Don’t you sometimes detest that somehow, somewhere there is someone who is able to read your thoughts and able to predict what you are doing or what you are about to do??

Well, I do!!

And I just hate it! Hmmph!! Because there is no way I am possibly able to hide stuff from him. Or perhaps even lie! Grr…

And to my dearest, dearest loved one…

I’m sori.. Ok, its my fault! I’m pathetic, I don’t even know how to spell your name. but seriously, is it muhamad or mohamad or muhammad or mohamed or noor or nor?? Ya, ya.. I’m such a pathetic girlfriend. I don’t know this or know that, after a year of friendship. And yes, you are disappointed in me. And I’m sorry!! Well, u always called urself Matno, I didn’t bother about the name and u seldom use ur full name! You can't blame me all for it! *finding excuses for herself*

“You love me but.. You don’t even know my name”, he said.. He’s mad at me, isn’t he?? Sheesh!
But hey, as long as I recognise u and love you, names don’t matter right?? *grins*

I LOVE YOU OK, MISTER?? *hugs tightly my chocolate guy*

After a very, very, very, very long time…

I finally got my most wanted and missed “Family” outing.

Seriously, I missed those harmony and fun and laughter among us. And we got just that for the evening.

Donuts for appetiser!!! And we bought a dozen + 2, which means its 14 donuts altogether!! Chocolate Cinnamon, Stormy Peanut, Hazelnut Delight and Sa-shi-mi!! We were cursing because our most favourite, Chocolate Delight was not available!! Grr!! But, but.. we were like… WEEE!!! “Donuts-donuts for me!!” hehehe

Headed towards Breeks and we had best times of the day!! We took a pretty long time deciding and debating and 7 of us were ordering food and more food and more food, like nobody’s business. It was like as if Breeks was giving away free meals. We were passing food around, plates all over the table and yes, there were no table manners! But the shock of the meal was the bill: $195.65.

That was the ultimatum; Sue sue and Xt jie had to pay. Sheesh!! But it was good food that we just can’t resist, especially the soup. It was creamy, and concentrated and oh gdness!! *drools*

After some donuts and lots of good food, Ben&Jerry we went!!

We bought these 6 scoops of ice cream, called “Merlionster” and oh-my-god-how-heavenly it was!! Spoons spilling around and loads of ice cream grabbers eating and eating and the bowl was like moving around. It was just a joy and there was this love and chemistry among us which I missed, with Angela crapping and us laughing and tearing till my stomach hurts. We sat and crap and talked and we were the honorary last 7 customers of B&J. I think we sat at B&J over their closing time. We left at 11pm le!! And, who the hell put that mint ice cream in our Merlionster, you guys know I don’t take mint!!

And to my Superman, Elektra, PowerGer, PowerBoy, SuperGer and Iceboy, I LOVE YOU GUYS a lot!!

To participants of Poly 50, all the best and happy training!!

To the 3 SHF NS-to-be men, be prepared to protect the country. And you people are gonna be missed. I know, when I send you guys off, I’ll cry!! *sobs* hehe

And to Jonathan Big Brother, have a happy relationship with your new found partner. She is sweet and yes, pretty. Don’t take my werds to heart alright?? *winks*

And to Xue Ting, hope you had a pleasant evening and again, happy 20th birthday!! I love you!! *many, many hugs and many, many kisses*

Preetty Family Photo!

It was a great and nice and fun yet formal day, my Graduation Day!!

And wohhooo!! Yesh, yesh, I have gotten my diploma ler! I was looking at that piece of paper and that one piece of paper cost me like $3000++. Sheesh!!

Well, I’m not trying to feeling2 it but hey, it was true I came to school grandly!! I came in a Mercedes car and with my dad in the front seat, looking all smart and with a tie. REPEAT: A TIE!! Hehe. His first time ever!!

My Dada, Mama and the Car

And the first moment I step into that hall, I gave that most miss-able hug to the “boyfriend” of mine!! EeeK!! I know, some were jealous, that I had to hug almost everyone after that. And we were looking all pretty and smart with our shirt and robes on.

After which, was off to Vivo. And Pastamania for pastas and Mocha Freeze and not forgetting, my BANANA CHOCOLATE PIZZA!! I missed that, a lot!

AND PEOPLE!!! Pirates of the Carribean was GREAT!!! Weeee!! I’m gonna watch it again!! keke

Those Pretty little photos we took!! That's me fetching my scroll!! Me and Siras Banu!!
My doting and lovable parents, who came down to see me.
And my uncountable and tons of friends!!

Happy ermm, “I don’t know how many” months, sweets!!

I know I have been difficult to handle. And you have been keeping your sweet little patience inside you for you. Even though I have been a bitch sometimes and pissing you off for all my actions and my crazy antics and my bloody cantstoptalkingmouth, I know you love me, because of my eyes. (Yes, he loves me ‘cause of my eyes. So if I go blind, he will stop loving me, I guess) and, and… I do love you okay, for everything. And, and… I never told you, but my friend said you are cute. That, I can never accept, tak boleh angkats seh! hehe

Tell me, when have I not loved anyone, right?? Right. Sue is always right.

To that lesbian partner of mine, I love you for accompanying me, at the very last minute, and keeping around and walking and walking just to find my Graduation clothes.

And!! Guess what??? I bought my heels at size 41!! REPEAT: SIZE 41!! I think I was the most happiest girl on earth, which might probably be the reason the salesgirl said, “Lu terlupe nak mkn ubat ah?? hehe”. And Mal could vouch for that. WooHoo!!

And to that girlfriend of mine, I felt SOOO terase by that entry of yours okay?? I hope its not about whom/what I think it is. I miss you too and I do love you so.. So jangan la merajuk2 and feeling2 sangat k. We meet up soons!! And beb, you are looking great (I would rather not use the word hot.. Sheesh!) these days eh!! Hehee!!

Is it wise to live in your past memories?? Its not healthy, isn't it?

Out of the sudden, Imdad was talking about this.

That necklace he wore, had some memories attached to it. Its not wise, don't you think??

Why do you want to live with those memories and dampens your hope and will to get a move with your life??

Maybe what I wanted and did, was right after all.

And DIN!!! feeling2 eh kau. "I bukan peminat Nokia!"

Imagine a guy talking to another guy, (that guy is my boyfriend ok!), using bahasa i-i-u-u. A definite inference: He is gay. Haha!! And Din, I'm not condemning you. I'm helping you to face up to reality. keke!!

okay, I hve to ciao-ing now! Dear Mal is waiting...

Byes!! Muacks!

I realise something,

I haven’t been spending time with my family like eons alreadi la!!

I missed most of my family events, I haven’t see my makciks-makciks for a really looong time till they are asking for me, loads of times.

And my mom was complaining and saying to me, that I have been penting-ing friends and werk above family.

Have i?? *wonders*

Hmm, I guess so…

Well, to compromise, I’m having my family feast, which I have planned out next week!! So, Seoul Garden, here we come!! And I am paying ok!! Sheesh!!

And Finally!!

The mother has met the boyfriend!!

And I guess, like mother, like daughter, the only shortcoming we have for him is, HE IS SHORT!! (Kan, kan I dah kate gi la pasang besi kat kaki, tinggi sikit.. hehe)

My mom can be very laser in her words like me, and it was fun mengumpat-ing about the boyfriend, walaupun berdosa.. Ish ish!! Ape nak jadi?? *menggeleng kepala*… Hehe

Mama was very against the idea of me not coming home over the weekends till Monday morning but she was pretty lenient, as long as I give a call home everyday, assurance that their daughter is fine. My June KL trip?? I need a pretty little bit of time, persuading the father. Anak dara lah katakan! *dgn loghat pekat kelantan* So dear friends, Tolong la berdoa untuk ku!! Hehe

And I was talking to my mom about the future. So all planned out!! Insyaallah, if my application is approved, I will proudly and hopefully become a trainee.

But if I don’t (insyaallah, I will.. Mudah-mudahan.), I’m applying for Civil Defence!!! Ok, I’m not going to do NS or anything. I’m going to apply for their Chemical-based department. Macam intereting gitu kan… Hmm..

I was telling my mother,

Me: Nak masuk CD nie kan, hati kene tabah… Boyfriend pendek, nampak laki tinggi, cute, comfirm sakit hati…
Mama: Asal plk??
Me: Abeh blh cuci mate je, tapi tak blh dimiliki… Pasal su dah dimiliki!!
Mama: *menjeling mate* Kau keje kat chemical dept, HQ, bukan kat fire station!! Kat situ jauh die melencong!!

Kwakwa!! Boleh tahan teruk aku!! Kwakwa!!
Nie sume salahkan Fid!! Su dah terpengaruh, salah campur!! Hehhe *peace sign*

So chilling at starbucks bugis with Zhafir, sementara menunggu Fid. Dah jadi permaisuri eh nowadays, asyik kite je tng die. Hmmph!!

Waiting for Mun was such tediousness. Lembabs nak mamps!! And I had fuun, smacking him, sampai merah2 kot!! Wah!! Saye rindu same kamu si!! That’s why I smack you the most!! And weekends, turun jgn tak turun. Kau tak turun, aku naik cab gi Seletar, gegarkan satu camp kau!! Muahaha!! Macam paham jek aku.

And FID!!!!!!!!!!!! I’m not drunk or high or whatever. I’m just me. And, and.. I agree, I think there is something wrong with my neck. Hmm.. Its like, dislocated. As for Firfir, tahan la Suesue, for a while. Firfir kan nak blek, soonss?? Hehehe… And,and..to the 3 of u, sememang nye aku lawa.. keke

I LOVE BOTH OF YOU LA!!! For tahan-ing my karenahs cmlm. And I had F-U-N!! I see you guys this weekends k and then, we PARTTYYY!!! MUACKS!! *Hugs and kisses*

Pretty little People,

*sayang korangs sume*

After 3 weeks of freaking plain blog of update-ness…

SUESUE’S BACK, BABES!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Life has been pretty hectic and frantic. And loads of funness but yet, busy-ness and kecohs-ness!!

Hang-outs has been fun!!

Zhafir has been the most pleasing and the sanggup-ests friend ever. My new and yet, crappy confidante!! I guess seeing you everyday isn’t just plain and I'm used to it..

28 weeks later, Starbucks, Chill-outs, Hangouts and Supper has been the upmost for us kan… Hmm…

Niways, Suesue suke Firfir!! Walaupun Firfir merepek sometimes!! *mimics his childish speaking*

Meeting Mal was so sungguh fulfilling!! Cerita and cerita and LJS and starbucks and Kopitiam and Mango and mengumpat-ings!! She is now having fun pat KL for 4 days!! And HAVE FUN OK!!! I love you, but just remember to bring my souveniers back!! HAHA!! I bet she is shopping like crazy right now. Shopping freak lah katekan, mentang2 dapat pay… And sorry I didn’t visit!! I was sick la.. Niways, sayang kau!!

And Muntazir!! Sesungguhnye he is freaking irritating. Always disturbing me sleeping.. Fed up tau!! Mentang2 ngah feeling2 break, disturbances ade ade je!! Take care lah eh!! Kene tembak, nanti aku melawat… hehe.. Oops!! And, and.. tmr onwards, I’m gonna off my hp till I wake up k…

And werk has been so great yet tough. My peeps has been so gereks!! Especially Fuddin, Fadilah and Saihah!! And not forgetting those crazy heads of mine, Jaya, Thana and kakak ku, Adzlin!!! They are just a fun bunch, whom I adore loads!! Their dirty talk, the merepeks ness, kecoh kot satu Giant!!

And Din!!! I LOVE HIM LOADS!!! He has been my closest recently, and I just hearts him. He is sexually confused (hehe..) but kite masih JIWA eh!! Ape kate kau?? “Kite ‘sisters’ jiwa!!” HAHA!! Feeling it kan?? Keke

Me: Din, wed blek sekolah, kau dtg, tidur umah aku. Kite tgk VCD satu mlm.
Din: Mak kau tak marah??
Me: Tu aku boleh settle kan.
Din: Sembarang la..
Me: Tapi kau tido ngan adik laki aku ah. Tapi kan, kau jgn rogol adik aku sudah!! HAHA!!

Bingit je member!! Sampai paper clip sume melayang kat aku!! Haha..
Dah, Din!! This wed jgn tak jadi sudah!!

Mother’s Day dah lepas but still,

MAMA!!! I LOVE YOU!!!

Morning was such a surprise for her. I had werk on that Sunday morning. A “Happy Mothers’ Day” and a hug, I guess suffice it all.. My mom just smiled and hugged me back, saying “Thank you!”.

Mothers can be such a nuisance, but in a way or another, you just can’t stop loving her, can you??

And on Mothers’ Day, is someone’s birthday!! And orang tu dapat “present” yg teramats sekali!! Hehe

HAPPY 21st BIRTHDAY, MUHAMMAD FAIROZ BIN ABDULLAH!!

Sorry I was late for our outing. Instead kul 10, I came at 12… hehe.. I finish at werk at midnight seh… And you had a date with your girlfriend, pandai putting the blame on me!! Changi for Nasi Lemak and Bapoks.. Serious, no joke!! And the bapoks are damn pretty ok??? A real woman pun kalah sey!!

Trip to ECP was cooling and such a quiet trip. Tapi feeling is great!! Air breeze freaking syiok!!

Rats moments and he was freaking girly with his screams and melatah-es!! HAHA!! Talking and chatting and the What-ifs came out.. Talking about our current relationships and confiding in each other. It was a pleasant and a let go moment for us… Laughing at our ownselves.. It was awkward but yet, pleasant moment… Kan, kan???

Maybe next time when we go out, lets just switch off our hps… Our other half are just menyibuks sometimes kan… hehe..

Me: Do you know what we are doing??
Yuz: *that kind of face “are we doing wrong?”*Duduk2 ah..
Me: Kite tgh bbual!!! I mean, talking and confiding each other. Dgn tenang.
Yuz: Aah eh!! Tak maki eh.. Mari ah maki!

Frequent phrase of ours: “Kite buat salah ke?” or “Are we doing something wrong?”

To comfort ourselves, ANS: “Tak salah, cume tak manis je.. Kite kawan je pe. Setakat klua lepak, bbual gi makan..”

Thanks for the night and the ride. And happy 21st, beb!!

Many happy moments to you, may all your wishes come true, all the best for ur NS soons, next month!! Grow up please!! And also, to your new found but old relationship… Sentiase lah bahagia di samping yg tersayang.. *hugs*

To Nurda ku sayang!!! Im sorry la!! Saya tak akan lupa kan awak!! Cume bz je.. Don’t worry, aku contact kau k… Lunch kite blum terjadi.. Miss you baby!! Hahha!!

Azri, I owe you many, many, many apologies!!! I know, I’ve been a bitch and its none of my business anyways. *looks at Z* All the best for your new found ties and gembira2 selalu!! I love you always… Sape tak sayang kawan sendiri kan??

SHF!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I’m starting to hate you people k?? I ask you guys out, you people just don’t give me a yes for an ans or just a plain no reply.. After grad ceremony, go out with me k?? PLEASE!!!!! I’m begging you!!

And to MUHAMMAD SHALIZ!!!!!!! Where the hell are you?? I’m like trying hard to find you!! You don’t reply to my msges and my calls!! I’m searching for you!! Give me a ring if you are reading this.

Btw, I do hate you people but I LOVE YOU PEOPLE MORE!!

And my Graduation ceremony is next week!! Woohoo!! My mom and daddy have already bought their suit but not me!! Its like as if they are graduating, not their own daughter. Sheesh!! And somebody is not coming, on such an important event/day for me. That I hate!! But still, its ok… Tabah kan lah hati nie je kan… hurhur

Lastly!!!

TO MY DEAREST PENDEKS YG TERAMATS KU SAYANGI!!!!!

I DO LOVE YOU!!!

You are the most understanding and most sweetest of all sweethearts!! I am just overwhelmed at the amount of patience and understanding and your trust in me. You minded, but you let me. I needed it and you gave it all to help me. You are just that perfect sweetheart of all… Hmm.. Tapi just a warning, jaga2 eh.. I nie susah tau nak dijaga.. hehe.. Mane la tau kan.. And, and… I know what you gonna say now… Its either, “You don’t bullshit with me k” or “I slap you den you know”. Hehe… *hugs Pendeks tightly and a peck on that chocolate cheek*

AND YES, YOU ARE SHORT!! Hehe… *tknk mengaku kalah aku*

Entry is so freaking long!! Will be updated again soons!!

Upcoming events are the chalet and my graduation!! Woohoo!!

Bye!! MUACKS!!!