okay...
updates on my life..
Starting frm saturday..

Bebo pick me up at 4.30.. at my HSE!!! believe it or not.. usualli, he is lazy.. haha.. off we went to the RE:MIX '06.. Nice de.. the dances.. Most were great, a few were bah!!! sori.. yes2.. sum1 said it start at 6.. so we came ard 6 plus.. but to find that the thing starts at 7.. wrong info given by SYAM!!! everytime tau.. hmmph... Saw alot of familliar faces there.. so we jus stood and watched the ting.. the place was hot.. very hot!! was perspiring.. plus2 the heads!! hate it wen ppl block my view.. sheesh.. oh, oh.. anione rmbr "ice-cream cone"? Well, no more!! he lost weight after going into army.. he told me its normal.. n he said," azri masuk pun nanti die kurus pe." AAAHHH!!! no!!!!!! i don wan.. i'll lose my pillow.. don wan!!! yes2, 402 ppl was dere.. different frm the last time i saw them.. saw Meen.. haha.. she so skinny.. y ah? all the ppl whom i haven seen nowadays are getting thinner.. n me? getting bigger.. plus2, Helmi... he made a special performance wit one of the NCC juniors.. seriously, suare very cartoon.. haha.. suare mun agi sedap.. haha.. Kul 9 plus, we went off.. so hungry!! so we went to BK!! yumyum.. snap2.. photo taking!!! haha.. den we walk ard.. play a fool.. den i fell.. At orchard rd!! so malu... it was nite, yes.. but Orchard Rd comes alive at nite.. so, i malu-ed myself!!! Den we went back.. HM SWEET HM!!!

sweet tak??

cHeeKy cOupLe...

HIM

HER

US

Now.. SUNDAY!!!

i skip my ugama class.. don blame me!! my mom ask me to skip.. keke.. and my whole family went johor!!! AAHH!!!! shop2 wit my family.... Kenny Rogers, Yong tau foo, Sushi, Seasons.. yumyum.. u can nvr get full... with my small auntie and uncle to escort us.. we were happi ppl!! practising the "AZRI" face, my dad who jus cant shut up, plus the pinching and superman game.. haha.. i didnt even tink much abt my test, which was today.. haha.. we spent like almost RM500.. not including the kenny rogers which cost almost RM200.. blh terkencit.. haha.. here are sum pics of the day..

Menye-siap-ing!!i noe i look giant beside my sis!! no nd to say...

mY sis and bRO

My parents

MY FAMILY!!!

CIAO!!

MUACKS!!!!

why are u so silly?!?!?!

n i didnt noe abt it...
Damn it..
Silly!!!!!

aahh!!!!
not a nice feeling when u r kept in the dark...
even thou it has passed..
In the past..
Still, noe ing that u did stuff like tat...
sumting so sweet..
aahh!!!!!
*sobs while feeling touched*

"Suhaila"
"I lost her"
"i love u, DD"

sheesh..
nice werds rite?
AAH!!!!!!!

sheesh..
seriously, im not worth it
i feel guilty..
yes...

SUPERMAN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Y didnt u tell me?!?!?!
u knew!!!!!!!!!
U cld read it...
the codes!!!
im blaming u 4 not telling me...
Duush, duush!!!
i won tok to u for a week!!!
aaHH!!!!

im havin a breakdown soon!!!!!!!!!
aahh!!!!!!!!!
*sobs*

im havin so much trouble...
nowadays..

sheesh..

AAHH!!!!!!!!!!!

TISA!!!
i nd admission into IMH...
HELP ME!!!!
A PSYCHOLOGIST!!!!!
PLS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

AAAHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!

ok..
ciao..
MUACKS!!

hi...
morningz..
*yawns*

im still sleepy..
feeling abit better..
but still sick..
nevertheless

i jus did a little test on myself..
its not tat bad..
i mean..
felt sumting..
but i tink its purely neutral..

Btw, glad he got it werk it out..
his quote,
"not looking for a girl who's holding a key to my heart, but holding on my heart tite."

I realli cant believe tats him saying..
so philosophical..
haha

bebo!! heard tat?
keke

ok..
last nite was the weirdest nite of all..
realli..
won say it more..

but i can say to tat sum1..
im sori i broke ur heart..
realli..
i guess it wasnt meant to be..
i'll pray for u..
to find sum1 better..
plus love will cum to u soon..
it will..

i have sumting to say..
"BEBO!!! Y haven u called me?!?!"
pissed okay?

i bet he's out now..
hmmph..
didnt even bother to call..
BWEK!!
will pinch him later..
kakaka..

Power GEr!! i forgot our blogspot username/passwerd.. haha..
tell me ya?
i wan to upload the pics of the week de..

okay, nd to go off now..
reports and study..
haha

CIAO!!
MUACKS!!

mY wHole daY tOdaY!!!

Im sicK..
sO cAnt tInk taT mUch..

VerY heAdacHE-ey!!
i"ll Let tHe pIcs dO the ToKing..
OkaY!!!



On tHe waY tO sKool..

PraC cLAss!!!

GeMs mEeTiNG!!!!bAnu In sTyLe.. taTs babY's sPecs!!!

JEnNz!!!

QinG wEn N gOrdOn(bAby)!!!!

PQM cLass!!!

MR T.H.E!!!

nETTe & sUe.. plUs jB's liGht!!!

relaxiNg iN leCtuRe..

me!!!

mE n Dee baNgs!!!

maL, stOp iT wiT the fAce!!!

bEsTies.. oH, dEE!!!!!!!

daRk effEct!!

CIAO!!

MUACKS!!!

it took a long time to suppress it..
but nowadays, its awakening again..
i'll be lying if i say im not tinking of it..
i still do sumtimes..
n i feel sad wen it happens..
it hurts..
still..
jus trying my best to suppress it..

i noe my life is never gonna be the same..
there will always be tat black patch..
but i nd to live on
Cant be harping on the same old thing..

i had a dream jus now..
N i wake up crying..
at least i noe subconsciously..
its still there..

to bebo,
don wori..
i understand..
u r bz
wit fyp, skool and upcoming ITP..
i'll wait for 3 weeks..
Den we have fun aite?
the overnite stay..
the zoo..
n lots more..
*winks*

ok..
ciao..
MUACKS!!!

y must u bring back my past into our relationship?

its tat wat u want?
to live in the past..
im devastated, yes..

jus one mistake i made..
And we have to go thru tis over again..

Do u like to c me cry every nite?
Do u tink its fun?
*sobs*

all i wanted was to start anew..
a new life..
out of the world which i've lived..
for the past 6 weeks...
a world full of darkness and lies..
Full of sorrows...

im sori if i said stuff that hurts u..
But its part of my life..
My past is...
Can u accept it?
and me?
Again...

All i want is to live..
a happy life...
yes, i do tink of it sumtimes..
But nvr put my hopes high..
i gave up on tat..
a long time ago..
Plus its not worth my time..

i want this bond to be built on trust..
Trust btween us..
i disappoint u before..
yes, i noe...
but can u trust me again?
for the sake of tis bond we r building..
PLS...

*prays hard*
don make my heart broken again...
I don tink i can take it..
Its too painful..
if it happens again..
i won be able to love..
Ever again...

Tat i can gurantee..

WEEE!!!!!

so boring!!

i tell u sumting...
*whispering*
i've been SEXUALLY HARASSED!!!!
*sobbing*

haha..
yes, i have..
but in pretence..

haha..
was in my GEMS lecture..
we had to do role play jus now..
very malu..
Summore abt sexual harassment..
Superman!!
i got same title as u de..
so unlucky..

Sheesh!!!
im B-O-R-E-D!!
waitiNg for bebo..
to finish his FYP study..
n im alone...
Doing my formal report..
which practical was jus now..
so semanGatz..
haha

waiting for poly 50 event..
Powerboi sleeping..
like pig..
Superman and PowerGer so prepare 4 poly 50...
elektra wen hm...
as he so said," i'm sicK!!"
sumting is bothering u..
i noe..
Btw, E..
u jus don noe how to lie..
u shud get tips from me..
keke

im going out tis Sat!!!
yes!!!
a nite out!!
at last...
persuaded bebo to acc. me..
plus my mom..
my dad?
lets not spoil tis update aite?

yes..
i got an earful from my dad...
my mom didn't even say anything..
n he's like..
chut, chut...
i haven tok to him since sat..
the day it happened..

first, its my problem wen,who and where i wan to go..
wat time i wan to go hm..
i noe my limits.. btw..
im not stupid to b hm after midnite..
im scared of the dark..
plus i have nite blindness..
so..

plus, weekdays i have skool..
so i enjoy on weekends..
i noe i've been cumin hm late for the past 5 weeks..
but..
i cant stay at hm..
cos i had problems tat time..
if u ever lift a hand on me, even a finger..
i'll go straight to Paya lebar or Pasir Ris..
i'l be happy dere..
they luv me more than u do..

plus, if u treat me well..
n let me c u everyday..
i wont b like tis..

but no, u don noe anything abt me..
n i only c u on weekends..
wen i do sumting, u jus tick me..
wen u noe nothing abt me..

one more thing, yes..
i have a bf..
pls, jus accept it?
its been almost 3.5 yrs..
im 19..
not 9...
for heaven's sake...
sheesh..

its sad okay?
im one of ur blood..
n i detest u..

if only u wld b more concerned...

weee!!!

i get the most compliments today!!!
haha..
Thick-skinned?
i noe...
well, u cant help it wen ppl compliment u..
u admit it and accept it...
haha
rite?
*answers*RITE!!!

so clever!!

Ppl say im myself nowadays..
n i am happy..
to be myself again..
Problem-free!!
Crazy, sweeet and simple!!
keke..

btw, if ur intentions is to make me feel bad or jealous..
Seriously, its nt werking..
plus, i have my Bebo now..
n he's the nicest i can hav..
n im thankful to God for that..
Plus..
im back!!
so no matter wat, im HAPPY!!!!
keke

okay, im crazy..
Notin happened much so far..
Sheesh..

Reach hm early..
Comp hogging..
Reports..
Wen will it ever end?
hmmph..

okai, tats all for now!!
Ciao!!
Muacks!!

Me, myseLf n I!!!!!!!

okay.. another entry for today!!!

Went out wiTh the girls today!!
it was FUN, FUN, FUN!!!!
Wit tasha's supid jokes..
Plus the games.. the passing game..
the psst game.. so memalukan but, but it was fun!!
haha

okay, the pics are here..
haha

to all my gfs, i don need 2 mths now okay..
hmm.. jus the nxt day..
will do..
keke

me and beLOveD!!

My the oTher beLOved!!!

Plus my not-so-beloved.. hahah

The gIrlfrIENDS..

ms OrlAndo bLoom!!

WaITiNG FOr thE traIN...

Tats all fOR toDay!!! 4 more, fInd mE!!

P.S: the class Pics i haven update yet.. will do laterz!! ciao...

okay..
i have a lot to say and alot of pics to put!!!!!

Lets start by...

SaTurday:

i went to the beach!!! with Bebo... haha
Niway, as u all can read, i was troubled..
n he tot by bringing me to the beach and breathe in sum fresh air..
it would make me feel better..
Sweet kan???
*smiles*

Took and breathe in and breathe out air..
Fresh ones..
N it definitely made me better..
He made sum stupid jokes..
N making a fool of himself..
As per normal, his accidentally blunders.. like everyday!!!
keke..

Ya!!! btw, here are the pics!!!

cHeeky bOy + cheeKy gIrl = PerfEcT maTch

jumPing OF jOy!!!

AAHH!!!! bIg mOuth!!

SedaP nYe barIng.. sakIt tau kaki ku... hmmph

Screaming for pain after i put the mascara on his eyes.. haha

i realli don't like the negative aura around me n my superheroes..
i feel sad..
For them..
N me..

i'm tearing now..
but i don noe why..

i tink i feel sad for my 2 superheroes..
i noe they have big problems..
n i want them to be happy..
i don like to c them sad..
cos i will feel sad..
Plus they are nice ppl..
N nice ppl don deserve to be disappointed..

haiz...

i jus wish it will be sunshine after rain..
SOON.....

Roses are red
Violets are blue
Don be sad kay?
If u need me, i'll be there for u...

okay..

U can call me vain or watsoever but i wan to show my...

collection of prezzies!!!!
keke..
im so happy!!!

my first preZZie!! 2 days early.. frOm deaRESt eLEKTrA..

tHis iS fRm mY *eHem-eHem*!!! waNted a nEw baG sO muCH..

tHis IS the ShiRt fRoM mY bEstIEs!!! fRom fOreVer 21.. thIS was 6 dAyssss LATE!! keke

this iS waT i Jus gOt toDAy!! frOm tIng2, fyZa aNd mY 4 sUperhEroes!!

i lUv u gUys!!

The moment i saW thIS, i wAs jUmpiNg uP and dOWn ard The hSE..

aSkiNg my faMily tO smELL me..

keke

TKS!!
i LUV U!!!

MUACKS!! cIAO

P.S: i have 2 mOre pRezzIEs tO cUM.. thEy oWe me.. U caN caLL me tHick-sKin.. i don miND.. keke

P-R-O-B-L-E-M...

i hate tis werd..
Y must it exist in our life?
Its so inevitable..

All my superheroes are having prob..
One has bangla- prob.. (keke!!)
The other has BGR problem..
While the other 3 going into depression soon..
All the 5 superheroes..
Sheesh..
n i tot superheroes are problem-less..
They jus need to save the werld!!
BUT NO!!!

to E..
im worried..
yes, i am..
abt who?
U!!
tc ya..
U noe wat to do wen u are down..
I will immediately change into my Superhero suit..
And..
DAREDEVIL TO THE RESCUE!!!
Aite?
*smiles*

Another werd im having mixed feelings abt..

L-O-V-E

Y must it exists in both positive and negative way?
Y can't it jus be positive and stay SWEET all the way?

As for one, that is one of my problem..

haha..

okie..

CIAO!!

MUACKS!!

soon, the new-and-improved suEsUe will be back!!
haha..
okay.. im getting crazy..
MUACKS..
MUACKS!!

Adieu..

Sad is sad..
but i still have to let go of tis feeling..

im not crying cos he has a new girlfren..
i cried cos he found a replacement in his life...
only after 3 weeks that we ended..

Do i mean nothing during that 1 mth?
Was i jus another plaything he cud make use of?
Upon noeing the truth of his situation now..
i deleted all contacts and any links to him..
His numbers..
His MSN nick..
His photos..
Im still trying to figure out how to delete contacts in Friendster..
Those who noes, can pls tell me?
haha...

Keke..

Yes.. i have get rid of any thoughts and desires of him..
All hopes i have gotten rid off...
But wat disappoints me is that..
i took more than a mth to get over him..
Cried over him every nite..
But he..
Jus a few days..
Perhaps..
And now im still healing..
A little bit more..

And rekindling the love we used to had..
Between me and that special sum1 in my life..
Even though i've hurt him alot..
He's jus dere beside me...
Stood by me all the way...
Even when he noes im tinking of sum1 else..
He's jus there...
Listen to everything i said..
Made me happy..
Even on my bdae..
where i jus kept waiting..
He noes..
But he still helped me have a good time..
His frequent hugs and shoulders..
At least i noe i have sum1 to lean on..
Made his shirt wet..
Everyday..
keke..
kan, kan?

There were others too..
Like my best frens...
My superheroes..
Esp Elektra..
Who cried with me..
almost everynite..
keke..

Perhaps this is karma..
I broke his heart..
so now, sumbody breaks my heart..
Maybe it really do exists..

So now, im jus trying my best..
He has move on..
And i am abt to take a step..

So, let me be happy..
i pray to God..
to lighten my burden..
Make me feel at peace..
Insyaallah..

P.S: to E and DEE.. i won curse for now.. haha.. buat dosa je.. aku dah bnyk dosa.. nak suro aku tambah plk.. Astaghfirullahalazim..

wah piang!!

im realli, realli pissed!!!!

sInce jUs now..
GEMS class..

lEt me vent my frustrations okay?!?!

u fricking bastard..
u fricking playboy..
Well, at least i noe u r not DEAD!!
mal, i tink u noe who i am talking abt..

well, yes..
i noe how he is..

here is wat happen..

in my GEMS class..
the usual qn my banu says to me..
"How is he?"

My usual ans..
"I tink he's dead.."

so jus now i gave a different answer..

i told her,
"okay, y don u call him?"
stupid me, type his number on banu's cell..
n i pressed the green button..
n i passed the phone to her..
ignoring her..

Den tat banu waited for him to pick up the phone..
Sheesh..
well, he's alive..
banu said,"helo?? err.. hold on ah.."
and she passed the phone to me..
My immediate reaction?
i pressed the red button..
well, he is alive!!!
wow, amazing!!

n he did not contact me for 2 weeks!!!
well, like Oprah said,

"HE"S JUS NOT THAT INTO U!!!"

damn it..

im really pissed..
realli pissed!!

Den he even called banu 2 times using his hm phone..
i said don pick up..
but2..
she pick up on the 2nd try...
Shhesh..

hear girl's voice..
Straight away call the person..
GRR!!!!!!

to girls out there,
do b careful of guys like tis..
Don get used..
they jus play wit ur feelings..
wen they r done, they throw u away..
okay, 4 my case..
he treats me like spit..
Damn all the guys like tis..

it hurts like hell..
okay, im exaggerating..
Hell hurts more..
haha

niway, im done and over wit...

hmm..
i noe its funny..
to say tis..

but..
hmm..

to mr bacin..
hehe

Yes, i want to be more than wat we are..
im shy..
jus waiting for ur initiative..
haha
ciao!!!

hAlo..

DuuSh, dUuSh!!
bWek!!

my fave werds for now..
haha..

off i went to school just now.. at 11. Went to meet Azri for lunch. My craving for KFC is done. YEAH!! Zinger burgEr.. yum-yum.. off i went to class at 1pm.. but very de lame.. Shhesh.. the class was like only 25 mins.. so frustrating.. hmmph.. Den wen to sit in the library.. for air-con.. wen to find sum books for my epoxy thing.. i haven studied for my tests.. my reports will be piling nxt week.. Haiz.. so many tests cumin up.. Very stress!!!

After skool, i did not wan to go hm.. On my clever tot, i msg dee.. Where she was.. Luck was on my side.. She oso finish skool.. so we met up tamp.. drinks at long john.. chatting abt dee's personal probs.. which happened a long time.. n i DID NOT EVEN NOE!!! *thinkin wat kind of best fren am i*.. meals at BK.. waited for marLiany.. whom i haven seen her for.. hmm, i don noe how long.. stories abt dogs.. Facts abt them i didn't noe.. Do u noe that female dogs also have PMS (menses).. and like humans, dey have to wear pads.. haha.. okay, if u r a guy, u may feel disgusted.. But,but.. its a fact.. tok abt gay clubs.. n frens whom i haven seen in mths/yrs..

Den, i had to go off.. i nd to study.. if u don noe, i have 3 tests.. one is tmr.. which i oni read thru so far.. plus its case study.. BUT i have not studied yet.. haiz..

i jus got to find out that my family of superheroes, which used to consists of DareDevil and Elektra.. now have new members.. Superman, Power gerl and Power Boy.. haha

So there goes..
my day experiences in life today..

bYE..
MUACKS!!!!

superheroes legs!! guess whose is whose?

helo..
jus got hm de..

so tired!!
was tinkin of studying but lazy..
so here i am blogging..
kaka..

hmm..
lets c..
ytd, took my measurements again..
okay.. i noe i hav long hands and long legs..
but u don hav to EMPHASIZE it!!
Sheesh..
i don like like it wen ppl comment abt my body..
God made me tis way..
like it or not
i hav to live wit tis body till i die..
so i have to b tankful..
sheesh..

hmm, was reading dee's blog abt ashamed n all tat..
i admit..
i've done some shameful stuff in my life..
And most of it, i regret it..
after doing it..
won elaborate further..
all tis are sins which i have to pay for..
wen my time cums..
there will always b consequences..

to Fit, i don noe how u can actually do it..
but ur lifestyle is jus not for me..
we may be the worst of the worst in the family..
well, not me..
but YOU!!
dere is always goodness in our hearts..
even thou we used to create probs..
haha
we changed rite..
well, ME..
not YOU!!
haha..
No matter wat u do, i won comment on it..
ur life..
ur probs..
ur decision..
aku iye kan je..
kau pun dah besar..
ade otak sendiri..
kan, kan?

i admit im emotionally attached..
BUT U DON HAV TO CALL ME STUPID, 3 TIMES!!!!
i counted ok?
hmmph..

so ya..
tata..

i drank tea tarik today!!!
AT LAST!!!
tks, E!!!


MUACKS!!!!

Lets tok abt Ytd!!

i tink the best nite of the week!!
plus its been a while ever since i had fun..

ytd was my bdae celebration..
haha..

don ask me wat kind of best frens celebrate my bdae like so belated!!
haha

niway, we were supposedly to meet at 5..
But, but...
as per normal, knowing sumone will be late..
mal n me took our own sweet time in skool..
haha
so syam and dee were half an hr late..
n mal and me were 5o mins late
so yeah!!!

at least we made dEE and sYAm wait for us..
instead of the other round..
kakakakaka

upon meeting dee, i was like shocked..
3 of us were wearing the same exact colour..
PINK!!
i got a shock wen i saw mal in skool..
with the MNG shirt
i got another shock wen i saw dee..
plus, plus..
the jeans..
the belt..
the slippers(almost similar colours!!)
haha

Den we walk to marina square...
to eat..
was tinkin of going seoul garden..
but we went budget-design-and-contract
haha

to pizza hut, we went
very nice de..
long time nvr eat pizza..
which is a lie..
i ate pizza like..
last week...
kaka

Plus2..
i got my prezzie..
finally!!!
its a nice top..
GREEN de!!
haha
very flowery..
n its sleeveless!!!
i wonder y they bought it for me..
noeing im sensitive abt my BCG..
but i noe i'll wear it..
since its frm dem!!

after dinner..
we went to the stairs..
the big stairs..
n we sat at the middle of the stairs..
hah
n using dee's werds..
we went cam-whoring!!
hah..
click dere..
click here..
click, click everywhere..
too many photos..
will upload them..
wen my stupid windows are werking..
Sheesh..
jus broke down at the wrong time...

haha..
We did sum catching up..
Problem-telling..
all that stuff..

At 8, syam had go..
his dance rehearsals..

So we went to esplanade..
We bought MINERAL WATER...
i wanted to eat the $1 ICE CREAM..
but dee tak kasi..
haha
snap2 again..

n we went off
ard 9.30..

Went hm..
saw my pri skool fren..
chatted wit him..
4 a while..
goT hm at almost 10.30..

took a shower..
n half an hour later..
the match!!
GERMANY AND AGENTINA...
haha

to my besties, inoe its boring to listen to me tok bt it..
over and over again..
but jus bear wit me..
a little while more..
tks again..
for the top..
LUV IT!!!!

to syam, tks for ur kind attention to listen to my prob..
mebbe u were rite..
not worth it to gloat over an idiot..
haha..
btw, don wori..
hope ur probs will werk out jus fine..

tats basically all..

tata..
here's a peek at ytd..

MUACKS!!

i liKE tis Pic!! sTylE de...

FeeLin SWEeT!!!

As UsUal.. mIrrOr iMAgE..

bElaTEd bDae bOy N gIrl!! i wlD noT haVe mEt hIm iF not fOr oUr bdAes...

pReTty wOmen waLkinG dOwn tHE sTreet

tURn n PosE!!!!!