Love the someone, embrace the past

Today, I am feeling lovey dovey, thks to my beautiful boyfriend.

I was reading some tweets from a few acquantainces (is that how you spell it?) and the words 'break' and 'past' inspired me for this entry.

Everyone has a past. It can be good or bad or in some cases, worst past you can ever imagine. So the one you love happens to be the one who has the bad or worst past, will you still accept him or her? If you do, I would say your heart is beautiful and strong BUT depends on how your reaction is while in the relationship.

Come on people, if you love that someone, embrace the past that he or she used to have, not 'ganyah die dengan lebih cili.' What I meant by this phrase means, don't bloody hell bring up all the stuff he or she has done before they were with you. This always happens in a bad, really bad fight, when you don't think what you say will hurt the other party more.

That will in fact make you feel horrible, because I used to be the one who got screamed at by my past and I used to be the person that screamed at the other party for their past. After all that is done, its both parties that are hurt in the end. N believe me, these 2 reasons are the roots of failure for my previous relationships.

If you love someone, embrace him or her with their shortcomings and faults, and their past. Love them for who they are. Don't let their history affect you because we are only human. We make wrong choices through some paths throughout our life. If they are willing to change for the better and not repeat their mistakes, then stop all the 'ungkit-ungkit' nonsense.

Because you are hurting yourself and others.

What the Society says..

This phrase, "In the eyes of the Society."

I was having this conversation with my sister, okay, more of a debate going to be a quarrel thing.

"Thin is beautiful"

And who says that? Society.

So if Society say, eating shit is a cool thing, why don't everyone of us do that?

I have all the biggest problem with this society thing.

Because I believe that an individual has their own choices and their intellectual mind to vary what is right and wrong, create their own beliefs from how they see the world and their upbringing.

So why are people stereotyping by what the society say?

Back to the thin is beautiful topic, why can't it be fat is beautiful?

I have seen lots of people who are fat but they are beautiful, physically. I can name tons already.

And even though they are fat, they are the most secure and confident people around themselves than the thin people who keeps saying "I need to lose weight. I'm fat."

Baby, you are so thin!! How can you say you are fat? Believe me, thin people are mostly insecure and keeps saying they are fat, because I used to be one of them.

And for me, fat people are the gerek-est people to hang out with because like I say, they feel secure and comfortable with themselves, that it is easy to joke around, you know.

Like, kau nie gemok la.. Then, they will answer, Gemok2 tapi aku lawa and baik hati.

And I truly agree. And trust me they won't take it to heart.

But you say that to thin people, they say, "Really???! Am i fat??" and they will panic and look at their bodies non-stop when they get home. Trust me, because I used to be one of them too.

And one of the gemok people I can name which have all the qualities, is my boyfriend. He is someone who is secure about himself and comfortable with how he look like.

I am not trying to defend myself, because I am not fat. Okay, a little fat. I am just, in malay terms, berisi.

And i feel that it is time people try not to be narrow minded or have a one way mind about the stereotypes of society. Because if you do, you are the most dumbest person and with that kind of mindset, you have not seen or enjoy the wonders of the world in a different perspective. There is more to that, believe me, because I used to be one of those stereotypers but now, with an open mind, I see, hear and learn things about others.

Its not just about the fat and thin, but those who were addicts, who had bad backgrounds or convicts or even gays or tranvestites or anything that society say is bad. People tend to criticise them and run away from them, but you go closer, you see lots of things the society never see and how baseless their assumptions are.

Before I start on my DSE 20 pg report, I just wanted to blog about something. Randomly, maybe.

I just thought I could express my appreciation to someone special.

And of course, when I say special, you know whom I meant.

Besides my mom, that is.

So to that special someone,

Thank you for all the moments that you have spent with me, making me laugh, bringing me to places to savour delicious food, and most of all, places where it held the utmost memories for us. I love the way you made me laugh, made me smile, made me blush and also, made me cry, out of happiness of course.

And I like it a lot that we don't quarrel as much, but when we do, it sounds so silly that we would say sorry at the end of the day. We are just matured adults in a relationship.

I love the pretty necklace you bought me, and most of all, I love you.

i just realised the blog has not been updated for almost a month.

I should start updating it regularly soon.

Blame assignments okay.

As of now, I am left with DCE Assignment 2, DSE Assignment 2 and Anchored Instruction left to do.

After that I am free!

And thereafter, I will slowly try to update this blog again.

Selamat Hari Raya

Im a week late.

But better late than never.

Am I right?

So,

Selamat Hari Raya Aidilfitri.

Maaf Zahir dan Batin.

The maaf zahir and batin is necessary.

Because my mulut laser. Confirm manyak orang sudah terguris hati nye.

This semester of school, has been one hell of a ride, just at three weeks.

i am not even halfway the full ride.

It's like 1 big rollercoaster, with lots of twist and turn.

Because my option cohort has been on honeymoon period for the last two semesters,

We are getting full load, actually overloaded, this semester.

Assignments are like, water flowing from a running tap.

That exaggerated, that kind of simile I would use.

Let's count okay.

I am taking 7 modules.

On estimation, it's 2 assignment per module.

So I have 14 assignments, minus 2 DSS, equals to 12.

12 assignment minus 1 DUE and 1 DED equals to 10 assignments.

So it is 10 assignments plus 2 science tests and 3, for DLK, I believe.

And no!! the assignments are not due in September, but all in October and November.

Selang2 berape hari je!!

Tell me, how I am going to survive Hari Raya.

And now,

Out of the sudden, I received this email, from my lovely American professor,

yes, the one who calls me,

"Su-high-ler!"

I have an additional module, a follow-up from CELS.

DUE 105!!

*Checks time: Dah start puasa ke belum??*

Ok, dah start..

Never mind, save the words for later in the evening.

I'm pressured.

Not stress, pressured.

Now, I'm starting on my DCS script for anchored instruction.

That bloody assignment is really wasting my time.

Okay, My beloved boy band new single.

I am still kental in my own ways at 22. 

Listening to their songs, so that I would be so blue for being unable to go for their performance at the F1 race.

The colour, Red

I just don't get it, really.

Since the beginning of fasting, I have come across blogs, twitters and facebook status which, for me, reads "SUMPAH-ORANG-LUAR-TAK-PERLU-TAU".

Us girls have this privilege (some regard it as privilege, me, I call it troublesome because I have to bayar balik!) to skip their fast during the Ramadan month.

And all that I have been seeing mostly, "Red riding hood came by, miss red came, my menses came, I am in the red light district, etc"

Don't you think it is inappropriate to be telling the whole of the World Wide Web that you are not fasting because your menses came?

Maybe to some, "It's women's nature what! Common knowledge what!"

For me, "Sumpah tak tau malu what! Bilang satu dunia kau tak puasa!" 

So the boyfriend cut the hair today because he had to go for his refresher course tomorrow at Sembawang Camp. And another thing, when is he going to be called for his reservist ah?!? 10 years okay! I think by 10 years, anak dah 4 pun, bapak masih pergi reservist! Sheesh!

Anyhoos, the hair, yes. His hair, but I am the one who is hurt. His hair was so long, even longer than mine and it was just 2 weeks ago when I did the cornrows for his hair. But now, its gone. There is no more hair to give tender care and love to, no more hair to tye up for and no more hair to belai.

 My boyfriend has this feminine look. Even when he had long hair and a goatee, it is a wonder why people always miss the goatee and say he is a lady. Trust me, we have been through situations where he has been addressed by 'Miss' or 'ma'am', even why I am beside him, holding on.

Now, when he has chopped his hair off, he looks like a butch. Ok I am mean, but really!! He even said this when he looked in the mirror,

"My hair is like Khor Khai la!"

hahaha.. What a wonder!

Not saying I don't like his hair, but I told him to chop his hair off, I mean, Number 2 at least.

I prefer a botak boyfriend than an obvious-butchy boyfriend.

Nevertheless, i love you, very much.

Then..

Now...

I just found that the new batch this year, basically all of them are taking 3 CS this year!!

AAAHHH!

This is not soo fair!

How come my batch had all this option to choose, A or C.

Now, I am regretting not taking the other option, because this semester, I am not feeling the kick of being a student like last year.

Why did I have to major on 2 CS?

No wonder lah she said, "We are the last batch for the module. We are the cream of the crop. I feel very nostalgic, etc"

Now, I need to do my project ideas which is due tomorrow, and I have next to none an idea on what I should be idea-ing.

Pfft.

Blogger dah semakin merapek la okay!!

The alignment all gone!!

Aku tak paham la si bende ala nie.

Sekejap okay, sekejap tak okay.

Aku stressed la okay.

Now, by the way, today I berbual melayu okay..

Today feeling melayu, so berbual melayu.

On weekdays, I mean, school days, I switchd to English mode.

Korang berbual la melayu ngan I, I will balas you in english.

My boyfriend knows best, even though sometimes die fed up that I would reply in English to his malay sentences.

Okay, today I berbual about hari Monday, last Monday la kirekan, bile I pergi ber-dating dengan best friend I.

You all tau kan best friend I siapa?

kalau you tak tau, means you nie outdated or you first time baca blog I.

Either way, I also don't care asalkan, I boleh blabber on this blog sudah.

hehe *ketawe mcm pompan mentel*

Okay, back to the topic.

Ape die eh.. Oh yes, berdating ngan best friend.

So, kita dua berjanji la berjumpa dekat Orchard Mrt Station. Rindu sangat, sampai jumpa je cium2, peluk2 sekali. Betul, I tak bedek!!

Anyway, Orchard nie sekarang dah besar nak mampus. Banyak bangunan-bangunan tinggi yang tak perlu, sume die naik kan.. So instead of traffic jam, kat Orchard sekarang kita ade 'building jam'. So congested la okay!

So okay, Kite jalan punya jalan punya jalan, tembus sana sini, sekali kite dah sampai ke Wheelock place. Sekarang, tak payah la susah kite turun naik turun naik escalator, pusing punye pusing baru nak sampai Wheelock. Tembus je Ion dah sampai pun. Okay, kite pergi Wheelock, untuk Borders la. Nak beli buku punya pasal, beli la I one pencil case and the 'Frindle' book, which Miss Joan Netto Shek kite bace chapter per chapter every week. nak tunggu ending die, sampai hari raya tahun kedua pun tak abis. Betul tak?

Sekali, terserempak la dengan si kekasih best friend aku tu. Aduhai! malu2 kucing la si dua ekor tu. So shweet!! *okay, kepala maintain eh*

Selepas itu, si perut best friend aku nie berbunyi, mintak makanan la kononnya. So kite pergi la Pastamania since die mengidam pasta Aglio die. Kita tembus balik Ion go through Wisma and sekali, si best friend ternampak kedai si Pak Charles and Pak Keith. Die ternampak pulak si beg yang die nak gunakan untuk Raya. And beg die lawa la okay, price also reasonable. Siapa kata tak lawa?!?! So si gatal itu beli la beg raya nya. Beg die macam Chanel inspired punye bag la dengan a bit diamond diamond, you know. Sekali pandang, macam soooo spells bestfriend I punye taste.

After which, I pulak yang gatal nampak satu dress nie macam sungguh lawa selawa lawanya, so kite buang la duit kan, 35 dollahs!! At last, sampai rumah, ter-rai macam tak lawa pulak. Takpe la, bila ade feeling nak pakai, kita pakai la nanti ya.

After that, kita ade banyak punya banyak pit stop yang tak perlu, sampai a 10 minutes walk to Pastamania lasted us almost half an hour.

Dah sampai pastamania, kite pulak yang makcik2 kepo nie berbual and berbual and berbual sampai makanan abis pun kite masih berbual. Okay la, I yang berbual banyak tapi si best friend pun melayan kan so I continue je la. Betul tak??

And OMG!!

Okay, salah, that is English.

Rewind!

And YA ALLAH!!

Sungguh sedap la si Prawn Aglio tu!! Sampai cili padi die pun aku ngap sekali! Tapi kan, tetap tak boleh lawan Badoque punye Chicken Sausage Pasta and Prawn salad.

Dabes kite punye 'makcik-makcik kepo punye session', si best friend pulak nak pergi toilet and mati mati nak toilet kat Heeren. After 123456 hours in the toilet (because we cam whored abit, okay, maybe alot, sampai battery camera I flat!), We went to check out the Fossil shop and she went to get her kekasih a wallet, which is very sleek yet simple. Price also reasonable okay!

Dah tengok punye tengok punya tengok, sekali ternampak si Mamat nie. I show you the Mamat at the end of the entry okay. Peluk, punye peluk punya peluk (jumpa mamat nie selalu kene peluk kalau jumpa.), ade ke patut die kata,

"Su, are you pregnant or are you just boncit?"

Eh!! terima kasih banyak-banyak eh! nasib la I nie tak sensi-tip punya orang. Hello, baru makan okay and the dress is not making it any better. Sungguh aku nak buang dress yang tak flattering tu. Okay, NOT! dress tu lawa la! Murah pulak tu and from Bangkok!

So, dah berbual punye berbual, I pulak yang comment,

"Asal muka kau macam lain eh?? Is it the teeth? macam jongang sikit."

haha! Bukan nya I nak kenekan balek, tapi memang betul gigi die lain. Ish, tak tau pulak aku si mamat tu dah sensitive after all these years. Die terasa pulak. Sorry eh, sumpah tak sengaja.

After that, kite cakap Bye bye and blow flying kisses. Okay, the kisses part tu exaggeration la.

Then ingatkan nak balik, tapi aku nie si gatal nak pergi tengok pulak yang shopping centre baru tu yang kat Somerset. Buang masa je pergi situ. Takde paper. tapi turun naik escalator yang panjang tu pun jadi la.

Then baru la kite dua ekor nie balik.

Ah, adalah waktu kite jalan2 tu, semangat la aku nie nak tgk movie ngan si best friend aku tu, tapi knowing I have class at 8.30am the next day, she said,

"Dah, dah.. kite balik cepat.. before 9 kite sampai rumah."

Aah.. member sungguh confident. Kite sampai umah pukul 10 lebih. Jalan jalan sampai masa pun kita dah sedar dah lepas.

Okay dah.

Gambar time!!

after a loong time..

This year's bonus, (insyaallah kalau dapat.) will be spent on the quite a few overseas trips of mine in December. I am so going to explore!

Korea ke, Bangkok lagi ke, KL lagi ke, Sunway ke, Genting ke, Koh Samui ke (padehal plane crashed the day we go back.)

Maybe what my mom said is true.

I should consider changing my profession to an air stewardes, with the loss of maybe another 10 kg from my body.

haha.

One of the reason why, sayang.

Just because you can entertain all my nonsense, every single thing, I deemed as nonsense.

For someone with a little faith in relationships,

I can say,

He is someone worth the wait and the time.


And no more overseas trip for me, not even across the sea within the next year or so.

Because I am going to start saving for my dream trip, Turkey.

Die, die, I want to make my dreams come true.

Mess, mess, mess

I really need to get my ass off the bed and my feet in the house instead of out, to clean up my room and the house these few days.

Because I know that I will have my mother screaming her lungs out and nagging and following my big butt around saying, (sooner or later, latest by Friday afternoon i can gurantee.)

"Go and clean up your room and sweep the floor! Your 'future parents' are coming this weekend and the house is soooo dirty."

I mean, that was what she did when my boyfriend came over past few days. She shoo-ed me out of the house, asking me to stall for half an hour so she could clean the house up.

Ridiculous, YES!!

Because the house was already clean but it wasn't good enough for her.

Why must I have such a perfectionist mother?? *sighs over the mess in my room*

OH!!

I found the flying cockroach after 3 days, dead under the window.

Taught me a lesson to close my windows at all times.

Okay.

I am so mengidam-ing A & W since yesterday!!

AAAAAAHHH! *bites fingers plus nails*

Sayang.. or Mal...

Johor or Kuala Lumpur??

Birthday dinner-sssss

A frequent question I have been getting,

"Sue, what present you want for your birthday?"

The every same answer I gave, every single time,

"I don't want presents. Just take me for dinner okay?"

Okay, that should stop the questions coming to me again.

This year, I don't feel very present-y. I feel dinner-y, knowing myself, I love to eat!

So, I only have myself to blame if I have a few more kilos added to my butt. HAHA!

But hey, its the company that counts, not the monetary presents. Its good enough that you guys remember I turn a year older on the date every year.

*winks*

I received my pre-birthday presents, without expecting it.

Being Suhaila,

I have a fetish for shoes. A HUGE FETISH!

i would buy shoes, at least 2 pairs per month.

BUT!!!

I would seldom wear them.

so we went around Orchard and I went crazy when I look at those shoes.

I wanted them soooo much.

And I know, I had to wait for my pay which is in a week's time.

Looking and looking, more geram and geram,

He said,

"Sayang, just pick one. I'll pay for it."

AAAAAHHHHH!!!

I went giggling and smiling at myslf, happy at that sentence.

So I went to pick one elegant wedge, which I can wear for work in 3 week's time.

After trying on all those sizes, I saw a pretty slip-ons which was casual and comfy, and he said,

"Sayang.. Just pick what you like. I pay for it."

AKU LAGI GEMBIRA!

And now, I have a few additions to the Shoe family.

Weeeeee..

But since I worry so much about his pocket, I told him,

"Sayang, treat this as my monetary birthday presents okay?

"But I expect something with your personal touch on my birthday, can?"

He was argueing and argueing about it, but as usual, I won. I'm too stubborn, for my own sake.

Its fine that I spend thousands for you, but its not fine for me when you spend don't say thousands, but hundreds for me.

Last year, was a beautiful birthday song at midnight from you. This year?

I'll wait, okay?

Here it is..

The "TEMBELANG FIGHT"

Our outing had a very-basi aftermath, a week later. I received the email at night, and it was a pretty long email that I had to read 135173727862 times over. I mean, why now, after a week!! There was a terrible squabbling between so many people, among 10 of us. Then the surprise came, who was the "Pecah-Tembelang-er". I was more surprised, of all people. The quiet and nice one, with the story of lots of exaggeration.

Now, everything is fine between us, besides the "Pecah-Tembelang-er". When school re-opens, I tell you, we are going to be famous and things are going to change into an awkward, weird situation. Unlike me, some are unwilling to forgive and forget.

THE CASE OF THE EX AND THE BESTFRIENDS

We bestfriends planned days before to meet before she went to work. So knowing that, he decided to come along. He pleaded with me,

"Please tanye Mal. I know she may mind, but no harm asking what. Please, please."

Silly us made a bet whether Mal would mind him tagging along and thanks eh bestfriend! You made me lost that bet. So we pick her up and went bowling at Kallang. The duo was trying so hard to teach and make me throw the ball straight through the whiteandblackthings but it always end up in the pit. Why do I always play with the best of the best?!?! Mal and Him was challenging scores with STRIKES, SPARES and TURKEYS! Mal, I think your "bowling skips" work wonders! hehehe.

A trip down to Parkway for Pastamania before she goes off to work. And 26th June eh Mal! Don't forget my 'Jam Dinding' (which I know my present is better than that)!!

The DRIVE

I drove on the second day I got my license(Believe me, I still am denial on that). Remember, I ould only drive an auto car. But NO!! I drove a Cheverolet Optra, manual. If you have no idea about this car, its an American car where their gears are haywire and the signals are on the right side instead of left. Luckily, I survived the day, with only ONE stall in the middle of a junction. So I was on the hot seat and my boyfriend was the "SIR-besar" for the day. Remind me, next time when I am driving, to put him inside the bonnet. Because he went (screams actually),

"Sayang, you are going to hit the car!" *close his eyes*

"You are killing the suspension!"

"Turn some more, turn some more!!"

"Too near the car, sayang!"

Gosh!

When I get my license, tell me to shove it up in front of his face and tell him I am fine enough to drive.

RESULTS of SURPRISES

So, I got a message from Estee yesterday afternoon that our results are out. I, of course, was not prepared for it at all. You see, this semester was a semester of slacks for me, with only 2 lectures per week, in which I attended 1 only for the whole semester. And most of it was assignment-based modules. Science exam was a killer with 100 MCQs and I did not study for the paper, instead I was entertaining temporarycacat Fid with her plans. So with that, I was freaked out!! I took 15 minutes to calm myself down in front of the computer. And..

TADAaaaaaa!!

An A and the rest, Bssss...

Surprised? Yes! I can only offer thanks and praises to God. alhamdullillah.

Macam nie, next semester tak belajar pun boleh pass ah. haha.

Must-to-be-Updated!

I have so many things to blog about!

the TEMBELANG FIGHT! yes, TEMBELANG FIGHT.

the outing I labelled as: The case of the EX and the BESTFRIENDS

The DRIVE of the first

the RESULTS of SURPRISES

The EXPO expediture

and the COLD, COLD SHOULDER.

haha

all updated soon!!