THE ENTRIES OF DEDICATION!!!

I know this is really, really late entry and I know some one is gonna be pweeti mad at me, because I forgot about her birthday and I missed wishing her by just an hour. Sheesh!! *knocks my head*

So to Banu Darling, I love you loads and HAPPY, HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY!!

Hope u had a fun day last week on your birthday and yes, yes.. Well wishes to you! I love you loads and I miss you loads too!! We will meet up at the end of the month alright?? Our own birthday celebrations plus I still owe you your prezzie!!

And, yesh!!An entry for you. First things first, GROW UP!! MATANG LAH SIKIT!! Sheesh!!

You are reporting for duty tomorrow for goodness’ sake. And your thinking and behaviour is still unchanged. Hope when I see you the next time, you are that matured and civilised and not-corrupted police force man that you should be. Kwakwa!! Happy NS-ing mister!! *salutes*

And, and… Treat your girlfriend well, not for the sake of her or yourself but for the both of you. Get it?? Both of you!!

And it was nice to catch up with you after so long..

And to Fadilah, Fuddin and Saihah, (I need to take pics with you sey. I have nooone!!) Thanks for all the laughters and stupidity and crazyness at work. Even though work was tough and hard, your presence-s just made it worthwhile. And Fadilah!! You are 18 for heaven’s sake!! Don’t be like a childish 10 year old. KEKKE!! And that dirty talk from me yesterday, I think just made you 4 years older. Hehhe! Kan Din??

And yesh, yesh.. Long live Fa-Hah-Su-Din!!

And beb, don’t be sad and keep tenung-menenung je. Cheer up a little ok?? Whatever will be, will be. Maybe like me, its just one of the heartbreaks you have to go through, in this quest of the right love. I’m sure she will come through it and confide in you what she feels. As for now, Cheer up and remember, my ears, mouth, shoulders and my whatever-you-need will be there when you need it. Chalo malo!! *big hugs*

Somehow in some way, you just made it all right and perfect in the end.

And it was a silly but yet, sweet surprise… And I just love you for that. *big hugs*

I’m just hoping to let go than to just hold on.

I guess I just don't believe in third chances;

And that's something which keeps holding me back.

“Marilah kasih
Marilah sayang
Hadirmu engkau lah segala nya

Marilah kasih
Marilah sayang
Kehadiranmu membawa cahaya”

Okay, I just love this song!!! With his voice accompanied by the guitar, it was just perfect and soooooo merdu.

And I know you people haven’t heard it. The reason why: It’s Mun’s original song, which mean he wrote it la. And, and.. I don’t know why, I just fell in soooo in love with it, I find myself singing or humming it almost everytime!!

Maybe like you said and I realise it, perhaps this song would probably has its dedication and meaning to someone, and that someone is pretty lucky.

And I decided not to jaga tepi kain I in the matter, because I know, I don’t want to know. I’m just gonna wait for it and see how it develops. I don’t want details, until you tell me.

And people!! I made it!! I made it into NIE. Accepted and approved!! WEEEE!!!! And hopefully, if nothing goes wrong, I will be deployed to a school where I will be training for a year. Repeat: a year, which seems pretty long to me. And I just can’t imagine myself waking up early in the morning and going to work early when me, myself and I just comes late everyday for my current job. And Imagine me hearing to that national anthemn every morning like I did for that 10 years of my education. Sheesh!!

Now, when I got what I felt I wanted, I keep asking that question: Am I really gonna be a teacher? Is that what I want and is that my passion or am I just pursueing what my mum wishes me to pursue?? I wonder… But hey, whatever, passion or what, I know I am happy and delighted that I’m accepted.

And I’m sorry for yesterday. I didn’t mean to make you angry by calling you names and no, I don’t want anything to singgah-menyinggah, not even a short while. And I’m sorry for causing you trouble and create hatred in yourself. I’m sorry.

And please eh!!!! I don’t keep comparing our heights okay?? I just love to look at shadows. I’m soooo over your pendek-ness alright?? Hmmph!! *rolls eyes*

And, and, and…. *ehem, ehem* 18 days more!!!

Friendships are like roller coaster rides, They have ups and downs just like the tides.
So many things can go right or wrong,

And yet a friendship can last really long.

Some friendships last for your whole life,
While others end with a stab of a knife.


And as for you, dear friend;
It's up to you which road you choose in the end.

Love is more than just a feeling: it's a process requiring continual attention. Loving well takes laughter, loyalty, and wanting more to be able to say, "I understand" than to hear, "You're right."

Can I say something???

I JUST LOVE MY CHOCOLATE BOY!!!

And surprise, surprise and hello, hello!!!

My chocolate boy brought me to Snow City!!

A pretty long journey, which first half was blissfully full of laughter and lesbian-ness with the girlfriend, and second half was filled with loud voices from me!!

And Snow City was so filled with jakun-ness and laughter and screams and pictures!! Not forgetting loads and loads of snow!! It was extremely cold!! Like COOOLD!! Freezing and mucus-infested!! And the slide, WEEEE!!! Hehe.

And Pendeks, isn’t it nice and better and sweet if you are always cheerful and happy like just now? I know I loved u that way, than that silly old, grumpy face you gave me almost everyday.

And thanks for listening and caring and taking special note towards my feelings, even though you're hurt by it. That trust and loyalty issue, we will nurture it, together. You are just the sweetest boy. *wipes tear drop*

*Brightens up* And, and... Fly kite, Underwater world and DHL balloon, here we come!! keke

Welcome to the month of… June!!!!!!!

And, and… Countdown to that most looking-forward day: 23 days!!

And preetty please eh, get your ka-chings-ka-chings ready, because Sue here is gonna ask for a lot for this year. *counting fingers for presents*

And, and… Hurhur… Pendeks!! Yours will be the most wanted! So better save up more for the month. Kwakwa!!

As for the to-be-20 girl, I have been eating alot!! My cravings just come and go!! And Imdad say, "Something is wrong when you have cravings ok." Crap!!

But can I say my utmost thanks to Din??!?! The one person who have been accompanying me frequently for my supper cravings, till he reached home at 4am and he is skooling at 9am later. Sheesh!! I do love him for that!!

And we had Ayam Penyet, Nasi Lemak, Roti John Special and Roti John King, Western Food at Abg Botak's kedai. And also, thanks to Botak, who actually waited for us to come and kept his shop in the wee hours when his shop actually closes at 2am!! Muahaha!! And those free chicken wings, deeeliciiouz!!

Work has been awfully tiring and boring. Because my “gay-friend” is not around. Oh Goodness, I miss him la!! The most I missed is his screeching like some freaking tires!

And, this week has been full of disappointments, with the cancel appointments, the never-came late phone calls and that freaking fights and misunderstandings I have.

But life is great and different and I just love it for the way it is!! *crapping like crap*

Don’t you sometimes detest that somehow, somewhere there is someone who is able to read your thoughts and able to predict what you are doing or what you are about to do??

Well, I do!!

And I just hate it! Hmmph!! Because there is no way I am possibly able to hide stuff from him. Or perhaps even lie! Grr…

And to my dearest, dearest loved one…

I’m sori.. Ok, its my fault! I’m pathetic, I don’t even know how to spell your name. but seriously, is it muhamad or mohamad or muhammad or mohamed or noor or nor?? Ya, ya.. I’m such a pathetic girlfriend. I don’t know this or know that, after a year of friendship. And yes, you are disappointed in me. And I’m sorry!! Well, u always called urself Matno, I didn’t bother about the name and u seldom use ur full name! You can't blame me all for it! *finding excuses for herself*

“You love me but.. You don’t even know my name”, he said.. He’s mad at me, isn’t he?? Sheesh!
But hey, as long as I recognise u and love you, names don’t matter right?? *grins*

I LOVE YOU OK, MISTER?? *hugs tightly my chocolate guy*

After a very, very, very, very long time…

I finally got my most wanted and missed “Family” outing.

Seriously, I missed those harmony and fun and laughter among us. And we got just that for the evening.

Donuts for appetiser!!! And we bought a dozen + 2, which means its 14 donuts altogether!! Chocolate Cinnamon, Stormy Peanut, Hazelnut Delight and Sa-shi-mi!! We were cursing because our most favourite, Chocolate Delight was not available!! Grr!! But, but.. we were like… WEEE!!! “Donuts-donuts for me!!” hehehe

Headed towards Breeks and we had best times of the day!! We took a pretty long time deciding and debating and 7 of us were ordering food and more food and more food, like nobody’s business. It was like as if Breeks was giving away free meals. We were passing food around, plates all over the table and yes, there were no table manners! But the shock of the meal was the bill: $195.65.

That was the ultimatum; Sue sue and Xt jie had to pay. Sheesh!! But it was good food that we just can’t resist, especially the soup. It was creamy, and concentrated and oh gdness!! *drools*

After some donuts and lots of good food, Ben&Jerry we went!!

We bought these 6 scoops of ice cream, called “Merlionster” and oh-my-god-how-heavenly it was!! Spoons spilling around and loads of ice cream grabbers eating and eating and the bowl was like moving around. It was just a joy and there was this love and chemistry among us which I missed, with Angela crapping and us laughing and tearing till my stomach hurts. We sat and crap and talked and we were the honorary last 7 customers of B&J. I think we sat at B&J over their closing time. We left at 11pm le!! And, who the hell put that mint ice cream in our Merlionster, you guys know I don’t take mint!!

And to my Superman, Elektra, PowerGer, PowerBoy, SuperGer and Iceboy, I LOVE YOU GUYS a lot!!

To participants of Poly 50, all the best and happy training!!

To the 3 SHF NS-to-be men, be prepared to protect the country. And you people are gonna be missed. I know, when I send you guys off, I’ll cry!! *sobs* hehe

And to Jonathan Big Brother, have a happy relationship with your new found partner. She is sweet and yes, pretty. Don’t take my werds to heart alright?? *winks*

And to Xue Ting, hope you had a pleasant evening and again, happy 20th birthday!! I love you!! *many, many hugs and many, many kisses*

Preetty Family Photo!

It was a great and nice and fun yet formal day, my Graduation Day!!

And wohhooo!! Yesh, yesh, I have gotten my diploma ler! I was looking at that piece of paper and that one piece of paper cost me like $3000++. Sheesh!!

Well, I’m not trying to feeling2 it but hey, it was true I came to school grandly!! I came in a Mercedes car and with my dad in the front seat, looking all smart and with a tie. REPEAT: A TIE!! Hehe. His first time ever!!

My Dada, Mama and the Car

And the first moment I step into that hall, I gave that most miss-able hug to the “boyfriend” of mine!! EeeK!! I know, some were jealous, that I had to hug almost everyone after that. And we were looking all pretty and smart with our shirt and robes on.

After which, was off to Vivo. And Pastamania for pastas and Mocha Freeze and not forgetting, my BANANA CHOCOLATE PIZZA!! I missed that, a lot!

AND PEOPLE!!! Pirates of the Carribean was GREAT!!! Weeee!! I’m gonna watch it again!! keke

Those Pretty little photos we took!! That's me fetching my scroll!! Me and Siras Banu!!
My doting and lovable parents, who came down to see me.
And my uncountable and tons of friends!!

Happy ermm, “I don’t know how many” months, sweets!!

I know I have been difficult to handle. And you have been keeping your sweet little patience inside you for you. Even though I have been a bitch sometimes and pissing you off for all my actions and my crazy antics and my bloody cantstoptalkingmouth, I know you love me, because of my eyes. (Yes, he loves me ‘cause of my eyes. So if I go blind, he will stop loving me, I guess) and, and… I do love you okay, for everything. And, and… I never told you, but my friend said you are cute. That, I can never accept, tak boleh angkats seh! hehe

Tell me, when have I not loved anyone, right?? Right. Sue is always right.

To that lesbian partner of mine, I love you for accompanying me, at the very last minute, and keeping around and walking and walking just to find my Graduation clothes.

And!! Guess what??? I bought my heels at size 41!! REPEAT: SIZE 41!! I think I was the most happiest girl on earth, which might probably be the reason the salesgirl said, “Lu terlupe nak mkn ubat ah?? hehe”. And Mal could vouch for that. WooHoo!!

And to that girlfriend of mine, I felt SOOO terase by that entry of yours okay?? I hope its not about whom/what I think it is. I miss you too and I do love you so.. So jangan la merajuk2 and feeling2 sangat k. We meet up soons!! And beb, you are looking great (I would rather not use the word hot.. Sheesh!) these days eh!! Hehee!!

Is it wise to live in your past memories?? Its not healthy, isn't it?

Out of the sudden, Imdad was talking about this.

That necklace he wore, had some memories attached to it. Its not wise, don't you think??

Why do you want to live with those memories and dampens your hope and will to get a move with your life??

Maybe what I wanted and did, was right after all.

And DIN!!! feeling2 eh kau. "I bukan peminat Nokia!"

Imagine a guy talking to another guy, (that guy is my boyfriend ok!), using bahasa i-i-u-u. A definite inference: He is gay. Haha!! And Din, I'm not condemning you. I'm helping you to face up to reality. keke!!

okay, I hve to ciao-ing now! Dear Mal is waiting...

Byes!! Muacks!

I realise something,

I haven’t been spending time with my family like eons alreadi la!!

I missed most of my family events, I haven’t see my makciks-makciks for a really looong time till they are asking for me, loads of times.

And my mom was complaining and saying to me, that I have been penting-ing friends and werk above family.

Have i?? *wonders*

Hmm, I guess so…

Well, to compromise, I’m having my family feast, which I have planned out next week!! So, Seoul Garden, here we come!! And I am paying ok!! Sheesh!!

And Finally!!

The mother has met the boyfriend!!

And I guess, like mother, like daughter, the only shortcoming we have for him is, HE IS SHORT!! (Kan, kan I dah kate gi la pasang besi kat kaki, tinggi sikit.. hehe)

My mom can be very laser in her words like me, and it was fun mengumpat-ing about the boyfriend, walaupun berdosa.. Ish ish!! Ape nak jadi?? *menggeleng kepala*… Hehe

Mama was very against the idea of me not coming home over the weekends till Monday morning but she was pretty lenient, as long as I give a call home everyday, assurance that their daughter is fine. My June KL trip?? I need a pretty little bit of time, persuading the father. Anak dara lah katakan! *dgn loghat pekat kelantan* So dear friends, Tolong la berdoa untuk ku!! Hehe

And I was talking to my mom about the future. So all planned out!! Insyaallah, if my application is approved, I will proudly and hopefully become a trainee.

But if I don’t (insyaallah, I will.. Mudah-mudahan.), I’m applying for Civil Defence!!! Ok, I’m not going to do NS or anything. I’m going to apply for their Chemical-based department. Macam intereting gitu kan… Hmm..

I was telling my mother,

Me: Nak masuk CD nie kan, hati kene tabah… Boyfriend pendek, nampak laki tinggi, cute, comfirm sakit hati…
Mama: Asal plk??
Me: Abeh blh cuci mate je, tapi tak blh dimiliki… Pasal su dah dimiliki!!
Mama: *menjeling mate* Kau keje kat chemical dept, HQ, bukan kat fire station!! Kat situ jauh die melencong!!

Kwakwa!! Boleh tahan teruk aku!! Kwakwa!!
Nie sume salahkan Fid!! Su dah terpengaruh, salah campur!! Hehhe *peace sign*

So chilling at starbucks bugis with Zhafir, sementara menunggu Fid. Dah jadi permaisuri eh nowadays, asyik kite je tng die. Hmmph!!

Waiting for Mun was such tediousness. Lembabs nak mamps!! And I had fuun, smacking him, sampai merah2 kot!! Wah!! Saye rindu same kamu si!! That’s why I smack you the most!! And weekends, turun jgn tak turun. Kau tak turun, aku naik cab gi Seletar, gegarkan satu camp kau!! Muahaha!! Macam paham jek aku.

And FID!!!!!!!!!!!! I’m not drunk or high or whatever. I’m just me. And, and.. I agree, I think there is something wrong with my neck. Hmm.. Its like, dislocated. As for Firfir, tahan la Suesue, for a while. Firfir kan nak blek, soonss?? Hehehe… And,and..to the 3 of u, sememang nye aku lawa.. keke

I LOVE BOTH OF YOU LA!!! For tahan-ing my karenahs cmlm. And I had F-U-N!! I see you guys this weekends k and then, we PARTTYYY!!! MUACKS!! *Hugs and kisses*

Pretty little People,

*sayang korangs sume*

After 3 weeks of freaking plain blog of update-ness…

SUESUE’S BACK, BABES!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Life has been pretty hectic and frantic. And loads of funness but yet, busy-ness and kecohs-ness!!

Hang-outs has been fun!!

Zhafir has been the most pleasing and the sanggup-ests friend ever. My new and yet, crappy confidante!! I guess seeing you everyday isn’t just plain and I'm used to it..

28 weeks later, Starbucks, Chill-outs, Hangouts and Supper has been the upmost for us kan… Hmm…

Niways, Suesue suke Firfir!! Walaupun Firfir merepek sometimes!! *mimics his childish speaking*

Meeting Mal was so sungguh fulfilling!! Cerita and cerita and LJS and starbucks and Kopitiam and Mango and mengumpat-ings!! She is now having fun pat KL for 4 days!! And HAVE FUN OK!!! I love you, but just remember to bring my souveniers back!! HAHA!! I bet she is shopping like crazy right now. Shopping freak lah katekan, mentang2 dapat pay… And sorry I didn’t visit!! I was sick la.. Niways, sayang kau!!

And Muntazir!! Sesungguhnye he is freaking irritating. Always disturbing me sleeping.. Fed up tau!! Mentang2 ngah feeling2 break, disturbances ade ade je!! Take care lah eh!! Kene tembak, nanti aku melawat… hehe.. Oops!! And, and.. tmr onwards, I’m gonna off my hp till I wake up k…

And werk has been so great yet tough. My peeps has been so gereks!! Especially Fuddin, Fadilah and Saihah!! And not forgetting those crazy heads of mine, Jaya, Thana and kakak ku, Adzlin!!! They are just a fun bunch, whom I adore loads!! Their dirty talk, the merepeks ness, kecoh kot satu Giant!!

And Din!!! I LOVE HIM LOADS!!! He has been my closest recently, and I just hearts him. He is sexually confused (hehe..) but kite masih JIWA eh!! Ape kate kau?? “Kite ‘sisters’ jiwa!!” HAHA!! Feeling it kan?? Keke

Me: Din, wed blek sekolah, kau dtg, tidur umah aku. Kite tgk VCD satu mlm.
Din: Mak kau tak marah??
Me: Tu aku boleh settle kan.
Din: Sembarang la..
Me: Tapi kau tido ngan adik laki aku ah. Tapi kan, kau jgn rogol adik aku sudah!! HAHA!!

Bingit je member!! Sampai paper clip sume melayang kat aku!! Haha..
Dah, Din!! This wed jgn tak jadi sudah!!

Mother’s Day dah lepas but still,

MAMA!!! I LOVE YOU!!!

Morning was such a surprise for her. I had werk on that Sunday morning. A “Happy Mothers’ Day” and a hug, I guess suffice it all.. My mom just smiled and hugged me back, saying “Thank you!”.

Mothers can be such a nuisance, but in a way or another, you just can’t stop loving her, can you??

And on Mothers’ Day, is someone’s birthday!! And orang tu dapat “present” yg teramats sekali!! Hehe

HAPPY 21st BIRTHDAY, MUHAMMAD FAIROZ BIN ABDULLAH!!

Sorry I was late for our outing. Instead kul 10, I came at 12… hehe.. I finish at werk at midnight seh… And you had a date with your girlfriend, pandai putting the blame on me!! Changi for Nasi Lemak and Bapoks.. Serious, no joke!! And the bapoks are damn pretty ok??? A real woman pun kalah sey!!

Trip to ECP was cooling and such a quiet trip. Tapi feeling is great!! Air breeze freaking syiok!!

Rats moments and he was freaking girly with his screams and melatah-es!! HAHA!! Talking and chatting and the What-ifs came out.. Talking about our current relationships and confiding in each other. It was a pleasant and a let go moment for us… Laughing at our ownselves.. It was awkward but yet, pleasant moment… Kan, kan???

Maybe next time when we go out, lets just switch off our hps… Our other half are just menyibuks sometimes kan… hehe..

Me: Do you know what we are doing??
Yuz: *that kind of face “are we doing wrong?”*Duduk2 ah..
Me: Kite tgh bbual!!! I mean, talking and confiding each other. Dgn tenang.
Yuz: Aah eh!! Tak maki eh.. Mari ah maki!

Frequent phrase of ours: “Kite buat salah ke?” or “Are we doing something wrong?”

To comfort ourselves, ANS: “Tak salah, cume tak manis je.. Kite kawan je pe. Setakat klua lepak, bbual gi makan..”

Thanks for the night and the ride. And happy 21st, beb!!

Many happy moments to you, may all your wishes come true, all the best for ur NS soons, next month!! Grow up please!! And also, to your new found but old relationship… Sentiase lah bahagia di samping yg tersayang.. *hugs*

To Nurda ku sayang!!! Im sorry la!! Saya tak akan lupa kan awak!! Cume bz je.. Don’t worry, aku contact kau k… Lunch kite blum terjadi.. Miss you baby!! Hahha!!

Azri, I owe you many, many, many apologies!!! I know, I’ve been a bitch and its none of my business anyways. *looks at Z* All the best for your new found ties and gembira2 selalu!! I love you always… Sape tak sayang kawan sendiri kan??

SHF!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I’m starting to hate you people k?? I ask you guys out, you people just don’t give me a yes for an ans or just a plain no reply.. After grad ceremony, go out with me k?? PLEASE!!!!! I’m begging you!!

And to MUHAMMAD SHALIZ!!!!!!! Where the hell are you?? I’m like trying hard to find you!! You don’t reply to my msges and my calls!! I’m searching for you!! Give me a ring if you are reading this.

Btw, I do hate you people but I LOVE YOU PEOPLE MORE!!

And my Graduation ceremony is next week!! Woohoo!! My mom and daddy have already bought their suit but not me!! Its like as if they are graduating, not their own daughter. Sheesh!! And somebody is not coming, on such an important event/day for me. That I hate!! But still, its ok… Tabah kan lah hati nie je kan… hurhur

Lastly!!!

TO MY DEAREST PENDEKS YG TERAMATS KU SAYANGI!!!!!

I DO LOVE YOU!!!

You are the most understanding and most sweetest of all sweethearts!! I am just overwhelmed at the amount of patience and understanding and your trust in me. You minded, but you let me. I needed it and you gave it all to help me. You are just that perfect sweetheart of all… Hmm.. Tapi just a warning, jaga2 eh.. I nie susah tau nak dijaga.. hehe.. Mane la tau kan.. And, and… I know what you gonna say now… Its either, “You don’t bullshit with me k” or “I slap you den you know”. Hehe… *hugs Pendeks tightly and a peck on that chocolate cheek*

AND YES, YOU ARE SHORT!! Hehe… *tknk mengaku kalah aku*

Entry is so freaking long!! Will be updated again soons!!

Upcoming events are the chalet and my graduation!! Woohoo!!

Bye!! MUACKS!!!

With Fuddin Around, its never bored and mendaks. Isn’t it??

I had a fantastic and enjoyable night with him. And thanks for sanggup-ing turun block aku just to meet me up. I just hearts him, you know.

To NTUC for beli-ing beras, Banquet for fries, since it was raining cats and dogs. Talking, talking and more talking. And the open questions I asked him. Sumpah he was so malu nak mampus!! But I do want to know ok?? Curiousity just overwhelms me! Hurhurhur

With his bongkok posture and his so-luscious lips, more about his life and I just his fave caption, “Tunggu gaji, blh kebuluran aku!”

And for those who want to know how he walks like, you just have to see America’s Next Top Model, You know that Runway Diva?? Miss Jay Alexander?? I swear, he walks like tat!! No kidding!!

But I just love it that he is Din. Nobita ku.. Muahaha!!

I guess I need to meet up with Doraemon soons den.. I miss her too!

Oohh!! News/shock of the day!! I was getting ready to meet Din and den, my phone beep..

Msg reads: “Oik! Tau tak sape nie??”

Thinking it was someone playing pranks, I buat bodoh.

The number called me and guess who it was?? Mun la, as in Muntazir!!! The Craig David voice-alike!!

Wow!! Like 2 tahun hilang, sekali menjelma call aku plk tu!! Like hmmm… hurhurhur.. Had a short talk with Mun and yes, he was so loyar buruk nak mamps!! It was weird like hearing his voice again, so different and yet, awkward. Niways, meet up soons, maybe lepas kau abis ngaji k?? Muahaha… hurhurhur…

Waiting for Pendeks…*looks at handphone*

I do hate waiting. Don’t you too?? Sheesh…

I did it with good and kind intentions.
But got my heart broken instead…

And I can’t believe I’m crying for this… *freaking blackies*

Girls are just selfish and sensitive like that.
Why is it that girls are allowed to move on,
But when they see the guys they used to go out with,
With a girl,
They just can’t stand the fact it’s real..

And that tends to be too much for them to handle,
When they themselves have moved on.
I hate it…
Like that.

Me: No, I’m going to the club later tonite.. Sori I can’t meet u today.
Friend: WAT?!?! I’m not allowing to go club. I didn’t know u club!
Me: NO!! Club as in persatuan.

Friends can just be annoying as such. I said “to the club”, not “to club”. If so, dah lain crite dah!

And, Pendeks is getting paranoid lately. That, I hate. I do love you la and I’m not gonna do anything stupid or silly. Promise, or at least, I try not to. Hurhurhur. Meet you soons baby!! And I do, do miss u so…

A very old past of mine called, out of a sudden. I can’t believe that I had 3 missed calls from him. I kept shaking my head, blinking to see whether it was true or not. And yes, old past, I will try my very damn good will to help you.

Him: Sue, you are just a good friend.
Me: Ya, I’m so good I got cheated many times. *sarcastically*

Fine, I’m jahat!! But still, he did cheat on me ok?? And I suffered months ok??

Niways, what passed is passed. And I still can’t accept these werds, “My ex used to be a Bengali, rmbr??” YA, LIKE AS IF!! Sheesh!! You are just a fling baby!! *talk to my hand*

Ok, all done today!!
C u tomorrow!!

Sunday:

So… after so many ups-and-downs, the unexpected and unpredictable stuff that has happened within these few days and the promise we made to Ah Ching, the planned-out-outing-which-became-into-an-unplanned-outing happened.

The thing about us is we are always late when meeting each other and in addition, we were late picking the boy up. And he was so plentifully cute!! With the shoes, with the “Bob the builder” bag and just cute!!! And, and… I see both of them had the same hairstyle! Haha…

Went around Singapore Town, Burger King and the playground. Yes, the playground… And that boy just had to play with water and its so disheartening to actually disallow him and yesh, we had a earful from Pendeks!!

Arcades were such a waste of money even though it was FUN!!! But I just can’t stop playing my Bishi Bashi!! It’s a habit or perhaps, an addict!!

And even though the boy was such a handful, and yeash, he was running around, playing with each escalator we took, and the small gap within the mrt track and the train itself, he actually tried to put his small feet through the gap. Sheesh!! The boy is so lovable!!

I don’t know why Pendeks just keeps losing his patience with him. That boy is so plentifully lovable sey! “Aku mcm nk bunuh la budak nie!” Sheesh!

The way back was funny seeing both boys sleeping on the bus ride. Tiredness just overhelms them, I guess.

I had a nice time, Baby!! And, and.. It was a rough but yet, lovely and sweet 2 months. *Loves, huggies and kisses*

Monday:

Z was very adamant in meeting after 3 turn-downs from me.. Sumpah and so sorry because I was extremely BUSY!!

Off to the workplace to look for his DVDs and his so-not-worth-it Converse shoes. Seriously, you can get it at any BATA shop for just 2o plus than 6o plus!!

And lunch plus his so-frequent “Aku haus ah!”…

And ZZZZ!!! I pray for you k?? *bace doa makan* hurhurhur

You take care and I’ll rmbr that body shake laughter routine we had?? Huahuahua…

Its funny isn’t it?? When you just happen that you haven’t confide in someone for a long time and suddenly, it turns to you that, hey, I miss that person for their advices and those damn-i-hate-critics.. Hmm…

And I do miss a lot of ppl!! My SHF. Esp!! And SHF-ians!! Do make yourself free in the next 2 weekends?? Alrites!! Meet ups before our Graduation Ceremony… Okies??

And the besties!! Sheesh!! I think it’s like eons ever since I saw them.

I think I need to work out my plans and days of the week… Hmm..

After almost half a year of chatting, gurau-ing and all the closeness we had,

Its finally the time and day of meet ups!!

Lets call the outing, "The ex meeting the ex!"

Believe it or not,

Liyana has agreed to meet me and YESH!! hehe

I must make that come true because its true that both of us sure has a lot to say to each other..

Meet up soons, okies dear!!

And, and.. YESH!! after a week of not meeting DIn, IM GONNA MEET HIM IN 1o HRS TIME!! Woohoo!! Im so freaking excited la!! hurhurhur.. *plays with my imaginary adam apple* hurhurhur

And yesh!! Tomorrow will be the day of my own funness and happy moments!! With Pendeks and Ah CHing!! Muahaha!! And I want my donuts/ Ben & Jerry la!! So vivo, is a MUST!! ok??

And, and... Can we go Sentosa plsss?? Dah lame tk gi sane.... keke *shows pathetic face which I know Pendeks hate*

Wednesday:

Fid’s coffee Presentation!!

Fid!! Well done on your presentation! *big applause* Even though it was obvious from your face, that it was nerve-wrecking, but still, thumbs up!! And four of us were so nice Kan, to come down!! Hehe…

That new found listening ears of mine!!

That coffee tasting we had..
And the croissant plus caramel topping was sumpah so sedap with the kopi!!

That four who came for the fifth one.

Our cocky and sweet times!!
The four sweet ones!!
Something happened in the late night. Still, it touches but yet, breaks my heart…

And, and… I spoke to Din la, JUST!! Haha.. Masih kekek-menyekik lagi eh suare kau! I miss u!! Saturday we mit, kite buat kecohs satu Giant k?? Miss kau and your lack of adam apple!! hurhurhur

And, and, and kan!! On Sunday!! *excited tone* I’M GOING OUT WITH MY PENDEKS aannnddddd…… Ah-Ching!! Yang budak cute tu!! “Matno!”

Can’t wait!! Wee!! Pendeks says I only care about Ah Ching but not him… Recall: Who’s much cuter?? The budak or the one who looks like bapak budak?? Hurhurhur *hugs Pendeks*

FIRST THING FIRST!!

I MISS DIN!!!!!!!!

Baru semalam jumpa tapi I MISS HIM LA!!! I've never been without Din these few days. He is like the best of the best that I can ask for and I just miss him la!! And my kecoh-ness is never complete without him. *sobs*

I miss teasing about his lack of adam apple, imitating his body posture, his sumpah very the kekek voice and our shopping together for our rewangs mlm and our packing for each other and forcing Yen Yong to give us our same breaks. Haiz..

*knocks on door*
Saihah: Come in!
Sue: Sai!! Jgn la!! I miss him. *muka sedih*

Because Din always do that whenever someone knocks and its so weird without him saying that.

And the "gerek" news kan, I'm off on Wed and Thurs and he is werking on Wed and Thurs. That sux! Sheesh!!

I just want to see him.. SOONS!! tsk, tsk.. *sad face*

P.S: Pendeks! Remember my booking k?? *loves*

Thursday:

It was raining and yes, it was raining! Haha!! Slept the whole way throughout the day.

Mom was freaking pissed at me.

“Kalau tak keje, keluar. Kalau tak keluar, keje. Blek mlm, pagi2 buta. Bangun tidur, mandi, keluar. Tak penat ke kau??”

Answer: Penat, Mama! Tapi fun and relax plus de-stress, mesti ada! Hehe

Met up with the Pendeks!! And I so, so have the miss for him! *hugs tightly around neck becos you very the short*

Blk 26 for Chicken Cutlet and a whole plate of yes, very the salty fries, and saw the mak budak! Hehe.. At least she looks much younger with the tight fitting clothes on, than the other time, with her baju pasar.

“Matno!” *cute boy’s voice*

His name: Asrul a.k.a Ah ching.

And he is so cute!!! Malu-malu with his soya bean tin can. He is a few years old and he is so cute!! Sheesh! French fries with him and his little sister, also so cute!! And pretty too!!

But I still love, “Matno!”.

And met the coffeeshop’s pet, a cat, name: Putih. And that, I don’t like. Walaupun ia manja and of no harm, STILLL!!! The boy’s father, I merajuks. Also, don’t like. Hmmph!! But, mengumpat pasal dorang, I like!! Soooo the much!! Hehe.. Kan, Pendek?? *shouts, “You jahat nyeeeeee!!”*

Even though for a short while, at least I did get to see you. Hilang sume segala rindu tapi sinaran mentari di dahi tetap ade. hoo-hoo-hoo!! *peace sign* And I can finally see your goatee!! Like, “WOW!! Its actually growing!” And SSB??? Ermm… *clueless??*

And I’m sorry for being so adamant. And I sooo love you for being patient with me, even though I’m so merepeks sometimes.

Plus… FINE, I just won’t go so, YOU WON’T TOO!! Hmmph! Benci.. *whispers with making faces*. AND NO MORE “0812”!! EYou get the gist of it. *throws fist*

Meet you on the 22nd, mister!!

And Z… Bertawakal lah. Whatever happens, will happen for a reason. It’s God’s will. And, and… I still can’t believe my ears about the mosque and the doa-doa things okay!! I’m like… “Zhafir??? *blanked out*”

Friday:

Work has been so the mendaks the nak mampus!! I got my express counter and I swear, I miss Din a lot. And he missed me too and both of us went up and down, so we could mengumpat and talk to each other. Saya sayang Din!! Muahaha!!

Ok, btw, Din adalah kawan sejati ku at the workplace and we basically do all stuff sesame rate. Keke!! And I met Doraemon too!! And the Nobita and Doraemon finally reunited. Doraemon was so the kecoh again with the purse of hers!! Sheesh!! I swear, the pantry was filled with laughter of 10 people instead of 3. Keke!!

And as usual, Din, Saya, Amin, Fash and Su bentang tikar and we had our normal picnic in the middle of the road and the middle of the night. Like it was so the kelakar and so the cute of us. And, and, It was so loads of fun, even though it was so membodohkan. Plus Hanis and the bdk2 packers yg teramats menyetan-kan. Sheesh!!

Saturday:

The dreaded day of the week for all staff!!

And the mood hasn’t been good today. I have been pissing and pissed at for the whole day.

Hate it! And thanks to Jerry and Nobita and Hawa for making today that bearable.

And… AMIN!! Serve you right!! You are just looking for that freaking trouble. But hey, we, the 7 wonders will try to chill out for you k?? *winks*

And Mister, I just don’t simply bother to care, sometimes. You are old enough to think, FYI!

A joke from Jo ustat,

“Banyak2 kuih, kuih ape tengah2 die tak boleh dimakan??”

And after much minutes of torture, which seemed like hours,

The answer is, “Kuih Donut!”.

But today is my day!! And thanks to Vinco Donuts, the Chocolate Delight had the centre of it and I was sarcastically took that big bite of the centre. And yesh!! He surrendered. Muahaha!!

And, YESH, YESH!! I got my donuts at Vivo!! Muahaha.. Nak tng Pendek, tahun depan pun tak dapat la. And Pendek, my Cempedak Goreng, pls?? Bile nk dapat tu?? Hmmph!!

Had a big fun time with Encik Jo, and before that, with Imdad yg sanggups tunggu aku walaupun aku lbt, “Awak keje ke nari, bang??” and we were walking around while waiting for the latecomers (macam tak biase gitu kan.. hmm..), den guess who I saw?? GIANT!!! And we were like staring at each other, and both of us were scared to actually tegur. But hey, we did actually meet huh?? After ermm.. 5 months of MSN-ing.. HELO, GIANT!! (not my workplace, but my friend is actually named Giant, I swear..) Muahaha!!

HUDA!!! If you are reading this, please do msg me!! I lost your number and I seriously want to have that lunch!! Pwetti please, baby?? Hehe

And, and… Zander!! Better call me tomorrow bitch!! Keke…

OK, ola people!!
I LOVE YOU ALL!!
MUAX!!

I miss the boy, like much!!!

It seems so hard to talk to him, don't even mention meeting him! And it’s so freaking hard okay?? It’s been exactly a week, and it could last for another weeks, then months and years. But that is like so exaggerating!! Sheesh!

I so hate it that our time just clashes. When he goes to work, I am still asleep and when I’m back from in the wee hours, he is asleep. Stress kan?? And the boy just can’t sacrifice his sleep because he works like 8 am in the morning. Sheesh!! There is just no time for meet-ups and contacts. He works morning shift, I work night. And that, I hate. The only way we know or ask about each other’s well-being is through 2 or 3 sms-es everyday. And that, I also hate.

And he didn’t wait up for me. I called like dozens of times and hey mister! I hate you for sleeping like a pig! Hmmph!! I wanted to cry, air mata dah bergenang and I actually went to the kitchen and took some rice to eat. Mak kate, “tak baik nangis depan rezeki. Tuhan tak suke.” So I took the rice in front of me and I stop my tears, pasal ade rezeki pat depan tu!! Ok, Sue sememang nye kental. Muahaha!! Sape tak nangis, I miss the Pendeks yg the kementot okai?? *sobs, sobs*

And You, thanks for being that understanding and so the patient with me. And please, I’ve never mind you not picking me up from work, never mind we seeing each other like once every 2 weeks. I don’t, or at least, I try not to. Hurhurhur.. As long as you are there, safe, side by side, I’m fine with all the things in the world. Because I know you are always beside me, no matter woots.. *Sue starts her merepek-ness*

Ok!! Mornings!! I haven slept yet and it 5.15 am in the morning la! Sheesh!!

BYES!
*love, hugs and kisses*

This is not just Karma, but triple Karma!! But i didn't even ask for anything and I didn't do anything that could even make me be in this kind of fix. I thought, if I just kept quiet and kept a low profile, things wouldn't be that same way. But now, even not doing anything, things actually came back around and to me again.

I know, you people are gonna read this. To tell you right in front of your faces, I tried but you people still don't get it! And I'm pissed that sometimes, you people are just freaking stupid and just don't know or pretend not to read in between the lines!

And you people asking me to make choices and I did!! I already made my choice but you people just keep corner-ing me to make me change that decision.

Serious talk, I'm so the lazy and so the malas nak mampus to bercinta-cinta nie ok?? If my fate is with that person, it will be with only that person. And its no use if you keep corner-ing me and pressing me to go to choose the roads.

To Black, the past 2 days has been the most sweetest and most touching of you.. So far, in those months of rship we had, you have never shown me that soft side of you. And you actually waited for me like 2 hours, outside my workplace waiting for me to clock out. That is the most unbelievable thing I can even ask from you. And I'm so sorry that it was just a wasted trip. I'm just sorry and if you want to wait, wait. For now, going back isn't much of a choice.

Today... I OFF MYSELF AGAIN!! Nie sume Huda nye pasal. *blames Huda* The influence is too strong seh!! Sheesh!! *shakes head* Huda, huda... hahah! Huda, better come bsok!! kalau tak, ish ish!! hehe..

Instead of werk, I went Orchard!! Nie sume Zhafir "bitch" nye pasal la!! Muahaha!! *and I'm laughing, not kissing.* He asked me out to shop for the 3 most important ladies in his life! Like sheesh!

Coffee Bean for Vanilla Mocha! And it was such an embarassing moment!!

Z: Green tea Frap pls..
Barista: Sorry sir. This is Coffee Bean, not Starbucks.
Z: *malu*

Total pissed-off of the day!! HAHHAH!! I burst out laughing like... Whoosh!! haha.

Far East for Cheongsam picking and it was such an impossible mission for it. An aimless walk off and we gave up.

And, and I GOT MY FRIED MARS BARS! I haven't eaten it like for ages!! Haiz.. like ages ok?? And it was a total heavenly meltdown!! With Chocolate Ice cream.. YUMYUM!!! An addition of alternative hard core whatever songs he made me hear, we was like knocking, banging our heads wild! Ok, when 2 crazy people get together, HAVOC!! Kecoh-rable seh!! haha.. And info overloaded!! i still can't believe certain stuff that i was being told abt! Like ewww!! *geli*

Kinokuniya for Comics and I swear, I was laughing my stomach pains away!! You tell me, which 20 yr olds read Marvel comic book?? Oops!! I forgot, American boys do tat... *shouts* Superman!! I promise you, Z, i will get the Superman undies and belt for your 20th birthday. I will Fed-Ex it.. hurhurhur

Le Meridien for Souveniers for that hot Spanish girl of his. And the place was very exotically woody and full of cute, hard and unusual souveniers. So 2 fools was checking out the place and making that stupid acts with the masks and the hats! And Z-bitch, sumpah, I thot the machine won't accept that card of yours. I would be freaking damn happy seh! And i saw that sweat trickle a few cm down that temple. HAH!!

Vivo planning but it was close to 9 pm.. No use! Kopitiam, with Shafique too, Ayam Penyets and Teh Peng! The teh peng fanatiks (uS!) was criticising the Teh Peng seh! So tawar!! All the tak senonoh topics came out and it was fun and laughters. I didn't even know Shaf was that kind of open and funny person. And oh please.. Too much info seh!!

So..... Z-bitch!! Tks for the day and evening!! (well, it shud b the other way round alrites??) With that dumb jokes you make, "don blame the sotong k!" and stop it seh with the UOU thing! If I ever see a thing about that UOU anywhere, I'm gonna kick your freaking American butt!! HMMPH!!

Ciaoz!!

MUAX!! LOVES!!

I'm just so ermm.. Out of control nowadays. And I know you hate it. I know I've been keeping late nights until wee hours of the morning for these past days and it's so pissing you off to wait up for me. And the phone calls are getting lesser and lesser, that I know.

I'm so sorry for all that and yes, yes.. at least I know how you felt, but I was terkejut about that interrogation this morning. hehe..

And stop it seh with the anak-dare-tak-manis-blek-lambat!! Stress tau!! Hmmph!!

But you know I LOVE YOU kan??? *flutters eyes*

So, I promise I will try to reduce the late nights, increase the phone calls and maintain the meet-ups!! Orite?? Deal?? *hooks little finger*

Something fascinated me today and its the eyebrows!!

I'm so fascinated by it!! Serious, no kidding!!



I shall call it the "Devil's eyebrow". And it's naturally his!! no artificial methods included!!

The overall

UPCLOSE AND PERSONAL!!

SEE??? look at it!! Name pun sounds devilish.. Gazi!! haha..

Supper was at Jalan Kayu and it was freaking nice with Teh Peng and Nasi Ayam Goreng. And tried a new drink, Neslo Peng. Black (hehe), sungguh tak sedaps!! Serious. Nescafe je rase banyak, milo takda rasa.. Udara malam di tepi laut was so cooling and COLD!! I was so stiff with my bulu roma terangkats!! Sheesh

The empty roads and lanes towards the Dam was so freaking scary and ulu. Serams ok?? Esp dgn angin and the cold atmosphere. And Mister, tks for that talk and problems sharing we had! Thanks for the ear and sumpah, I don't want anything to happen. The stories and the what-ifs are scaring me loads!

Insyaallah, everything will be fine. Maybe I'm just paranoid but hey! Who would want that to happen?? I know, I wouldn't.. It would destroy me.

MY OFF DAY!!

After 4 continuous days of being in full shift, which means from 10am to 12am, I get my off day. Just 1 pathetic off day! But, at least better than nothing kan?? And I so hate it that they made me work like a pathetic full-timer!! I'm werking like almost 13 hours everyday and I so hate it la!! But of course, the pay at the end of the month, who can resist that?? And, and.. highlight of the day, I'm werking on Good Friday. I'm like, "What the...??" But the advantage is, double pay. But my holiday?? Haiz..

Well, on the good note, I went shopping today!! I went shopping for myself, my dad, my mom and my auntie!! Bags, Jeans, Bills paying, Currency exchange and most importantly, my shoes!! Halfway, I got so fed with carrying the bags, I called my "bell boy" for the day to Tampines to pick me up!! Muahaha.. Sanggups kan?? Sayang die!!

And Tampines is soooo not the place for shoes la!! Na dah!! Nothing! So Sweets brought me to Bugis!! And I got my pumps and my earrings!!!! And it was cheap2!! I had wanted to get my tops from Mango and the tanks were so damn pretty and so damn the cheapo because it was on sale.. But someone said, "No need! Save up your $$ for other important uses!". But ade udang sebalik batu die.. Like sheesh!! that, I hate.

Bus ride No. 2 home and the walk under the tracks was pure talks! And mister, I so hate it that you like to take vids of me secretly and I sooo hate that stupid convincing act you did which I fell for.. Grr!! But my dearest, No matter wat, you are still my Pendeks!! The one that is shorter than me! HAHHA!!

So, to my Sweets, Thanks for the day!! And thanks for being my "bell boy". Sorry for the halfway unpleasant trip back. I know, my perangai-ess is sometimes so annoying and irritating but hey, that other halfway trip bck, It was nice, wasn't it?? *giggles sinisterly*

OK!!! I'm done here!! NITES!!

LOVES!!

P.S: I so hate that phone!!

And my sweets slept… again and again. And that, I hate. He is so lecehs and pemalas nak mamps nye. I must so find a way to make him wait up for me. When it comes to him, I must wait and he would call me so many times to make me wake up, no matter which hours of the day. But when it comes to me, tido mati!! Agaknye kan, Bomb meletup pun die tak sadar! Sheesh!!

Today was a Sunday but customers were not so crowded like yesterday.

And guess who did my packing for me?? Bamboo Jason and Kak Naz!! And Bamboo Jason was like, “Ah girl!! You still working here??” Muahaha!! And like surprisingly, he remembered me and said, “I remember all my cashiers ah..” keke!! That bamboo!!

And my packer boy, Hakim is going L.A today till the 15th. But he won’t be coming to work till that week’s weekend, bcos ITE school dah buka!! Sheesh! Will miss tat saying of his, “Kak! Aku nak gi hisap rokok ah”. And he keeps doing that every hour. Sheesh!

And I close counter like so early and whoosh!! I finish counting my float and sales within 20 mins!! And I had to count like 11,ooo of dollars!! And that is like an achievement ok!! And Fudin, Fad and me was like strolling along the store, kacau2 all the budak2 night shift and feeling2 lah tu, with the umbrellas, the rejected chocolates. The migration of the girls to the guys locker rooms. It was so funny la!! And with the settlement rolls, audit rolls, punch cards mix up.. HAHA!! The long talk and waits outside the carpark sambil bergurau2 and bercerita hantu. And oh goodness!! The cerita hantus which tak blh angkats nye sampai Fad was like so takuts and she was beating my arm, which was… yes, damn painful!! And goodness Din!! Your Adam’s apple is not there. Puberty belum abis la!! Haha!! At 18 years old.. keke!!

And, and... our midnight picnic kat carpark!! Bsok, bsok k!! haha

Ok la readers!! Pendek kepala botak is mad la! *I’m on the phone with him, btw* And he is screaming at my ears la.. with that stern voice, “can you stop typing for a while??” Oops!

Ok, nites!! Muax!! Loves!!

I had 3 hours of sleep and I had 14 hours at work!! Someone, help me!

Morning was just a piss-off with that fucking, idiotic, moronic, muka mcm babi punye customer!! *astargfirullah* Sheesh!! One, I don't care if your son is at home alone. And OMG!! You have legs, can't you just move and get that full of babi-ness punye ass to get that stupid barcode??!! Damnit!! "you are young, you should get that barcode!!", "you are very slow, should move more faster", "tired of waiting half an hour for the queue", "haven't had my breakfast yet".. WTH!! helo!! *waves hand* I have been standing 16 hours a day, i didn't eat the whole day, just a tin of soya bean. Do think about other ppl, not just that badak-ish badan of yours which is so full of lemak babi-eesss!! EEE!! geram tau!!

Another person was so gereks somemore. *sarcastically* There was bags of pork on that table and I as a muslim can't touch it. So I just amik hujung2 die so I won't touch all that sins and kekotoran yg teramats sekali. And that one cinoneh can actually say to me, "What's so dirty about it?? Its just meat, we eat.." *test, test* Fucking cinoneh-ess who are so uneducated n so unracialism-ed!! You eat that dirty thing, not me!! No wonder badan so lemaks kebabian.. EEEE!! gerams la!!

But, but... Afternoon was better... *grins sweetly* My sweets came to visit me and it was so surprising yg tak tersangka!! And yes, yes.. My sweets looked fairer to the eyes, bcos its the first time i see him in broad daylight, kalau tak gelap je, macam anak.. *ehem* And unbelievably, pade pandangan pertama, he looked.. hmm.. hmm.. Never mind.. Let me keep that info to myself.. Muahahah!! And to my dearest sweets, Mr Pendek kepala botak, *and yes! I just found out he has a bald spot!!* thanks for dropping by! and I swear, i tak mengharap pun. Seriously!! Do, do, do.. ermm... LOVE YOU!! *shy away*

Night was freaking busy.. With the stuff spilling, hangers flying, lots of shouting from counters to counters, lots of jams/hangs throughout the computers and unexpectedly, that little accident I had.

Night was just so busy that I had to stay for OT. Seeing Jaya kneeling in front of the counter to ask me to keep open counter, that really... ok, I jus can't stand it when people beg me and buat muke tonyeh gitu!! And somemore, Jaya is a supervisor and to do that in front of customers... mcm so gutsy. And he needs that help! Sheesh!! Well, he promise me my seafood date next week.. So yeah!! Love Jaya loads!! *btw, die tu ermm homo le, from the looks of it*

Okies dokies!!

I need my beauty sleep, badly!! So byes!!

*loves, hugs and kisses*

The night was just sweets and just simply, lovely.

The Pendeks was early, like sheesh!! Pasal bola, pasal kawan and pasal lepaks, he came early.. And that pisses me off!! Bcos it states I'm so not that important to him. And that, I hate.. Hmmph!!

Movie was at 10 pm and I so hate it that we had 2 hours to spare and that was boring!! Simply boring! Msged dear Fid, who was otw home and she was having those not-so-fine-in-the-mood date. haha!! Seriously dearie.. You've got to sabar with the choices. But that guy was so ungentlemanly!! Sheesh.

Number 23 was great! Even though it was confusing, but it was gereks!! I just don't get it about the pink thing that becomes 23. Popcorn munching, which was so memenats-kan our jaws. And so tak terhabis punye air coke.

Movie ended closely to midnight and the two of us was so takuts we would miss the last bus. And ppl!! Where is the new bus no. 5 which goes through Orchard?? We were searching for that bus from bus stops to bus stops?? Ended up taking 14, bcos we didn't want to pay 3 bucks for NR7, and dropping at East Coast Rd and walked all the way to blk 26 bcos I was craving crappily for teh Peng!!

And Pendeks was so nice to send me home in a cab and back to his place..

So lastly, to Pendeks dearest... It was just like sweets and candies. And even though there were geram moments but it was still lovely to be out with you.. And Tks for everything!! And I do, really, really feel bad!! And I do not want to menyusahkan you agi.. I will try my best not to! Muahaha.. And thanks for being by my side, all this while and always. *hugs, loves and kisses*

Do send me the pics.. SOONS!!

Ohh, ohh.. To Mr Zander, I'm so sorry i couldn't talk for long.. I'm using prepaid la!! And I'm sorry I couldn't make it for that clubbing thing and tonight's dinner. I have my personal reasons.. And, and.. i understood the Number 23 storyline. I'm not that blur after all... Bluek!!

And to "Taj Mahal", I'm sorry for all that has happen to you. Take things easily.. things will go your way or not, tp kau kene reda je la. Things will happen smoothly, your way or not. Stay cool, annoying and irritating always alrite?? And do gain back tat 7 kilos you lost.. Jgn la pasal pompan, kau stress mcm gini.. *hugs for you too*

And mister, I'm sorry to break your heart and your feelings. And i can't believe you deleted me from your friends list and wanted out of my life forever.. Why can't we be good friends like we used to be?? I didn't know your feelings for me until recently. Seriously, I had no clue. So, before this thing drags and find myself in trouble again, i had to tell you the truth. And I swear, i didn't know that I was leading you on. because we never talk about our personal lives. And too suddenly, you drop this bomb on me, I'm shocked. So, if you are reading this, I'm sorry like hell.. And hey, I do miss you, even though i never met you.. but in a friendly way, just not that kind of way..

Ok.. I'm werking later at 9am.. And its 4.08am and I'm not asleep.. And its like.. Sheesh!!

Ok ppl!! Woots, or is it, hoots??
Byes

I just want to blog this before going off..

I'M MEETING MY PENDEKS LATER!!! Muahaha..

hey, its been 10 days ok?? *looks around the room* *whispers* I miss himm....

ok, toodles.. Byes!!

And ppl, if you guys see me around, do tegur me?? I hate it when you guys see me and I don't see you. And when I go online, you guys will say, "hey, I saw you jus now/ytd.." And that, I hate..

Ashwin's back!! haha.. How funny of you to just beep me and to say just to say "I'm back!". I do take note, you know.. Its the 28th basically!! Do meet up soons ya?? Now jetlag-ing, so have that rest and we meet up, soons for that coffee. Muahaha!!

Today, today and today!!

I ponteng werk again!! I was closing yesterday and I was opening today!! So basically i could only have like 2 and half hours of sleep and that is freaking not enough!! So I just slept and slept and slept and I woke up at 4.30 pm. Then after mahgrib, I slept again till now!! See?? I'm so freaking tired and my legs is numb like crazy. My feet are sensitive, you know and I just hate it when the numbness and then the peeling starts. Its terrible la!! Grr...

Ok, now on a serious and sorry note,

wait, let me start off with a quote, *looks at Dee and Mal, "aku pun dah tau pakai quote-muote nie tau, dah canggih!!"*

That's when I love u
I love u
A little more each time
And when u cant quite match you clothes
Or when u laugh at your own jokes
that's when I love u
I love u
More then u know
And when u forgot that we had a date
Or that look that u give when u show up late
Baby I love u
I love u anyway

Aslyn-that's when I love you

Ok fine, its not a quote, its just lyrics from some girl singer ok..

N that goes to Pendeks!! I'm sorry for all those stupid karenahs of mine, those stupid words I used on you. And I'm sorry for being so unreasonable and so freaking merapeks with the attitude. *seriously merendahkan diri yg terendah sekali dgn yg muke terpaling sedihs* I love you, no matter woots... *hugs loves n kisses*

And Fid!! Mane kau la!?! do you want the pics?? Sudah lama ku menunggu untuk kehadiran mu di sini.. *mencari-cari kau di alam siber*

To a certain someone, you are so hypocritic okay??? Do you think I'm gonna help u?? You are just so mean and please... The last thing I want is to be in the same werkplace as you. Sheesh!! ok, I'm so jahat la!! But hey! I'm just taking care of myself ok?? Meany-mean Sue!! *he knows who he is, but I don't think he even goes my blog anyhows.. Muahaha*

To Mr Zander, SHUT UP!! I maybe blur and yes, yes.. It was strike four and I know you don't have cancer, so stop bringing that thing up.. Sheesh!! Do beep me up for that trip next week?? But from the looks of it, you are just one, big worse event planner!! Muahaha.. Biatch!! Kwakwa.. I'll be damn glad if you actually read this thing, which I know you will.. HAHA!!

Ok people!!
NITES!!

LOVES FROM SUE...

The WerkPlace FrenzY!!

The kumpulan of people of the workplace!!

Those tired faces but still happy and merry among each other. Pose for the camera, bebs!!

Today is Mr Al Amin's last day!! And its like so many people are quiting and its so sedih and the group of faces are reducing and reducing and reducing!

To Abang Al Amin kite(hehe..), Gd luck to all your endeavours and the new job. Harap2 you get admission to the U and who knows, maybe we could also be in the same U also, insyaallah.

And ppl!!! Stop quitting la!! plus all the makciks-makciks also!! No more KIV and in consideration.. I will seriously miss ur dancing in the wee hours of the mornings.. hehe

And you slept... again

Just 20 minutes and you couldn't wait...

I had news..
I wanted you to be the first to know and wanted to ask your opinion..
But you slept... yet again

I guess, I was late again, yeah.

Its ok.
Understand, understood.
You are tired and you work morning tomorrow.

Well, news was that...
My application for my advanced diploma is successful.

But I'm still waiting for response for my NIE and NTU application.
So, I'm just simply confused on what to do.
Should I wait somemore for the 2 applications??
Or should I just chop this offer for advanced diploma.
Haiz..

But, But..
Lets say, I didnt get the successful applications for the 2,
What am I going to do??

C, c!! I got headache already!! Sheesh

Someone needed for career advisory!!

Yeah.. Just go on and sleep..

Understand, understood..

Its not about how much I bt all my perangai-ss all day,
Not about how many times I reject your calls
Not about those times I felt dampened in my spirits
Not about the level that I missed you that I haven't seen you in a week
Not about what I lied about something important which was not
Not about how I cried in the middle of the nite
Not about how long I stared at my hp, just hoping to see your name appear
Not about how much I worry about you
Not about the times I waited just for you to be home
Not about how many times I said, "I hate you"

Its about your priorities in life.

If what we have now isn't that much priority for you now,
Just let go.
Its hurting me too much.

The reason why I told myself,
"No relationships for now, Sue"

Now, even without a relationship,
Look what it did.

Like I said,
"The first month is always the sweetest,
But after that, Its Crap!!"

Understand my maksud??
Make a choice dearie.

I just can't stand it anymore...
Nites or shud it be morning??

Just waiting and harpin on you could just take the whole night..
FYI..