as another argument.. i was irritated earlier.. den tis person made me more irritated.. well, if it makes u happy, den watever.. the love thing is sumting i've learnt these few weeks.. no matter wat the conditions, it will b beautiful if treasured and cared 4.. like my baby and me.. we quarrel like there's no tmr.. but by the end of the day, everything will be jus fine.. plus i noe u r havin r'ship prob.. but still, u have barriers.. so take it as a challenge ah.. fight for it.. buat ape nak marah aku? plus kalau cinta sgt, keeping ur loved ones closed to ur hearts.. ur love will still b beautiful n pure.. ok, i supposed 2 b feeling dengki? knp aku kasi advise nie??? *wondering*

im in the lib now.. rotting.. i have more than 3 hrs.. b4 my presentation.. sheesh.. my lab test jus now was great.. very the easy.. didnt even study for it.. muahaha.. jus look through my formal report..

my presentation skit? i didnt even prepare for it.. i didnt even make the sign boards.. hehe

to Elektra, u didnt tell me truthfully abt the rumors thing.. it concerns me too, okay? plus im sori if i've made u feel awkward or watsoever.. i don wan to b in the same situation again.. to sm and pb, u ppl ah.. cannot keep secrets is it? hmmph

i was wondering y im always put in a spot like this.. n i tink i got the answer..

Me: knp i selalu kena mcm gini? mesti ade je benda yg berlaku..
Azri: name u ape?
Me: *proudly* Suhaila!!
Azri: ape makne die? *sarcastic tone*
Me: Peramah dan MANIS!!! (SWEET and friendly)
Azri: Den??? too friendly, i guess..
Me: *in my heart* DUSSH, DUUSHH!!!

Eating lunch wit my bebo later!!! YEAH!!! sambal fish.. here i come.. haha

okay, ciao..

MUACKS!!

i don noe wat i want..

realli..

had another breakdown yesterday..

after so long..

its jus tat..

all this comes and go

i have no control over it..

im jus helpless sumtimes..

but..

I'VE BRAVED WORST STORMS BEFORE..

MY BRAVENESS WILL PREVAIL OVER WEAKNESS!!!

MUACKS!!!

morning was very lame!! cant even wake up to go to skool.. Mom woke me up but i sleep again.. hehe.. she had to spray water on my face, haha.. nah.. jus a wet towel.. heehee

okay, my class.. i hate the last period.. not hate but jus feel uncomfy.. We are not studying abt hukum-hakam of marriage.. so in a way, we get a bit of sex education.. hehe.. so my ustazah said sumting.. and there's a little bit of too much information for us to take.. heehee..

my sis and i reached hm.. to an empty hse.. everyone went out.. switch on the comp and hogging, till now.. hehe.. report-chionging.. but im DONE!! YES!!! haha

Now i have to study for 2 more tests.. den comes the big E!!! EXAMS!! AAHH!! Mal, if u are reading tis and smiling, let me tell u, i don like u!! hmmph.. ppl with no exam.. HMMPH!!! BWEK!! DUUSH!!

DEE!! mana kau menghilang ah?? btw, she msg me jus now.. Amazingly.. hehe.. Abt thurs.. will do.. miss u, girl!!

PowerBoi!! Jia-You!! i sUpport u de!! heehee

Superman, i noe.. Slowly, it will be relieved.. my turn to say.. My shoulder if u wan, i can lend u de.. Mine is at least fleshier than PowerGer.. hehe

hmm, to my dear...
Yes, im sick of the quarrels and tiffs we have everyday..
but we can werk it out, rite?
it will take time..
but..
OUR LOVE WILL PREVAIL!!!
hehe.. take care ya?
Get sum sleep and not tink of codings and HTML 24/7..
Leave sum time for me..
haha...

okay, everybody..

BYE!!

CIAO!!

MUACKS!!!

life is like tat.. u gain some and lose some.. rite? okay, no more philosophy..

First of all, 2 thumbs up to me!! My first saturday at home ever since i entered year 3. haha.. plus, i didnt go out and have been home early for the past 2 weeks.. Except last saturday lah.. it was an EXCEPTION!! okai? yes, yes..

By the way, im working on a project rite now.. jus started tis morning.. i still have a quarter to go.. Need to get it done by monday.. TOmorrow, i'll be studying for my exams.. So fast, i noe.. Nd to start early cos i noe i'll be slacking all the way.. haha..

Realise sumting.. so much fats on my body, esp my stomach and thighs.. so, it means sumting.. i need exercise!! aahh!!! Started exercise ytd.. plus2, to my dear frens, if u r running or playing sum sports.. ask me along can? Need to burn some fats.. keke

Oya, watch pirates of the carribean.. Hmm, one question.. the credits.. wat is it abt? i don understand.. wat bone is it? My overall comments: i would giv it 4/5.. It was damn funny.. n i didnt see the show for orlando bloom but Captain Jack Sparrow.. haha.. he is damn funny.. keke

oooo... i retrieve sum photos..
take a look if u like..

Ciao..

Muacks..

Back to my project!!

PowerGer, im smiling and im siao now alreadi.. wat is so different abt me? *wondering*
Superman, one word from me to u, "worried".. haiz

my group mates

my grandfathEr?

aiyo, my gerL!!!

slacking in BeD, at the cHalet!!

Jus wOke uP.. btw, haven bruSh teeTh yEt!! hehe

PG aNd DD

All in SmilES oN tHat DaY!!

WhaT u LookIn At??

its not over..

i still have flashbacks..
sumtimes, i wish i cld jus break down..
but i told myself no..
my life and tears are too precious for all tat..

i wan my life to be the same as it was 3 mths b4..
Where i lead a happy life..
i was joyful..
N i was happy with my Bebo..
far from sorrows..

i wan my life to be normal again..
i jus wan all tat..

i wan my Bebo to trust me..
i wan him to noe im trying..
i didnt ask for all tis attention..
i didnt expect it cumin..

Yes, i've said it..
i made a mistake..
But u jus cant condemned me for tat..
Im human too..
we told ourselves to treat it as a nightmare..
We promise each other not to bring it up anymore..
Den wat happened?
*sighs*

Lets tok abt yesterday...

It was Jun Wu's Birthday!!
so we celebrated his birthday wit a cake and candles..
Can see he was touched..
hehe..
niway, once in while, its a good deed to make a person happy..
rite?

den we went to fc 4, which i haven went since year 2.1..
Sheesh.. ate my sambal fish..
Yumyum.. the fish melted in my mouth..
or was the fish making me melt.. it was sooooo NICE!!!

Den one by one the rest came..
All in all, we sat dere like 2 hrs..
haha

Den went for DCP day..
jus went for the refreshments and to waste time till 4 pm..
haha..
Eat again..
keke..

To Superman and PowerGer,
yes, i feel guilty..
n i feel awkward with all the attention im getting..
But slowly, it will all passed..

Den, ard 4.30pm..
wen to support Powerboi in his soccer match..
there, the most sui thing happen to me..
i got hit by the ball!!!
my shoulder!!
Now i have blue black bump on my shoulder..
I was cursing the guy who kicked the ball!!
All the way..
Den tat stupid Chris laugh at me..
Stupid Gay!!
n Bebo join him..
Stupid Gays!!
Hmmph..

Power Boi, don wori..
u didnt get into the quarter finals..
But i wil still love u!!
haha

Choc ice blended..
Den dinner-ing..

My nite was nice..
noe wat i did?
SLEEP!!!!

haha..

Jus got hm..
Wanted to play badminton with dem..
but my mom..
haiz..

Nvr mind..
im watching pirates later..
the review coming up later..
okai..

Ciao..
Tata..

Oh, one more thing..
to Azri,
fine, i'll jus wear sumting decent okay..
no more necklines..
no more body hugging clothes..
no more stomach..

perhaps tmr i pakai baju kurung and tudung..
all the way..
hmm, haPi?
hehe

MUACKS!!!

2 more formal reports, 1 grp assIgnment report, 1 presentation and Countless dAtasheets...

aahh!!! im goiNg crazy..

sTress.. exams are in 4 weeks.. scheduLe are very relax.. will have tIme to study.. no worriEs.. n first paper is pma2.. I love it..

laST week and tIs week, i've been going home earLy. my mom jus keep asking me.. "so earLy??".. yes2, im earLy!! blek lambat tegUr, blek lekas pun tegur.. tak blek baru tau.. hehe..

today got home like Very early.. ard 2.. got Hm to an empty hse.. my mother went hm.. the rest all skooling.. hmmph.. so comp hoggIng.. went youtube.. watch video.. do report.. boring.. realli..
luckily there was food to Munch.. so munching all the way.. choc, kerepek, sushi..
so many!!

since ppl say im getting skinnier..i munch more.. keke

okai.. bye..
i wan to do report..

MUACKS!!!

seriously, i don like tis holding back thingy..
n the sensitive issue thingy..

very idiotic ok?
we must put an end to tis cold war thing..
n start afresh..

i mean, if u r proud of sumting..
n u treasure it..
u shud go all out..
no suppression..

i mean, wat is the point..
if u suppress it jus to satisfy a third party..

im very irritated with this holding back thing..
Like chinese saying translated in english..
"u have fart, quickly released"

i mean, holding back will jus hurt u in time..
yes, yes..
maybe i have too much experience wit holding back thing..
n jus end up disappointed or breaking down..
i hate it..
really hate it..

haiz...

okay...
updates on my life..
Starting frm saturday..

Bebo pick me up at 4.30.. at my HSE!!! believe it or not.. usualli, he is lazy.. haha.. off we went to the RE:MIX '06.. Nice de.. the dances.. Most were great, a few were bah!!! sori.. yes2.. sum1 said it start at 6.. so we came ard 6 plus.. but to find that the thing starts at 7.. wrong info given by SYAM!!! everytime tau.. hmmph... Saw alot of familliar faces there.. so we jus stood and watched the ting.. the place was hot.. very hot!! was perspiring.. plus2 the heads!! hate it wen ppl block my view.. sheesh.. oh, oh.. anione rmbr "ice-cream cone"? Well, no more!! he lost weight after going into army.. he told me its normal.. n he said," azri masuk pun nanti die kurus pe." AAAHHH!!! no!!!!!! i don wan.. i'll lose my pillow.. don wan!!! yes2, 402 ppl was dere.. different frm the last time i saw them.. saw Meen.. haha.. she so skinny.. y ah? all the ppl whom i haven seen nowadays are getting thinner.. n me? getting bigger.. plus2, Helmi... he made a special performance wit one of the NCC juniors.. seriously, suare very cartoon.. haha.. suare mun agi sedap.. haha.. Kul 9 plus, we went off.. so hungry!! so we went to BK!! yumyum.. snap2.. photo taking!!! haha.. den we walk ard.. play a fool.. den i fell.. At orchard rd!! so malu... it was nite, yes.. but Orchard Rd comes alive at nite.. so, i malu-ed myself!!! Den we went back.. HM SWEET HM!!!

sweet tak??

cHeeKy cOupLe...

HIM

HER

US

Now.. SUNDAY!!!

i skip my ugama class.. don blame me!! my mom ask me to skip.. keke.. and my whole family went johor!!! AAHH!!!! shop2 wit my family.... Kenny Rogers, Yong tau foo, Sushi, Seasons.. yumyum.. u can nvr get full... with my small auntie and uncle to escort us.. we were happi ppl!! practising the "AZRI" face, my dad who jus cant shut up, plus the pinching and superman game.. haha.. i didnt even tink much abt my test, which was today.. haha.. we spent like almost RM500.. not including the kenny rogers which cost almost RM200.. blh terkencit.. haha.. here are sum pics of the day..

Menye-siap-ing!!i noe i look giant beside my sis!! no nd to say...

mY sis and bRO

My parents

MY FAMILY!!!

CIAO!!

MUACKS!!!!

why are u so silly?!?!?!

n i didnt noe abt it...
Damn it..
Silly!!!!!

aahh!!!!
not a nice feeling when u r kept in the dark...
even thou it has passed..
In the past..
Still, noe ing that u did stuff like tat...
sumting so sweet..
aahh!!!!!
*sobs while feeling touched*

"Suhaila"
"I lost her"
"i love u, DD"

sheesh..
nice werds rite?
AAH!!!!!!!

sheesh..
seriously, im not worth it
i feel guilty..
yes...

SUPERMAN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Y didnt u tell me?!?!?!
u knew!!!!!!!!!
U cld read it...
the codes!!!
im blaming u 4 not telling me...
Duush, duush!!!
i won tok to u for a week!!!
aaHH!!!!

im havin a breakdown soon!!!!!!!!!
aahh!!!!!!!!!
*sobs*

im havin so much trouble...
nowadays..

sheesh..

AAHH!!!!!!!!!!!

TISA!!!
i nd admission into IMH...
HELP ME!!!!
A PSYCHOLOGIST!!!!!
PLS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

AAAHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!

ok..
ciao..
MUACKS!!

hi...
morningz..
*yawns*

im still sleepy..
feeling abit better..
but still sick..
nevertheless

i jus did a little test on myself..
its not tat bad..
i mean..
felt sumting..
but i tink its purely neutral..

Btw, glad he got it werk it out..
his quote,
"not looking for a girl who's holding a key to my heart, but holding on my heart tite."

I realli cant believe tats him saying..
so philosophical..
haha

bebo!! heard tat?
keke

ok..
last nite was the weirdest nite of all..
realli..
won say it more..

but i can say to tat sum1..
im sori i broke ur heart..
realli..
i guess it wasnt meant to be..
i'll pray for u..
to find sum1 better..
plus love will cum to u soon..
it will..

i have sumting to say..
"BEBO!!! Y haven u called me?!?!"
pissed okay?

i bet he's out now..
hmmph..
didnt even bother to call..
BWEK!!
will pinch him later..
kakaka..

Power GEr!! i forgot our blogspot username/passwerd.. haha..
tell me ya?
i wan to upload the pics of the week de..

okay, nd to go off now..
reports and study..
haha

CIAO!!
MUACKS!!

mY wHole daY tOdaY!!!

Im sicK..
sO cAnt tInk taT mUch..

VerY heAdacHE-ey!!
i"ll Let tHe pIcs dO the ToKing..
OkaY!!!



On tHe waY tO sKool..

PraC cLAss!!!

GeMs mEeTiNG!!!!bAnu In sTyLe.. taTs babY's sPecs!!!

JEnNz!!!

QinG wEn N gOrdOn(bAby)!!!!

PQM cLass!!!

MR T.H.E!!!

nETTe & sUe.. plUs jB's liGht!!!

relaxiNg iN leCtuRe..

me!!!

mE n Dee baNgs!!!

maL, stOp iT wiT the fAce!!!

bEsTies.. oH, dEE!!!!!!!

daRk effEct!!

CIAO!!

MUACKS!!!