I'm getting emotional..

Anyone who would like to get emotional with me..

I might not be feeling good about this anymore..

Due to those clashing schedule between us, yes, we have to sacrifice some time.

And when he is on night shift or OT, that will be much lesser.

That will surely make something happen.

So yesterday,

when I was missing someone so much after what happened in the morning, that someone actually had the cheek to send me a msg that makes me miss someone more but it made me smile a million.

I sing, "baby, I love you and I will never let you go.."

And feeling touched, I continued the song.. (It was such a wrong song to pick!)

Su sing, "But if I have to, boy I think that you should know, all the love we made can never be erased and I promise you that you will never be replaced.."

haha!! Sungguh meluat I tell you..

But meluat also, that was one of the things I love about it.

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And to my darling pupils, I'm sorry I couldn't make it for the celebration today.

Miss Suhaila has English tutorial la! hehe..

But.. Thank you for the emails and the cards.

And yes, I won't forget you people either.

2 days of no school.

e-learning.

I'm bored to death.

Too many assignments at hand.

Not looking forward to ICT.

My Ed-Psych, don't ask me about it.

My English is almost done.

My PBL, I'm still trying to find out who is Vygotsky.

My GESL, thought it was done but not!!

Not adapting well to school again.

Help!

And something and someone just had to piss me off today.

I realised, its just something we have to go throughout this whole thing.

But hey, I made myself clear and I mean it ok.

If it happens,

I'm willing to give. I'm not going to fight for it.

And there is someone whom I miss.. The laughter, the teasing, the angry-ness and everything la.

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HER!!!

I was just blogshopping and there were so many pretty clothes!!

From simple tops to kimono tops to tube dresses to maxi dresses which I'm not so into at the moment.

Then almost every single picture I looked through and surf through,

Somewhere at the back of my mind was saying,

"Nope too low cut."

"Urggh! Too short."

"Too translucent."

"Not long enough to cover the knees."

and blah, blah, blah..

The effect it puts when he is very particular about dressing wise.

And the effect of myself when the 'tudung' aim is by end of this year.

I'm getting old, aren't i??

Must taubat already.

His first day of work today.

After that talk/syarahan yesterday night and a bit of reminder in the morning,

he better listen and do it right.

And I sure understand he is never too mature for now.

I have not written birthday entries in months..

So here's one for a lovely girl, or should I say Ladee of the day??

Beb!! Happy 21st Birthday! Hope you had a lots of fun (which I know you did!) at your party yesterday and I'm very sure you loved the day today. Wishing you the best in every little pretty things you do and keep smiling! Finally a few weeks of getting to know you, I really like you(r pretty and cute cupcakes yesterday)

See you..

The first time I'm doing this, because all this while, I thoought those people who do this, are very silly..

So now I am part of the silly group.. Hehe.. And I'm loving it!!



A. People who have been tagged must write their answers on their blogs and replace any question that they dislike with a new question formulated by themselves.

B. Tag eight people to do this quiz and those who are tagged cannot refuse. These people must state who they were tagged by and cannot tag the person whom they were tagged by. Continue this game by sending it to other people.


1. What is your dream ambition?- A doctor. those childhood moments, but now, I am working to be a teacher..

2. If you can have a dream to come true, what would it be?- World peace

3. What will your dream wedding be like?- Creamy decorated wedding. With flowers, accessories, loved ones and especially, with the love of my life..

4. What is the city of your dreams and why?- Maldives, if it is even considered a city. I love nature and the sea. Beautiful scenery..

5. Are you an introvert or extrovert?- I'm both!! It depends on the environment..

6. Which is more blessed, loving someone or being loved by someone?- Being loved by someone, that is really blessed. But on other thoughts, how to feel blessed of being loved when you yourself don't love the person, right?

7. Do you trust easily?- No. The person have to really gain that trust from me, from his actions and authenticity of his expressions.

8. If the person you secretly like is already attached, what would you do?- I would say, "Congratulations! may you stay happy and blissful always.." and then, when I reached home, I would just cry myself to sleep.

9. Is there anything that has made you unhappy these days?- Hmm, nope..

10. What does your name mean?-I don't know. *google my name* Oh, it means, "moon light"

11. Is being tagged fun?- Silly is appropriate.

12. How do you see yourself?-A fun loving person with lots of love to share.

13. Who are currently the most important people to you?- My family and that special one.

14. What kind of person do you think the person who tagged you is?- She is a lovely girl with a sweet smile.

15. Would you rather be single and rich or married but poor?- married but poor can work together with each other to become rich.

16. How many children do you want to have, if any?- Four, all girls please. So when they get married, the $$ comes in, not out. Haha!

17.What's better, to give or to receive?- I'm more of a giver. That look they give, are most precious.

18. If you fall in love with two people simultaneously, who would you pick?- Been through it. I pick the one who was the best choice for me. But in the end, it didn't work out that well.

19. Would you give your all in a relationship?- All of emotionally, yes. Physically, no.. Sungguh takde agama.

20. What are you waiting for right now?- Waiting for the new laptop to be in my hands.

Tagged by: Ainie
Tagged people: All of my 6 SHF and my 2 best friends..

Am i that horrible?

Am i that useless?

I wonder sometimes myself?

Am I so insensitive to others' thoughts and feelings?

I want to know the answer too.

I'm sorry if things don't go well. I really don't mean it.

On a good note,

I now own a Zara bag! *smiles gleefully*

Thank you best friends!! even though you were 2 months late.

Have a happy month.

even though it's not how I expected it to be.

Both of our mothers have been pestering us to lose weight, especially MY MOM!!

And our answers would be,"I can afford to be fat" or "So fat, still got people who loves us wat!"

I guess, that's the part where our mothers just rolls their eyes, sungguh meluat.

Haha!!

How to lose weight??

We are just really heavy foodies and me?? A big sucker for potatoes!! Which is really high carbohydrate???

Oh really, I have no time to think about my weight, I gained 10 kilos in a year but hey, no problem..

Skinny, doesn't mean pretty or happy.. I am fat and very happy!! *smiles gleefully*

And besides, "Beauty lies in the eyes of the beholder."

I think I am satisfied this way.

And moms, no fret.. We are happy this way. And who knows?? Both of us might just get enlightened from the anorexic guru soon enough..

Hahaha!!

I went out with my best friend yesterday!! Yee Haw!!

Sesangat rindu nya!! And thank you for your Borders staff discount.. I'm really happy with my notebook!! Nyehahaha!!

See you soon, wednesday!! Yee Haw!!

And I bought something!! I loved it, loved it, loved it..

Just waiting for it to be in my hands in a week' time..

And Surprise, surprise!!

I did not know how my sudden decision could impact on so much,

which indirectly hurt me in one way or another.

I sure did not mean it.

Out of curiosity, I said, "oh okay.."

I was just surprised at the sudden call that in my head, I was thinking, "Why? What happened?"

Not that you were out of my mind for a second.

Yes, I know..

You have said it yourself.

"I'm disappointed in you.."

Nicely phrased..

Thank you, best friend and for your info, I love you no matter what still.

Oh My God!!

The balak is over man.. Now, I don't really care what people say anymore. Hahahaha!!

"Asal happy sangat nie??" Of course I am happy, you gendeng!!

Anyway, lets talk about school!!

My first week in NIE..

OMG!! I felt so lost but I loved the lecturers!! So gerek, so fun-loving..

And the people have been nice and friendly. And I think life in there for 2 years will be quite slacked and happy.

And I can't wait for teachers day!! MacPherson here I come..

Wee!!~

After months..

We realised that THE DAY is coming!!!

AAAHHH!!!

And it's really funny how when we talked about it and find the bestest solution so as not to hurt others, we come up with all silly, nonsensical things.

For my part, it was BAD!!

And at the end of it, we laughed at ourselves, not taking things seriously.

"Macam mane nie? Kite nak buat ape??"

Bodoh kau!! or should it be Bodoh kite??

Maybe we should just go with the flow, as day goes by.

Aiya, not to fret, lots of time to think about it..

A minute to 12 pm..

Waiting for my personal driver to fetch me..

hahaha!

While waiting for him to come knocking on my door, let's just blog for a while..

We had school yesterday at 2.30pm. After we were all seated down at the auditorium, we felt lazy to sit there and relax. So all four of us just cabut. Kaput!

We drove from NTU to NIE and played around the 106 steps to heaven!! Out of four, I was the first to reach and 2 of them finally achieved nirvana for the first time. Hahah!!

Food as usual for me while they watched. I'm more of a foodie now. We went to the bookstore and say Hello to the bookshop auntie and asking for jokes and me, as always, fooling around and making lots of noise around the bookstore. Nyehaha!

Then,randomly, Jannah and me just drove off to MacPherson Primary to wait for Siti Radhiah! And in school everyone was happy to see us and we fooled around again with the teachers and making highs and lows of the school.

I just had the creeps thinking about it. We treated her like a friend, a good teacher but I guessed, it was just too much and too sensitive of her to actually treat Siti that way. I believe just because we are not there anymore, she looks at her as a potential victim. It's hypocritic, you know.

Anyways, off to Orchard to met Mari!! Uh-huh.. We missed her, padahal baru 4 hari, nyehaha! The Mummy movie, and people please.. Don't waste your money on a weekend show, its not worth it.

After which, it was Clarke Quay. We were so pissed off!! It's a Friday but it was full house everywhere. So we didn't get our dessert. Clinic was full, Pump Room, there was such a bloody long queue, Arena was, urghh, forget about it.. Even the Coffee Bean was full house. Mad, hot and stuffy, off to Liang Court for MacDonalds. Chocolates, Coke, Fries and Gossips..

Girls, its good that all of us are so concern for each other and to actually the both of you yesterday like that, even though abit uncomfortable, we are happy to see that both of u are happy together.

So, plans have been made..

Batam in 2 weeks.. Ya be da be doo!!

Ok, it has been long and boring..

Got to go.. My driver is knocking on my door..

So cycling, here we come!

Ta ta everyone..

I hate it loads when I want to merajuk and show perasaan but in the end, I would end up laughing..

We were at the airport the other day, at the viewing mall..

I was sulking so I walked away from him to find the exit on the other side. So semangat already, I want to merajuk and make him run after me. But the exit said, "Tresspassers will be prosecuted". I turned around and I saw him posing, with folded arms by the walkway and we laughed out loud.

But I am always surprised when after all that, it was back to normal after all the sweet nothings.

Uh-huh, I feel so 16 again.

The SHF outing to ECP

How great was it to meet the SHF (read: full strength of 7) and have fun at ECP?!?!

It was great of course! Cycling and screaming and playing in the rain, eating MacDonalds while standing. Of course it was gerek!

And me, wanting to tan my body to get rid of the tan lines on my arms, but ended up with tan lines on my shoulder due to the tank top!! Sheesh!

Now, please someone accompany me to Sentosa and let me tan my whole body. I just want my colour back.


Last Few Days @ MacPherson


How did the last few days in school go??

Fabulastic!

We received great thanks and hugs and some wonderful kisses and really good pictures.

Receiving an enormous and utmost applause from the school just touched us four.

And the last four days was Dress up day.

"Living the life as Contract Teachers to the fullest"

Skirts, Dresses, Heels and Sarees.

How cool and preety we were??

Very.

Haha!


My times with Muntazir

The reason why I am putting on so much weight is because of HIM!!

Going out with him just makes me fat and always eating.

But it was always a good food fiasco every single time!

Like yesterday, Haig Road for the meat chops and then, we had buah jambu with sambui (did I spell it right?) bought along the roadsides.

And we would go to all different2 kinds of place just to eat and without fail, we would go home with big stomachs.

How big?? Now, you see his stomach there?

I know, I think I got the same reaction too when I first saw that.

Her passing off was such a shock and an unfortunate event.

Images of us going for basic theory and doing our driving practicals, going for the Healthy lifestyle day, playing captain's ball to eating at Mr Prata, it's really saddening.

I went through the Facebook for the photos and I still can't believe that you are gone.

This incident made me realised that your time can be up any time, any where. Even if you are young and strong. When God decides your time is up, you are going back to Him.

Life can be that unfair.

This has taught me not to take things or people for granted. Treasure every minute of your life and live it like as if it is your last.

For this is the reason why I called you just to hear that you are fine and well.

I was thinking to myself,

I must be really crazy to be doing this..

No, actually I must be insane to even write this entry.

But, I must die, die write this entry.

I just wish to show my appreciation and my thanks and my love and care and concern and many, many other things to this someone..

For showing me that there are many other things that are worth living for and still be contented with.

This is for someone who had opened up my eyes to more than just material things in this world and for making me want to search and open up my heart for things that was bothering me.

And also, for someone who have been listening intently to every single thing that my big mouth had said. And for being patient, really patient to every little cranky behaviour of mine.

Thank you for being that person, who is always there, whenever you are needed. *winks*

Finally...................

After 3 days stuck at camp, with the presence of a laptop but without internet access,

I could have gone crazy!!

But NO!!! I was wrong, screaming at my students and making them suffer made it much bearable.

Hahah!!

Most of the teachers was worried as the school was sending the naughtiest batch for camp. Something might just happened, and yes it happened. (No wonder they sent the monstrous teachers for camp!)

Fights (nose/mouth bleeding!), torturous punishment (push up position for 1 hour, running around the field barefooted on the muddy field for endless times), possesed-like girl (she looks horrifying!) and others.

But no matter what we had fun!! We bonded, teachers and pupils.. I finally saw another side of my pupils, outside class and they saw a different side of me, as a teacher. I was like a crazy woman during the campfire. Hahah!!

And Miss Jannah was fantastic!! She was so outgoing! The best station Master I could have ever seen..

It wasn't that bad after all. In Fact, I HAD FUN!!!