Im soooo bitchy and so insensitive about other's feelings.

I'm not used to receiving bad news.

So I kinda panic or clueless on how to react.

I know, I'm sorry for being so insensitive.

And I'm sorry for your loss.

From the tone of your voice, it seems you have cried the whole night.

You don't even want to talk to anyone, nevertheless me..

And I keep blaming myself for not being there when you are at your lowest,

When in the fact, I've lost that right to be.

And I can't believe I keep lamenting on that specific fact!

Oh Sue!! Stop being such a sore, pathetic woman can?? *knocks her head*

Anyway, I promised myself not to press your number, till you do.

And I hope you are doing fine and continue your life like you always do.

Everyone has to leave someday, even you and me..

And do remember to eat and don't neglect your health.

And do take care of your mother ok??

On a brighter note,

It's Teachers' Day tomorrow!! *finds her extra bag for pressies*

Haha!! I know, I am being plain thick-skinned!

But, I'm not expecting anything

But I have received my first little sweet token from my sweet little student.

She actually made 5 paper cranes, and tied it together.

With 2 hearts glued together, at the top, saying "Happy Teacher's Day."

And the thing is, I'm not even teaching her class!!

I only relieve that class for one Music period!

Sweet kan??

Sometimes, you have to accept it.

Life don't turn out the way you want it to be

Sometimes, in life.

Some things are not meant to be yours

And,

Most of the times, in life.

Things aren't simple as you think or see as it is

And some things in my life,

Isn't what you may think it is.

*winks at you*

And,

All there is for me to say it,

Its for you to judge it and think as what I may believe my life is.

Or its going to be.

As I plan it and going to work it.

Day/Night 1 of the No-calls Day.

Oh,

Just a simple post for the simple ones.

HAIRSPRAY

That movie, I'm giving it a 3/5.

Reasons being,

I miss 10 mins of that show for the the sake of nature's call (toilet, it means, for the slow ones) ,

which was unluckily, was upgrading at the 4th level.

And I had to go all the way down to Level 1 of Bugis Junction.

And controlling was a NO-NO that I had to ask the 3 girls in front of me to let me go on first.

The other reason being,

I was sleepy and not concentrating on that movie.

But, but!!

I was awakened by the last part of the movie

Which was, Faboooolastic!!

*sings "You can't stop the beat..."*

which basically save the whole show.

With the pretty, gorgeou-licious vintage clothes, and that boing-boing hair

With lots of hairspray!!

Her White shirt, His White shirt

Her Black Singlet, His Black Singlet

Her Black Pants, His Black Pants

Her Black Bag, His Black Bag

Her Black Slipper, His Black Slipper

One word for Him from Her,

COPYCAT!

Him and Her met up in the early morning, supposedly for morning gym exercise at Tampines.

But, after much deliberation,

Off to East Coast at 9am for a cycling trip!

It was more mengumpats and mengumpats!!

Honestly,

who in their right mind would pitch their tents near the road and far from the beach??

Punch line:

"Dgr2 kalau kereta terbabas keluar road, die selamat dulu.."

Hahaks!!

Yes mister!! Very right!!

And boy, was it HOT!!! *fans herself*

And it was my unlucky day...

I fell 3 times,

First, the MRT staircase *hides her face inside a plastic bag*

Second and Third, that falls from the bikes, which basically left bruises all over my knees and fingers!

*looks at Him for leaving me behind*

The day was tiring but nevertheless, enjoying and exciting!!

The kakak-es and the adik-es going out, enjoying each other company!! Plus the abang-es who joined later!!

Only two adik-es came, the 3 other adik-es, bohliao hilang!!

Here's how the day went...

And the kakak-es met up at Starbucks..
(and kak ana!! There is only one sbux at TM ok??)

After which the kakak-es and the adik-es met dekat MRT!!

So there we went to Vivo City!!
And these were what we were there.

Lots of kecohs, perasan-ness and candidness.
Splashing in the pond!! (where the 2 boys were emo-ing by the stand..)

While the kakak-es and the abg lepak "di tepi pantai" looking out for the adik-es.

And Time crisis at E-Zone, where Abg Nas pun sekaki, tembak2 org!!
And finally, after much anticipation,

SWENSENS!!

I know.. I too almost choke looking at the size of this baked rice.

And the Spaghetti!! (Yes, that was how big it is!!)

But it was very deeeeeelicious!!!

Tgk Abg Nas muka besar mulut nye!! Muahaha

The split and the Fondue!! *sungguh menjilat sudu*
Oh, that is abg Jai!! (I spelt it rite, rite??)

The one who shove the HSBC credit card in front of our eyes, But, but!!

Dapat 10% discount, which means, save la duit aku sikit!!

And us basically!!

I can't stop helping feeling grateful for what I have in my life.

Even though I have problems with my dad,

But its nothing compared to those boys..

And yes, I actually cried when I told Azri about it over the phone.

Isn't it sad that boys their age actually don't get enough attention and almost land themselves in a home,

but alhamdullillah, they are on the right track!!

And when they said,

"Adik tak nak blek la kak. Kakak lepak ngan adik or adik tidur rumah kakak blh??"

And when I promised to lepak with them tommorow night, they actually show me that face, which tells me all promises made to them are broken and that faith of it to happen is fading.

MACAM KESIAN KAN... *drops a tear*

Even though we haven't been talking much

Due to our clashing schedules (I know!! I hate it too!)

And not seeing each other often,

Because of the thing you have to do,

Because of the personal problems we have in each other lives,

But!!

You better make sure...

I GET TO SEE YOU THIS WEEKEND!!

Hmmph!!

*folds arms*

The weekend fun was full of loves from the unknown!

Even though unmatured, cheeky, childish and hyperactive(!!), they were just adorable and sweet plus so manje la..

Imagine la..

During practice, Fendi was pinjam-ing my peha on the left and Afiq on the left. And I received all together 3 hugs from Afiq, excluding that farewell hug on the train!! *unbelievably nods head*

And who, but those boys, would suap food to our mouths, even though they are not eating but encouraging us to eat?? Those boys..

And, and.. They were the most sweet and polite because they actually use "kakak-adik" terms with me..

And when they were not listening and throwing tantrums, last resort, I said, "Siape tak sayang kakak, jgn keluar bilik ini.." And guess what he replied walaupun die merajuk.. "Sorry la kak. Adik sayangkan kakak. Adik keluar bilik skrg. *hugs me*" Me, Stunned!!

Why stunned?? Pasal Secondary 1 and 2 kids are supposed to be at the stage of malu2 dengan perempuan but, but.. They were so peramah-ish and manja-ish!

And like I and Fid said,

"If only my boyfriend was like that.."

"If only they were a bit older and not vertically challenged.."

Sheesh!!

And, and..

Through all that ups and downs and quarrels and seriously poor sportsmanship,

*looks at Fid*

"E-Genesis WON!!!"

*ehem-ehem.. tgk la sape facilitator die sape*

And "Best male facilitator" and "Best male performance", pun E-genesis angkat jgk!! Muahaha!! *lagi sekali, "Tgk la sape facilitator die!"*

And adik-adik kakak yg tersayang, kite jumpa this week k.. For Swensens and tgk Abg Nas rap performance!!

Kakak sayang pada adik2 sume!!

The girlfriend for companion!

That winning performance by E-genesis.

The winning streak. Dapat certificate agi!!
The one pakai cap is our darling Trainer, Abg Nas kite!!

The Gerek and "buang-Kemaluan" Facilitators.

The Whole camp Company! The one pakai cap, was all red when he saw this pic! and guess who he looks like??

*Looks at Fid*

*coughs Hanif coughs*

And, I love this HIP HOP CAMP!!

Tomorrow is the day lah!!!

WEEEEE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Will be gone for weekends. Will tell you all about it when I get back.

to fid,

*coughs Fadzuli coughs*

haha.. weekend fun coming up!!

It was shopping and shopping and more shopping!!

It was my first teaching pay, and was I delighted and proud to have it!!
(hey, a month of teaching and screaming and hard work of preparation, I think I do deserve it!)

It was tops and more tops and undies (ah yes! I bought my own undies after 20 yrs of living!) and my dress!! Tweeheehee.. was I delighted like crazy!!

And the up point is, I was on my own!! for the first time, yes I was.. Even though I had last minute company as my bell boy. *looks at Mr Bald-Head*

But, thanks!!

Some awkward things was just bound to happen but its okay.

I guess, it wasnt meant to be.

After which, Bedok North to Nenek's hse!! (I really miss my nenek alot la!!) And my Nenek was very English-sy. She started the conversation, "Hi, how u doing??". Yes, my Nenek was like dat!! And not seeing her for a pretty long time seemed that she has grown old. And I guess all those dialysis have worn her fragile body off. But, but.. I still love my nenek la.. *hugs*

Simpang with my family, which I had to pay!! tsk, tsk. We had satay, roti john, Nasi Ayam Gorreng Samabal, Sotong sambal and not forgetting, my favourite drink, NesLo Peng!! Must-must try ok!

With the stupid jokes, my dad, being the ex-fireman helped the shop behind us from being burnt down due to the exposed live wire (3 cheers for the Daddy!!), and the unfinished food!! Oh Goodness!!

My family are just lovey dovey doves!! (even though we have more downs than ups)

And Korangs, Thanks eh for the headaches and dizzy spells I had the whole night! Syabas eh, what a good way to forget your problem. Instead of reducing my headache, I even had worse!! *looks around at my "well-mannered" friends*

My warnings just don't work on them.

And mun, it's alright.. Just don't cancel next week, and I will be more than happy.

I guess,

For when my bestfriends are busy working and anniversaries, Gerlfriends sibuk with work and kenduri-es and persandingan pengantin, Gay friend and buddies busy with work and my kolong block khakis are busy shopping and with their other halves,

This is the companionship available made for me.

But fear not, I just love his company!!

He makes me giggle and laugh and say things that tickle my stomach. Sumpah till air mata ku bergenang!

With the "melepak" song, and the "mat sentol" topic, and words that are spicy as chili padi.

Those were the sweetest and precious moments.

So, thanks again..

And don't worry, your dulu-dulu crusher-es say you look pretty, bald headed. Teehee..

Those little times, how they still make you blush..

Big lights, Beautiful fireworks and a Great Grand show,

Just what Singapore deserves every year!!

So,

Happy 42nd Birthday, Singapore!!!

His Book-out Day.

From the Bedok platform late-ness, to the long-time-no-feel woman's touch, to having Caramel Frap and KFC along Sinagpore River, to fooling around with the bald scalp, to lots and lots of performances (We think Singapore has too much money to spent on the Arts..) to walking to Bugis to get on bus 12 to cam-whoring on the bus, non-stop!!

It was pretty exciting, I must say.

So, Thank you.. *using sign language*

First,
There was 7. One is down, 6 more to go. Do you think the 6 will still stay? I wonder...

Second,
I'm very disappointed. If you were hopeless at the start, you can tell me. I didn't have to spent the past almost 2 months, thinking about it. But, hell, whatever. It's over...

Third,
I'm easily tired out these days, physically and, mostly, MENTALLY!! I'm sooo way over-stressed about my Maths classes.

Fourth,
By end of term 3, I have to be speaking Denmark language, Mongolian language, Myanmar language and Nepalese language. As for now, I'm using sign language, in addition of English.

I'm moving on..

I think..

Life would be much prettier, brighter, happier and livelier after this.

*cross fingers*

Its past 9.30 and I'm still waiting.. Hmm..

I'll just have to wait for that 9.30 call daily then.

And no one else.. *stucks out tongue*

And oh, oh..

He's coming back!!

Yes, yes he is..

Aaahh.. Don't worry, I'll post his priceless bald-headed pictures first-hand and first thing on Wednesday night. teeheehee

That meet up with Mun, like finally happened!!

From Long John Silver to finding dolphins for the EX-gf(ex, which I must emphasize!!) to Zul's old-school bag which just smells cupboard-ty to Mun being soooo way open overboard (!!) to Zul's dirty jokes/Geylang trips to his merepek-pakcik-die-nye-block-few-floors-masionette-but-his-flat-isnt (Sanggup turun block aku and naik agi just to check it out!!) and finally, to lepak-ing sambil gulung rokok in the middle of the estate till late. *smacks head*

And beb, suke ati kau lah ape kau nak buat dengan hidup kau. Malas aku nak layan! *knocks your head so hard, hoping you do the right thing*

I got something from Fadilah!! I'll post it later.. Just simply sweet. Thanks darl!

I'm missing you, like crazy.

Previous post, I wrote that I missed the girlfriends and the best friends.



Well, I did what I wrote and..

I met the gerlfriends and the best friend yesterday!!



Woohoo woots!!



Gerlfriends was so miss-able!! And I sure loved their company!! And talking about the zaman2 jepun perang dunia waktu secondary school was so fun!! And why is it that it is so easy a topic to mengumpat about Minah Kampung??

We had talks about our future and current happenings!!

Haslin is a NTU scholar.

And yes, Congrats Diana!! I'm sure you will have fun entertaining those mat sallehs from UK and get those ka-chings for sales suport, but hey, I'm not interested. Just keep them for yourelf. Haha

And Fid!! Better get a permanent job soons.

I can't help it but to accept that my gerlfriends are "Shades Girls". As for me, I prefer my lovely eyes to show it all off. *flutters them away*

And finally, since my birthday, I met up with Cik Diyanah kite!! And yes, it was a pleasant and a nice time. Well, you are right. As you say, we are different but, but.. those aside, we are just as good together. *winks*

Meety you next time gerls! Muacks!!

And Mister, I hate that thing you have to do and must feel k.

Meeting Mun later for late lunch!! I have to meet him soons, because he may hilangkan diri for the next 3 yrs. Paham-paham je la kan. *rolls eyes*

Toodles!

The gerlfriends

my kentang face.
Those "Shades Girls"

ps: I didnt know starbucks was sunny inside.

Lovey dovey doves!

I should just stop being a freaking crybaby.

I need to relax and release all the inner negative feelings inside me.
Oh Goodness!!

I just hate that thing they send you for.

And I'm missing the girlfriends!!

And the best friends too!!

Meety up soons!!

A scenario in school:

Me: Good morning class.
Class: Good morning Mdm Sulaiha.
Me: Since when did you promote to Mdm? I got instant husband is it? Again..
Class: Good morning Miss Sulaiha
Me: And my name is Suhaila.
Class: Gd morning Miss Suhaila..

So all in all, I made them greet me 3 times. Muahhaha!!

Confirm dlm hati, "Ngada2 nye cikgu nie.." *scorns*

Like as if I care!! I so hate that class can??

And, and.. Perhaps I might be taking up Nepalese language. I'm taking a class of 20 Nepalese students, whose English I somehow can't understand that muuuuch!!

hehe..

Toodles!

Oh-oh and oh-ho-ho-ho...

Ok, I'm so lazing around. I have 3 free periods (I mean lesson periods!! *looks at cikgu*) and I'm just very, very tired and sleepy and whateverthatisallbadinthisworld!!

I have headaches, I have ankle sprains, marking compositions isn't that fun, btw, Social Studies lesson plans just not werking out yet and, and.. I'm seriously not having enough sleep.

And I am missing my sugar-sweet-free honey...

Ok hell, whatever. If you even know what it means..

And my timetable is very looooong...

And I know I'm not that perfect teacher afterall.

Quoted: "You are the first teacher I've seen who actually lets the students play duck-duck-goose during health education and go to barbie website give makeovers during maths class."

So if the 5 classes I'm teaching now fails during exams or monthly tests, you know who to blame. Muahaha!!

And at home, I'm having a fashion show. Almost every night, if I may add. Blame mamaku yg tersayang. She makes us girls walk up and down in our clothes, to test out our clothes and bajus! Sheesh! My sisters are enjoying it but, not me.. Hmmph..

So all and all, through and through, my life isnt that well spent as I may add yet again.